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Take-Down of a Woman by a Felon . a partly astral story by Alice B. Clagett

Take-Down of a Woman by a Felon

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Dear Ones,

Here is an astral story about a felon MO (modus operandi) to do with injury to women, that I heard during my 2015 summer stay in Durango …


There is another type of Take-Down that has to do with felons, and the type of life that a felon leads, especially after having been in prison. I base the below on an astral story I heard over several months in 2015 while spending summer vacation in Durango, Colorado.

I recall going into one of two convenience stores near my summer rental one afternoon. There was a cashier behind the counter … a man I had seen there before. Another man walked into the store; he had on his ankle a house-arrest bracelet of the sort that is issued as an alternative to incarceration.

This was the first such I had seen, although I had read about them. As I approached the cash register with my ice cream. I heard the cashier ask the other man where he got his anklet, and for what crime. Then he indicated he had one too.

I was quite shocked. Could it be that there were so many felons in Durango that store owners had no choice but to hire cashiers who wore house-arrest bracelets? I began to feel that Durango must be full of felons, and that is when I started to dream about the below astral story.

At the time it seemed the story was targeting me personally. As nothing happened on the physical plane to prove or disprove the astral story, my guess is that I personalized a feeling I encountered in the ‘astral airs’ of the Wild West, and that some other hapless woman … maybe in Durango, maybe elsewhere … must have been the intended target.

Here is the leadup to the story …


Oft-times, I feel, because of the rough things that happen in prison, a felon who comes out of prison will have a tendency towards sex work to make a few extra dollars … maybe to buy some drugs, or for whatever reason. So there are these two themes in the lives of felons: sex work and drug use.

On the clair plane, I also see these themes in the lives of felons: Quite frequently. M2M,  because most felons are men, and in prison, lots of times, rape must be going on. And so a habit of M2M, or a breakdown of a preference for the M2F types of relationships might occur.

What that leads to is misogyny … hatred of women. It surely cannot be that this is always the case. But in a felon  who is torqued to the Dark in other ways, I feel that it sometimes happens.

On getting out of prison, that person might be looking for women, to take their money and kill them. He might feel angry at the world. And men might be perceived as too powerful to act towards in anger; so women might be the target of that anger.


Perhaps when felons leave prison there is a psychological evaluation. The ‘psych eval’ indicates that something maladaptive is going on with the felon; and an attempt is being made to reintegrate them into the mainstream.

Thus on leaving prison, I hypothesize, the felon might have in hand a ‘psych eval’ of himself. He might take umbrage at this evaluation; even bitterly despise it as the thinking of a ‘normal’ person who is just not with it, a person who does not know how to work the system in the manner the felon adeptly does. That might be the felon’s line of thinking.

Thus when the felon targets a woman that he wants to take down … say, to murder, and steal money from … he might assemble false evidence purporting that his own prison-release psychological evaluation is in fact that of the targeted woman. (In the case of my Durango astral story, that woman, it seemed, was me.)

In psychological terms, this maneuver is called ‘projection’, but in law-and-order terms, it is fraud. Along the same lines, the felon who is setting up a woman for the fall might purport that the woman herself is a sex worker with a drug habit; he may project the qualities of his own life onto her.

If this ploy works, this is a Take-Down, both physical and financial. The whole life of the woman is taken away. The identity is removed. Bad reputation is substituted for a good reputation. And of course, the property of the murdered woman is also stolen.


So that is a form of Take-Down by the Dark. It is difficult because a person who wants to live a saintly life, and upon whom all kinds of aspersions are cast … who is held in the light of calumny and slander … needs to have a very strong faith and footing and belief in God, and hope, and charity towards fellow man, in order not to lose the Light of God within their own body of Light when they suspect they may be so targeted.

I can say from personal experience of the astral burden, that it is a difficult test. It is rather like Christ’s test, you know? Christ made it through his doubts in the Garden of Gethsemane, and to full faith in God, but not without having a doubt or two. I had my doubts as well.

