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ADULTS ONLY (PG-13) Kali . a story by Alice B. Clagett

Written and published on 21 August 2019

  • INTRODUCTION
  • NO SECURE PLACE TO LEAVE MY BELONGINGS WHILE AT THE FITNESS CENTER
  • THE MYSTERY OF THE MISSING SUN HAT
    • Two of My Sun Hats Disappear in the Changing Room
    • The Cleaning Lady Who Chased Me with Her Broom
    • Eh, So What? at the Front Desk
  • NEW TEACHERS AT SENIOR FITNESS CLASSES
    • ‘Kali’ as a Fitness Instructor
    • A Second ‘Kali’ Is Hired as Fitness Instructor
    • I Will Nail You!
    • Hiding Behind a Pillar to Elude Her
  • FOR ADULT VIEWING ONLY . IMAGE OF KALI CLOTHED

Dear Ones,

INTRODUCTION

In the autumn of 2018 I had been attending senior exercise classes at a local fitness center for several years. I was over the initial condition, plantar fasciitis, that prevented my usual hiking and steered me to the fitness center, and I was getting tired of doing the same not very challenging exercises time after time, in a darkly lit room, with teachers sometimes good, and sometimes not to my liking, and music so loud that I had to wear noise dampening ear muffs.

NO SECURE PLACE TO LEAVE MY BELONGINGS WHILE AT THE FITNESS CENTER

There were other issues to deal with at the fitness center. Topmost was the issue of security for my person and my belongings. The front desk had advised, on my first day there, that cars in the parking lot were often broken into; and that I should leave nothing of value in the cars. The advice of the front desk regarding the lockers in the changing room was the same: Locking the lockers would not avail; I ought leave nothing of value in them.

I asked about the high security lockers in front of the front desk, which had keys, and the people at the desk advised these were also not secure; I later found that front desk personnel had the keys, and these personnel changed out frequently. Thus it must be that any number of ex-staff might, theoretically, have keys to the high security lockers.

Where was one to leave one’s wallet and car keys, then? I thought maybe I keep them in a backpack at the back of the exercise class, and stand directly in front of the backpack throughout.

This I found to be a successful approach, although I was only able to participate when one of the teachers asked the people in the group to stride round the room as one of her exercises, by first donning my backpack.

In addition, there was a woman in one of the classes, perhaps cognitively challenged, who would attempt to filch our belongings, and on Fridays adults not in the class would sneak in and walk off with people’s handhelds, keys, and purses.

In short, while in that class, it was ‘heads up’ at every moment, with regard to personal security.

THE MYSTERY OF THE MISSING SUN HAT

Two of My Sun Hats Disappear in the Changing Room

Along those lines, and before getting back to the true topic of today’s blog, I remember how, when I first started going to the fitness center, when I would go to the changing room after class, that I somehow unaccountably walked out of the changing area missing my sun hat. This I knew because I needed to put it on as I exited the lobby for the parking lot, and could not. I went back in and looked in the locker, and asked at the front desk … No hat! Quite a mystery!

Because this happened a second time, in much the same way, it seemed clear that something was up, and that something had to do with the changing room.

So then a third time, after class, I walked into the changing area, this time with careful determination to keep an eye on my hat. I changed in a restroom stall, so that I could keep my hat and belongings on the wall side of the stall. I walked out of the stall and stood at a restroom sink, belongings touching my left leg.

The Cleaning Lady Who Chased Me with Her Broom

I looked up at the mirror as I began to brush my teeth. Then I saw a cleaning lady sidle up behind me, on the left side, and bend down toward the bag in which I had placed my hat. I grabbed the top of the bag and looked her in the eye. She grabbed her broom handle and lifted it over her head.

I grabbed my bag and went to the far side of the locker room to put my shoes on. She followed me, broom handle raised, aiming to position herself behind my back, between the lockers and the bench on which I was sitting.

Eh, So What? at the Front Desk

As, had she attained that stance I would have been a ‘sitting duck’, I grabbed my bag and my shoes and went out into the lobby of the fitness center. There I explained what had happened. The person at the front desk said that the cleaning woman was a good worker, and that she would calm down after awhile. Lacking other recourse, I sat in a chair in the lobby to put on my walking shoes, and left for the parking lot, hat in hand.

NEW TEACHERS AT SENIOR FITNESS CLASSES

‘Kali’ as a Fitness Instructor

A woman arrived as a teacher of one of the senior fitness classes, and I did not like her, because of her masculine-acting, bossy manner of teaching and her sexual manner.

As to looks, she reminded me of a woman named Ansie [assumed name], a lady I met in Durango. I had begun to experience uneasiness towards Ansie and her husband in 2015, I think it was, and because of that had since avoided them. The cause of my uneasiness was what I perceived to be a mismatch between their emotional affect and their actions and speech. It felt like something was ‘amiss’ … something I could not quite put my finger on. Possibly I was just not their type, and vice versa?