Thank God the astral rumors never solidified into physical fact. I returned to Los Angeles shaken, but unscathed. That is better than what happened to Christ, for sure. Thank goodness he underwent that test for all our sakes.

In love, light and joy,
Alice B. Clagett
I Am of the Stars

The above is excerpted and adapted from Link: “The Take-Down,” by Alice B. Clagett, written on 24 February 2018; published on 28 February 2018 … https://wp.me/p2Rkym-8pF ..

Excerpted and adapted on 13 April 2020 from a blog written on 24 February 2018; published on 28 February 2018; revised on 1 March 2023


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Internet Censorship: Panic Attacks by Those in Authority? . by Alice B. Clagett

Written and published on 9 May 2018

Dear Ones,

My personal notion of the purported censorship issues with Facebook, Google, and Youtube has to do with what some call ‘cognitive diminution’ …

Link: “Space Weather Health Alert Information,” by Ben Davidson, in Space Weather News … https://spaceweathernews.com/space-weather-health-alert-information/ ..

… and what I call ‘anxiety attacks’ during ramp-ups of the Incoming Light … whether to do with high proton speed (because of solar winds; see Space Weather … https://www.spaceweather.com … upper left) … or to do with high Planetary K Index (indicating geostorm activity … see the same link, in the middle of the left column).

I feel what may be happening is that those in positions of authority, during the Light ramp-ups, may feel less ‘in control’ than usual.

And then, to put on my psychological hat, I am guessing they may ‘project’ this feeling onto other people … perceiving them as the threat that needs to be controlled. Eo ipso, censorship may occur in the media, a la the ancient days of McCarthyism …

Link: “McCarthyism,” in Wikipedia … https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/McCarthyism ..

However that may be, I would like to suggest that everyone who feels themselves sometimes in a state of anxiety, go ahead and ask your doctor for some Clonazepam (klonopin), or another reasonably priced, mild anxiety remedy like that, to keep on hand in case you should begin to feel anxious. I suggest very short-term use of this drug, and only in emergency situations, as there are notable side effects of withdrawal, especially, apparently, withdrawal from long-term use … including some side effects that may persist for a long time, even if withdrawal is very gradual.

I am suggesting this especially for law enforcement, armed school guards, Army-Navy, and Reserves. Toting a gun during an anxiety attack just makes no sense at all, would you not agree?

It is not possible to think rationally while having a panic attack. It is not possible to act in the best interests of the American people at that time. Rather, that is the time to look after one’s own welfare, one’s own health, and one’s own state of mind … to take a break from the office; to get out and exercise; or maybe to relax with friends and family.

In love, light and joy,
I Am of the Stars

See also … Link: “Community Alert: Preparing for Panic Attacks and Cognitive Disfunction During Solar Events and Gateways,” by Alice B. Clagett, written on 19 February 2015; revised on 17 December 2015; updated on 24 March 2022 … https://wp.me/p2Rkym-4xN ..


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The Take-Down . by Alice B. Clagett