Although it seemed likely that this new teacher, despite the strong resemblance, was not the person I knew in Durango (as the former seemed younger), I did my best to avoid the new  teacher, and rather went to the classes led by teachers I felt to be inspiring … those who projected heart centered Awareness.

A Second ‘Kali’ Is Hired as Fitness Instructor

For a while that worked out right well; but then another teacher arrived whose energy was very like that of the masculine-acting, bossy teacher with the sexual manner. I remember it felt like pure sexual hatred was being projected from her second chakra.

I remember wondering if she might have been a transgender person who was unable to achieve orgasm because of her sex-change operation, and if that might be the reason for the sexual rage I sensed?

I wondered if she had an ailing mother at home whom she resented, and if maybe I reminded her of her mother?

Could she be a sex worker, I wondered? I remember how coldly she rebuffed a shy, flirtatious remark by a man in the front of the class. I wondered: If she were to be a sex worker, who could her prospective clients be?

I Will Nail You!

I remember hiding behind a pillar during the class to avoid being hit by what seemed to me to be astral ‘nails’ of sexual hatred being slung at me. She seemed to be saying, on the psychic plane: I will nail you! I will nail you! …

Link: “Acting Out of the Subconscious Metaphor: I Will Nail You!” by Alice B. Clagett, drafted on 14 November 2018; final draft on 10 December 2018 … https://wp.me/p2Rkym-b39 ..

I remember once going to the restroom mid-class, to get away from the vibe and the loud music, and hearing three senior women from the class masturbating in the restroom. What on earth was going on, I wondered? I had never encountered anything like that before, in my life!

Hiding Behind a Pillar to Elude Her

I remember how, when I moved behind the pillar at the back of the classroom, that new teacher at the front of the room would move to one side, scowling, to get a clear view of me. Then I would move slightly to the other side, to block her view. Then she would shift position, to get a clear view of me. And so on.

Twice, she became so angry at my avoiding her that she walked directly up to me, as I stood in the back of the room, and began doing plies, feet spread about a yard apart. Glaring at me, she yelled: This is how it’s done. You see? This is how it’s done!

This so horrified me that, in December 2018 I decided senior exercise class was not worth it, and opted out of the fitness center, in favor of the mountain walks I so love.

FOR ADULT VIEWING ONLY … IMAGE OF KALI CLOTHED

The final episode of my misadventures at the fitness center has so haunted me for the last eight months that I finally made a drawing of how the spirit of that teacher seemed to me, on the psychic plane. My first rendition was explicit as to sexual organs, and that surely will not do, online. After awhile I thought I might add clothes or other obscuration, such as a paint blotch, and then it would be all right to put the drawing online; yesterday I did that.

Nevertheless, because of the unpleasant nature of the topic of the drawing, and the sexual connotation, I advise only those over 18 years of age look at the below image. I feel that would be best. In addition, for those adults who, like me, do not like prurient topics, I suggest that you avoid looking at the drawing as well; as an alternative, you might simply read the description …

Image: “Kali Clothed,” by Alice B. Clagett, 21 August 2019, CC BY-SA 4.0, from “Awakening with Planet Earth,” https://awakeningwithplanetearth.com … DESCRIPTION: A buxom woman with red lipstick and shoulder-length hair, wearing a teal bikini, squatting over the head of a man with open mouth, open eyes, and a crew cut; the facial expression of the man is one of distress. The woman’s feet are about a yard apart, toes outward in the plié position of ballet. Her upper arms and elbows are by her sides, forearms horizontal and spread-eagle, fingers spread wide. Above the woman’s head is the torso of a man, limbs spread-eagle, genitalia obscured by a brown and teal splotch of paint. This is an adaptation of my drawing “Kali Unclothed” that cannot be posted online due to censorship laws.

ADULTS ONLY Image: “Kali Clothed,” by Alice B. Clagett, 21 August 2019, CC BY-SA 4.0, from “Awakening with Planet Earth,” https://awakeningwithplanetearth.com

DESCRIPTION: A buxom woman with red lipstick and shoulder-length hair, wearing a teal bikini, squatting over the head of a man with open mouth, open eyes, and a crew cut; the facial expression of the man is one of distress. The woman’s feet are about a yard apart, toes outward in the plié position of ballet. Her upper arms and elbows are by her sides, forearms horizontal and spread-eagle, fingers spread wide. 

Above the woman’s head is the torso of a man, limbs spread-eagle, genitalia obscured by a brown and teal splotch of paint. This is an adaptation of my drawing “Kali Unclothed” that cannot be posted online due to censorship laws.

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In love, light and joy,
I Am of the Stars

The drawing is featured in Link: “Tiny Anthologies: Demons, Devils and Ghosts . ADULTS ONLY drawings and images by Alice B. Clagett, Published on 3 August 2020 … https://wp.me/p2Rkym-jnZ ..

See also … Link: “Compendium: Dylan Redwine Murder Mystery – Child Torture for Snuff Film Industry?” by Alice B. Clagett, published on 22 February 2020; revised on 23 April 2020 … https://wp.me/p2Rkym-gz4 ..

Here is background information … Link: “Alice’s Perilous Tales: Murder in the Wild West,” a story by Alice B. Clagett, written and published on 8 August 2020 … https://wp.me/p2Rkym-jrE ..

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Hold a Candle . a poem by Alice B. Clagett

Written on 5 May 2019; published on 31 May 2019

  • VIDEO BY ALICE
  • SUMMARY OF THE VIDEO
    • “Hold a Candle,” a Poem by Alice B. Clagett, Soundtrack and Words

Dear Ones,

Here is a poem written during the monthly creative writing class I attended at the beginning of May. The stance of the poem I feel to be good for me as a neutral observer of humankind.

Elsewhere in my blogs I express the stance I would take were I a transvestite (a crossdresser) or transgender person dealing with the Ascension clearing process through the Incoming Light. That process also involves neutral witnessing, I feel, but of a different sort: In that field ‘beyond right and wrong’ (to quote the great mystical poet Rumi) each of us stands alone with God, and assesses the what and wherefore of our human condition, the causal incidents of our Soul wounding, and that ruthlessly truthful Awareness that leads to an ever brighter Body of Light.

There is a Summary after the video …

VIDEO BY ALICE

SUMMARY OF THE VIDEO

Hello, Dear Ones, It’s Alice. I Am of the Stars.

At writing class last month, we had an assignment to write a story that included certain words. Each person in the class contributed one word at that moment; and the words were: candle, crutch, soar, sadness, transvestite, and excitement. 

My gift to the class was a poem that included all those words. Here is that poem for you; the title is “Hold a Candle” ….

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“Hold a Candle”
A Poem by Alice B. Clagett
Soundtrack and Words
5 May 2019

 

Hold a candle
Find a light
Hold it high
Against the night

What’s a hindrance?
What’s a crutch?
Find the surest
Healing touch!

Soar in laughter
Sink in pain
Sense the level
Strong terrain

Sadness catches
One and all
Then allows us
To recall

How excitement
May sustain —
Double, triple
Each small gain

Trust that
Each transvestite’s fear
May find comfort
Somewhere

Hear their yearning
Sense their call:
I’m God’s child
As are we all.

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In love, light and joy,
I Am of the Stars

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Triple Multiple Personality Disorder . by Alice B. Clagett *

Written and published on 29 May 2018; revised on 23 February 2019; on 25 April 2020; and on 1 November 2020
Note:
While it seems to me that I may once have had an experience of encountering a multiple personality such as the one described below, the people in the below images do not in the least resemble the man I encountered. In fact, I chose these images for that reason.

  • MULTIPLE PERSONALITY DISORDER: SHIVERING VICTIM OF A DYSFUNCTIONAL EGO?
  • MULTIPLE PERSONALITY DISORDER: IS A SERIAL KILLER LURKING BEHIND THE DYSFUNCTIONAL FACADE?
  • TWO PROPOSED MULTIPLE PERSONALITY PERSONAS: ‘JIM’ THE NORMAL AND ‘PANTHER’ THE SERIAL KILLER
  • ALICE’S PERILOUS TALES: MY ENCOUNTER WITH A ‘PANTHER’ PERSONA
  • A THIRD PROPOSED MULTIPLE PERSONALITY PERSONA: ‘ESTELLE’, THE VICTIM STAND-IN
  • DOES THE ‘PANTHER’ PERSONAL OF A MULTIPLE PERSONALITY HAVE THE ABILITY TO HYPNOTIZE HIS INTENDED VICTIM?
  • MIGHT THE MULTIPLE PERSONALITY FABRICATE EVIDENCE THAT OTHER PEOPLE ARE ACTING OUT HIS PERSONALITY ROLES?
  • MIGHT THE MULTIPLE PERSONALITY WISH TO ACT IN OR CREATE MOVIES THAT SUPPORT HIS ‘PANTHER’ PERSONALITY AS SOCIALLY ACCEPTABLE?
  • MIGHT THE MULTIPLE PERSONALITY FEEL THAT CRIME MAKEOVERS ARE TRUE ALTERATIONS OF EGO?
  • OBSESSION OF A VICTIM BY DEMONIC ENERGIES COURSING THROUGH THE ‘PANTHER’: FACT OR FICTION?