Written on 24 February 2018; published on 28 February 2018

    • Take-Down 1: Curse Against a Christian Church: Black Magic Marriage [Castratrux – Basal Vampire]
    • Take-Down 2: Curse of the Jihad, First Version [Castratrux – Basal Vampire, The Surg]
    • Take-Down 2: Curse of the Jihad, Alternate Plan . The Stand-in Look-Alike, Mimic, or Doppelganger [Castratrux – Basal Vampire]
    • Take-Down 3: Curse of the Long-Held Grudge
    • The Curse of the Crooked Blade [Castratrux – Basal Vampire]
    • Take-Down 4: Curse of the Social Gaffe [Castratrux – Basal Vampire]
    • Take-Down by the Dark, of the Light, at a Christian Retreat Center
      • Nightmare Vision: Group Leader’s Satanic Roommate [Heart Vampire]
      • Nightmare Vision: The Stand-In Rapist Obsessed by a Group Leader [Heart Vampire]
      • Nightmare Vision: The Pregnant Woman and the Maniacal Man in the Wheelchair  [Castratrux – Basal Vampire, The Surg]
    • Take-Downs of Spiritual Groups [Black Magicker]
      • Spiritual Book Reading Attended by Seductive Worship Dancer
      • Gathering of Spiritual, Celibate Men, and Arrival of a Dark-Aspected Woman
      • Spiritual Traveler Meets Vengeful Person and Scandalous Web Page Pops Up
    • Take-Down by of a Woman by a Felon [Ice Man, Ice Princess, Hunter-Snuffer, Torturess, Wifer-Hacker, Dank, Femme Fatale – Dominatrix]
      • Introduction: A Story by Alice About Summer in the Wild West
      • Themes in the Lives of Felons That Deter Rehabilitation
      • Take-Down of a Woman by a Felon: An MO (Modus Operandi)
      • Conclusion Regarding the Felon Take-Down
    • Take-Down of a Business or Sports Rival
    • Take-Down: Hostile Business Takeover [Black Magicker]
    • A Rape Game Called ‘Tag’ [Hunter-Snuffer]
    • Heresy of Salvation Through Take-Down [Black Magicker]
      • Nightmare Vision: Guru in Hell Stands on Shoulders of Sacrificial Victims
    • Why Is Salvation Through Take-Down a Heresy?
    • Religious Warfare
    • Today: Christians and Jews Warring on Muslims
    • The Synthetic Example of Hinduism
    • The True Effect of Salvation through Take-Down
    • Venus Kriya to Get Rid of Grudges
    • Aethos Sound Meditation to Spiff Up the Astral Body

Dear Ones,

Here are examples of the Take-Down. There are three videos, and one edited Summary in three parts …

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The Pornography Industry and the Common Good . by Alice B. Clagett

Written and published on 7 November 2016

Pornography Industry

Image: “Discern the Common Good,” by Alice B. Clagett, 12 February 2023, CC BY-SA 4.0 International, from “Awakening with Planet Earth,” https://awakeningwithplanetearth.com

Image: “Discern the Common Good,” by Alice B. Clagett, 12 February 2023, CC BY-SA 4.0 International, from “Awakening with Planet Earth,” https://awakeningwithplanetearth.com

. . . . .

    • Clair Stories about Women Having Sex with Fitness Instructors
    • Clair Stories about Children Having Sex with Illegal Drug Dealers
    • Pornography as Sex Education for Young Adults
    • Clair Stories about Sex Workers and Law Enforcement
    • Suppression of Data on HIV Infection
    • Summary

Dear Ones,

This blog is about the pornography industry and the common good.

I was looking over the propositions on the California ballot today, and have come to some interesting realizations regarding ways to solve the issues we Americans face as a nation today.


In California, Proposition 60 has been put forth, regarding requiring employers to have actors in pornography films use condoms, and to provide vaccines and medical checkups. [This proposition on the 8 November 2016 ballot failed to pass.] This is an issue sidestepped by the California League of Women Voters, whose opinions I value because they reflect my concerns for children’s and women’s rights. So I took a closer look …


There are issues around occupations that do not conform to societal expectations, such as the sex worker industry. The issues are: Should Americans be allowed to view pornography, or is this practice unethical? Ought punitive measures be in place regarding pornography? If so, what punitive measures? For instance, why not just let all the sex workers die of AIDS? That would serve them right, would it not?

These are not thoughts of our conscious minds. Rather, they are upwellings of negative emotion from our subconscious minds.

Many people have learned, in early childhood, that sexual expression needs to be corralled and closeted … in a bedroom, for example. That the sex act needs to be performed quietly, so that no one can hear. That only certain ways of expressing sexuality are ok; others (the list is long) are not ok. In the case of women, ‘that a lady need not express herself through orgasm’. The notion that children may not feel sexual till they reach 16, or 18 (when in fact, children begin to learn about sexuality, and to express it, in very early childhood).

These sexual taboos, which vary from family to family, and from culture to culture, are the source of Soul wounding in early childhood, which imbalances the second chakra and interferes with the function of the heart chakra.

And so, when we consider the issue of sex workers and condoms, we are really dipping into the mire of societal taboos regarding sexuality, and not just dealing with a straightforward issue of what might be good for disempowered sex workers.


Up until recently,  the savvy rhetorician could manipulate societal taboos to win kudos for personal gain … In this way, laws have been passed in America that reinforce early childhood Soul wounding and countermand the common good.

This is a new day on New Earth, and all of us are now able to arrive at better solutions to societal issues. This is because the common person … you and I … are rising to an understanding of the subconscious mind. We can move beyond these subconscious barriers, and on to new, more positive solutions to social issues.


In the case of condoms for sex workers, the subconscious negative burden of America is then notion aforementioned: Why not let them all die of AIDS?

OK, let’s look at that. While the sex worker occupation is socially unacceptable, it is also avidly sought after by both men and women. This has been the case down through history; there were merchants, women, slaves, and ‘canabae’ (1) who were camp followers for the Roman legion, and this has been the case for armies down through history. In a civilian context, this is also true.

In past, this issue has been dealt with in a subconscious context: Our subconscious mind wants to place blame, to pass judgment, regarding this activity. For women, our own husbands and their friends are engaged in this activity. For men, our wives would call it quits were we to come out in favor of this activity, though we may personally find it an attractive prospect. What to do? The answer has been, to project the blame and judgement we feel toward our spouse onto the sex workers.

This act of projection is one of the subconscious mechanisms that are now coming to the light of Awareness. It’s becoming clear that the issues reside within the spousal relationship, between man and wife. And more specifically, they lie in the clearings of the Soul wounding of the second chakra now taking place on Earth through the incoming photonic Light. As these clearings take place, the negative onus of societal expectations rises to our conscious awareness. Thus spouses can begin to speak frankly of the issue of sex work and its utilization by the husband, or by the wife.

In the meantime, there is, for many Americans, still the negative subconscious burden in place. This may be overcome by pointing out the flow-through effect of labeling such an occupation ‘illegal’. Thus we may steer our course with an eye to the common good, rather than to that subconscious bias to which we all fall prey from time to time. Here are the issues at hand:


In America today, there are laws in place against sex workers. Yet laws are not enforced, as logic would propose, against those who frequent the sex trade.

  • This legal inequity is held in place by the subconscious nature of our disapproval of this occupation, and effected through the subconscious process known as ‘projection’.
  • We are using the legal system to project our negativity towards the sex worker occupation on sex workers, instead of dealing with the issues as husband-wife and parent-child issues.
  • Because of this legal inconsistency, sex workers are among the disempowered in America.


There is a rising sentiment to protect workers in America. Workers in many occupations are protected by laws regarding worker safety. However, in the case of occupations judged by the public to be unethical, there is no safety protection.

This concept of safety includes, in the case of sex workers, the danger of disease, including eventually fatal disease, danger of physical injury by clients and by pimps, and danger to life itself, as in the case of snuff films.


Sex workers know that admission of infection by HIV can be fatal; yet sex work invariably leads to infection. For the sake of life and limb, test results are falsified. This, to the sex worker, necessary precaution then puts those who utilize their services at risk of infection.

Thus the danger of disease, including eventually fatal disease, flows through to those that use the services of sex workers, and from there to their spouses, and from there onward to circle of intimate acquaintances of both spouses.

Clair Stories about Women Having Sex with Fitness Instructors

I have had a number of clair reports about M2F sex work through fitness centers, targeting older women, who divorce their husbands, marry a fitness instructor, contract HIV, and are ‘taken to the cleaners’ by the new husband.

Clair Stories about Children Having Sex with Illegal Drug Dealers

Also in the clair realm, there are reports of elementary school children trading M2Child sex for drugs; thus the children are also contracting HIV by junior high school age.

Pornography as Sex Education for Young Adults

Here is another flow-through effect involving children: Pornography films are tools by means of which our young people learn about the sex act. Use of condoms in pornography films would help our young people understand the importance of safe sex practices.

Clair Stories about Sex Workers and Law Enforcement

There are clair stories to the effect that the flow-through effect extends to law enforcement and their spouses, because of widespread practice of unprotected jail rape of sex workers.

Suppression of Data on HIV infection

Data on HIV infection in the United States have been suppressed …

Link: “Compendium: HIV / AIDS Pandemic, and Data Suppression by the Centers for Disease Control,” by Alice B. Clagett, published on 10 July 2016; updated … https://wp.me/p2Rkym-5QE ..

Why is this? It is possible that HIV incidence began to step up in 2014, and that many more people are involved than is generally known. Whether this is true, or not, can only be determined when the facts are, by some intrepid Soul in the Centers for Disease Control, finally brought to the light of public scrutiny.


From this I conclude that  the flow-through effect from sex work involves a broad range of people. It affects men who frequent sex workers. But also, women and children. And possibly many more people than published data have led us to believe.


  • Sex workers frequently act in pornography films for extra income.
  • If they do not practice safe sex, then they will get HIV.
  • If the health of sex workers is not protected, the flow-through groups will get HIV. This might include you and me.
  • And so, it is in our own best interest, and for the common good, that the health of actors in the pornography industry be protected.

In love, light and joy,
Alice B. Clagett
I Am of the Stars

Written and published on 7 November 2016


(1) ‘Canabae’ were the children of camp followers … women or slaves … of the Roman legion.


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Soul Wounding: On Seeing Suffering as Good . by Alice B. Clagett

Filmed on 27 August 2016; published on 28 September 2016

    • Catastrophic Childhood Experience: Genital Mutilation of a Young Boy by a Parent [re ‘Castratrux – Basal Vampire’]
      • Cruelty as Being ‘For Your Own Good’
      • The Notion That the End Justifies the Means
        • Eugenics Experiments
      • Acting Out Soul Wounding
      • Other Instances of Catastrophic Childhood Learning: One Parent Kills the Other, or Child Is Kept in Closet or Chained to Bed [re ‘Likes Blondes Too’ and ‘Spoil’s]
      • Daydream about Felon Eugenics Experiment [re ‘Castratrux – Basal Vampire’]
        • On Reprogramming Early Childhood Learning
    • Second Catastrophic Childhood Learning Experience: Substitute Mom Murdered [re ‘Likes Blondes Too’]
      • On Becoming Acquainted with the Inner Child
    • Third Catastrophic Childhood Learning Experience: Thought That Having Sex Might Kill a Woman [re ‘The Maldekian’r]
    • Conclusion
    • Photos by Alice

Dear Ones,

This video and the edited Summary and Outline that follow it are about some astral stories I have heard on the clair plane, to do with Soul wounding experiences which teach a child that suffering is good, or that the end justifies the means. All these accounts are from clair hearing, not from the physical realm …

There is information in this summary that’s not in the video, and vice versa. All these accounts are from clair hearing, not from the physical realm …



Hello, Dear Ones, It’s Alice. I Am of the Stars.

I wanted to talk a little about a childhood wounding experience that I ran into only on the astral plane, and which seems very severe. There are a number of these, actually, about which I would like to talk.

Catastrophic Childhood Experience: Genital Mutilation of a Young Boy by a Parent [re ‘Castratrux – Basal Vampire’]

You know, all children go through a phase in their childhood where they are learning about their sexuality. And typically they learn about it from their sisters and brothers or from their playmates, without a lot of adult supervision.

In this case there was a young boy who was learning about sexuality from his sister … his younger sister, I assume. When his father found out about it, he mutilated the boy’s genitals. In that action he also expressed verbally that he was doing it ‘for the child’s own good’ … for his own benefit, and for his ethical development as a person. Of course, this is a massive distortion of the Light.

The things that are for our own good in the world, and for the good of our Souls, inevitably involve great joy. So the optimal path for Soul evolution involves the pursuit of happiness, and joy, and love, and Light … appreciation and gratitude and so forth; the cultivation of those emotions, and not the intense suffering and social stigma involved in genital mutilation. This is the very farthest from the way for a father to raise his children … the farthest from the Light.

Cruelty as Being ‘For Your Own Good’. So then, at a very young age this young person learned this very hard lesson to the effect that suffering and physical mutilation and self-hatred … hatred of the body … were good for the Soul, good for the character, and good for a person’s ethics. This was a completely wrong thing.

This lack of genitals also cast him into the role of homosexual for the rest of his life. He had not the ability to carry out the normal sex act, that he was inclined to perform as a man. So he was forced into a role rather like that of a woman.

This was a further distortion of his Light that involved going against his own principles, going against his own desires, and so forth. He had to deal with all these things. In doing so he came to an understanding, at a more mature age … a false understanding based on these false learning experiences of his youth … the great Soul wounding of his youth … and no doubt, of many prior lifetimes … that cruelty to people was ‘for their own good’. For more on this notion of cruelty being ‘for one’s own good’, see …

Link: “Selfless Service as Suffering or Alms-Giving,” by Alice B. Clagett, Filmed on 28 August 2016; published on 30 September 2018 … https://wp.me/p2Rkym-6cJ ..

The Notion That the End Justifies the Means. There is a form of ethics out there that has to do, in a similar way, with a kind of tyranny against the free will of humankind, with the notion that there is a ‘master plan’ that needs to be put into effect so as to perfect the world … perfect human society … and so forth. Such was the case with Hitler, when there was a plan that there were certain types of people that had the right to be alive on Earth … and that everyone else, including the Polish peoples and the Jewish peoples and probably many others … deserved to be put to death so as to implement the plan.

Eugenics Experiments. In addition it was felt that these people were so inferior to the favored race of people that it would be all right … it would be ethical to perform surgical experiments on them no matter what the pain that was inflicted … though it resulted in their torture and in their death … for the sake of society, and for the sake of development of a scientific body of knowledge of medicine and genetics and so forth. And these experiments were performed.

This type of philosophy, that the ends justify any means that are used to attain them, is purported on the astral airs to be espoused by various groups of people in the world today … including some genetic engineering experiments; experiments with paranormal abilities; and in the experiment I am about to explain.

Acting Out Soul Wounding. Because people who have great Soul trauma in childhood have to resolve that trauma in their adult lives, or else are doomed to act it out time after time, or to inflict that trauma on other people and see it acted out in other people (which is called, in the realm of psychology, ‘substitution’), their cases are coming before the world right now, during the Awakening process, first.

Other Instances of Catastrophic Childhood Learning: One Parent Kills the Other, or Child Is Kept in Closet or Chained to Bed [re ‘Likes Blondes Too’ and ‘Spoils’]. This includes people such as the blameless young person that I mentioned before. Then there is the case of some young people who see their fathers slaughter their mothers before their eyes (or even vice versa: maybe the mother poisons the father). There are even young people who are chained to a bed, or kept in a closet for all their lives, until they somehow escape or else pass on. There are cases of vast and extreme Soul wounding in childhood. These are coming up now, because the Light will not support them staying on Earth unless they clear.

What is also coming up right now is acting out or substitute acting out of the Soul trauma of early childhood so that this will come up to the Awareness of the conscious mind, and so that it can be resolved through the Incoming Light. This is true for all these peoples.

Daydream about Felon Eugenics Experiment [re ‘Castratrux – Basal Vampire’]. Now back to the first young man of whom I spoke. Apparently this young person … who since grew up … started having daydreams about acting out, to do with his early childhood wounding. What these daydreams (which were very horrifying to me) were, was a bringing of the early incident up to Awareness … just as we mentioned before. Whether the daydreams were actually carried out in reality seems very unlikely to me; a very moot point. The likelihood is that dreams like this, which come as astral stories into the noosphere, are just the welling up of this old wounding so that it can be resolved.

I will tell you what kind of dreams result from such early wounding: This particular dream had to do with felons, and the notion that they could be repatriated to good work in the community by transforming male felons into women. In the astral stories, in these daydreams, these felons were transformed through gender operations to transgender females.

I mentioned this before, and I have also discussed before the results of that, which is that they turned to serial killing because of the great wounding in their genitals, and because they are unable to express their sexual drive. So then they turn to killing instead, because the cells that are gone from their sexual organs have been killed, and there is still the memory of this killing of the cells. So this brings up the notion of killing. And then it gets turned into this acting out of killing.

In the daydream what happened was an unfortunate series of incidents of acting out this notion, combined with the idea that any means might be employed in the service of a great notion of transforming humanity for the better. And what resulted from that kind of philosophy, in the daydream, is something very very dark and distorted in the Light. It was about a bunch of transgender felons who became serial killers, according to the astral lore.

On Reprogramming Early Childhood Learning. So then when that daydream transpires, then the next thing to do is to figure: I have had this daydream, involving so much suffering, based on my early childhood learning. Obviously this learning was faulty … or the daydream would have turned out better. So what can I do to change my learning experience, to transform it into something more true.

Second Catastrophic Childhood Learning Experience: Substitute Mom Murdered [re ‘Likes Blondes Too’]

Then there was a case that has come up on the astral plane … two cases that involved killing of women in childhood. One was a case where the boy’s mother went off someplace and deserted him at an early age; and the father had a call girl in. Because of the culture … it was some distant culture … he killed her right after having intercourse. But it was socially acceptable there; and so the young boy had the opportunity to see a mother substitute killed before his eyes. And that gave him the notion that a woman he had for his own wife or significant other might be killed. This put before him constantly, in his relationships with women, the concern that he might behave in the same way as his father.

In this case the daydreams would be back to the early childhood experience, and then on to the experience of all the women he had ever known intimately, and on to daydreams about them being killed. There was thus the potential for acting out.

On Becoming Acquainted with the Inner Child. Another thing to do is to look back at childhood, and try and uncover the early childhood events that took place. This can be done by developing an acquaintance with the Inner Child … Search my blog category: Inner child – lost children of the Soul – repressed memories – repressed emotions

Third Catastrophic Childhood Learning Experience: Thought That Having Sex Might Kill a Woman [re ‘The Maldekian’]

This is the final instance I have for you today; it has to do with a young man … again, just before or at the age of puberty … who was experimenting sexually. It so often happens, at this time, that this type of thing happens. He was experimenting sexually, and he thought that the only way that he could do this experiment with the young girl that he knew, was to somehow immobilize her first; that was his concern. So he tried chloroform or paint thinner or something; he used some chemical over her nose to render her temporarily unconscious.

What happened was that then she looked like she had passed on, and he thought that he had killed her. And so then, in his state of terror, in his mind he immediately associated sexuality with killing women … in a manner similar to what had happened in the second case that we talked about just now.

And so now, whenever he thinks about having sex with a woman, or if he is married to a woman, he is always concerned that he might kill her. He always does that. And when he gets angry with a woman, he has always to fight that tendency to act out that early childhood drama.


What a childhood drama. My gosh! And so many people these days are coming up with these sorts of very deep, dark Soul woundings, and bearing for the world the responsibility of clearing all those dark energy threads from planet Earth.

Let’s all say a prayer for all the people involved in these sorts of energies. And let us do our best to cheer them on, in their great challenge and endeavor for new life on New Earth.


  • First Catastrophic Childhood Experience: Genital mutilation of a young boy by a parent when the parent discovers sibling sexual play in early childhood. Description of the resultant distortions of light.
  • The notion that cruelty to people is for their own good … this came about because the child was treated cruelly by the father, and the child depended on the father for survival. If the father were to be viewed as ‘bad’ then the child might not survive; thus the assumption was made that the father was good, that the physical cruelty enacted by the father must also be good, and that it would be appropriate to act out this physical cruelty with other people. Were this acting out to take place, as, for instance, in daydreams in adult life about mutilating other people ‘for their own good’. More on this below …
  • The notion that the end justifies the means; that any means suit an end that is for the good of humanity … the notion, for instance of Hitler, that a master plan ought to be implemented that involved medical experiments on concentration camp detainees, and elimination of certain subsets of humankind in the interests of eugenics. In the case of this first child, the lesson learned was that sex with a girl was so very wrong that it must be prevented through removal of the physical means of performing the sex act; this then forced the maturing boy into a sexual role that was feminine in nature, although his natal inclination was otherwise. From this one might imagine the notion that it might be all right to perform eugenics experiments involving the removal of genitals, as long as the end was for the good of humanity.
  • In more recent times, there are astral stories about genetic experiments and paranormal warfare or corporate competition experiments based on the philosophy of any means to an end.
  • Additional instances of deep early childhood Soul wounding (from the media): A child in a family where one parent kills the other; a child kept in a closet or chained to a bed.
  • Astral story dreamed by the first child above: An eugenics experiment with felons, projecting onto them the genital mutilation experienced by the child, and retrofitting them, as it were, with transgender operations, so that their drive to aggression and acting out of criminal behavior might be transformed to the feminine qualities of compassion and motherly love. In fact, this astral story turned out the opposite of what was intended: the transgender felons, having no longer a means of ‘letting off steam’ through orgasm, instead turned to serial killing. The nightmare quality of this astral story reflects the depth of the dreamer’s original Soul wounding, and the attempt to project this Soul wounding onto other people. Projection, as I understand it, is a way of looking at deep trauma ‘at arm’s length’ … The act of projection, I feel, makes the exploration of the trauma less threatening. Also, this astral story embodied the philosophy of ‘any means to an end’ … in this way, it was reminiscent of the Nazi medical experiments.
  • When a person finds themselves going over this sort of astral story, involving so much suffering, then the thing to do is to look back at childhood, and try and uncover the early childhood events that took place. This can be done by developing an acquaintance with the Inner Child (search this term on my blog). Added:
  • Second Catastrophic Childhood Experience: Mother went away when the child, a boy, was very young. The father had a call girl in, and killed her after having sex with her. This put before the young boy the concern that his having sex with a woman might lead to killing her. The result was the man had daydreams with a nightmare-like quality … the daydreaming mind constructed and elaborated on astral stories about such scenarios. As in the above instance, I feel that the thing to do would be to become aware of the nightmare quality of these astral stories, and to ask oneself: Clearly there was false learning in my early childhood. What was the falseness, and what would be the greater truth?
  • Third Catastrophic Childhood Experience: Early childhood sexual play where boy uses chloroform or the like to date rape the girl, then becomes concerned that he may have killed her (although she was only unconscious). This is similar to the experience of the second child described above, although not so terrifying. Nevertheless, it has caused the man always to feel, when he has sex with a woman, that he might be in danger of killing her. When he gets angry with a woman, he has always to fight that tendency to act out the early childhood drama.
  • Conclusion: These cases of deep early childhood Soul wounding are coming up to the Light right now, so that the wounding may be cleared, and these Souls may be healed. People who have experienced such early childhood traumas in this lifetime are those who have agreed to do the clearing work not just for themselves in this lifetime, but also for all humankind, through all their incarnations in the recently concluded 10,000-year Age of Darkness. Let us keep these great Souls in our prayers and in our hearts, that their good work for humankind may be accomplished with all possible speed and efficiency.

In love, light and joy,
I Am of the Stars

Photos by Alice

Image: “Garden Plants 1,” by Alice B. Clagett, 27 August 2016, CC BY-SA 4.0

Image: “Garden Plants 1,” by Alice B. Clagett, 27 August 2016, CC BY-SA 4.0

Image: “Garden Plants 2,” by Alice B. Clagett, 27 August 2016, CC BY-SA 4.0

Image: “Garden Plants 2,” by Alice B. Clagett, 27 August 2016, CC BY-SA 4.0


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