Dear Ones,

Because I once apparently encountered a perilous situation with regard to a multiple personality … the Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde of literary fame … I have added this blog to the category: Alice’s perilous tales

MULTIPLE PERSONALITY DISORDER: SHIVERING VICTIM OF A DYSFUNCTIONAL EGO?

I looked up Multiple Personality Disorder (which is also called ‘Dissociative Identity Disorder’) in Wikipedia …

Link: “Dissociative Identity Disorder,” in Wikipedia … https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dissociative_identity_disorder ..

There I found this image …

“Image: “illustration depicting an individual with dissociative identity disorder.” by 04Mukti, from Wikimedia Commons … https://commons.wikimedia.org/wiki/File:Dissociative_identity_disorder.jpg … CC BY-SA 3.0 unported

Image: “Illustration depicting an individual with dissociative identity disorder.” by 04Mukti, from Wikimedia Commons … https://commons.wikimedia.org/wiki/File:Dissociative_identity_disorder.jpg … CC BY-SA 3.0 unported

I have seen Multiple Personality Disorder described in the literature in terms reminiscent of the above image … to the effect that a person with Multiple Personality Disorder is a sad and shivering victim of a dysfunctional ego, splintered into many different mirrors of the roles the victim sees being played out in other people.

MULTIPLE PERSONALITY DISORDER: IS A SERIAL KILLER LURKING BEHIND THE DYSFUNCTIONAL FACADE?

In some cases, I feel this clinical impression of the disorder to be disarming and misleading. Specifically, when Multiple Personality Disorder results from a catastrophic childhood experience (1),  the sexually expressive personality can have a ‘kill for the thrill’ aspect, as in the case of Jack the Ripper. (2) In other words, the sexual aspect may be that of a sexual predator (3) …

In such instances I feel there might be three personalities: The Normal, The Serial Killer, and the Victim Stand-in. Each personality might have a different name, if overheard on the ‘astral airs’ … These might be startlingly different names, like Jim, for the ‘normal’; Estelle, for the ‘victim stand-in’, and Panther, for the serial killer or ‘Jack the Ripper’ personality. These are just ‘made up’ names I am using as examples below.

TWO PROPOSED MULTIPLE PERSONALITY PERSONAS: ‘JIM’ THE NORMAL AND ‘PANTHER’ THE SERIAL KILLER

I priorly used the below image in a different context (see “The Threat of Obsession by Demonic Energies: Truth or Fiction?” below).

It would also be possible to interpret the image in the context of Multiple Personality Disorder. In the latter context, the silhouette in the illustration might show Jim, the ‘normal’ personality of a person suffering from Multiple Personality Disorder, and Panther, the hidden ‘serial killer’ personality would be represented as the many-headed giant and the sea monster ‘behind’ him …

Drawing: Serial killer personality behind the silhouette of the ‘normal’ personality of a person suffering from Multiple Personality Disorder, adapted and compiled by Alice B. Clagett, 22 February 2019, CC BY-SA 4.0, from “Awakening with Planet Earth,” https://awakeningwithplanetearth.com … DESCRIPTION: The silhouette of a man standing, facing forward. Behind him is a painting of a giant with 7 horned heads; the giant’s stance is wide. Beneath the giant is rising up from the water a 7-headed sea monster; the monster’s arms are held up; its right hand holds up an upright sword, and its left hand an upright cudgel … CREDITS: The silhouette is an adaptation of  “Man standing silhouette.svg” by Open Clip Art Library, 16 April 2009, in Wikimedia Commons, public domain. I chose this silhouette because it did not resemble anyone whom I felt to be a multiple personality. Behind the silhouette is an altered version of the painting “The Great Red Dragon and the Beast from the Sea,” by William Blake, 1805, public domain.

Drawing: Serial killer personality behind the silhouette of the ‘normal’ personality of a person suffering from Multiple Personality Disorder, adapted and compiled by Alice B. Clagett, 22 February 2019, CC BY-SA 4.0, from “Awakening with Planet Earth,” https://awakeningwithplanetearth.com

DESCRIPTION: The silhouette of a man standing, facing forward. Behind him is a painting of a giant with 7 horned heads; the giant’s stance is wide. Beneath the giant is rising up from the water a 7-headed sea monster; the monster’s arms are held up; its right hand holds up an upright sword, and its left hand an upright cudgel …

CREDITS: The silhouette is an adaptation of  “Man standing silhouette.svg” by Open Clip Art Library, 16 April 2009, in Wikimedia Commons, public domain. I chose this silhouette because it did not resemble anyone whom I felt to be a multiple personality. Behind the silhouette is an altered version of the painting “The Great Red Dragon and the Beast from the Sea,” by William Blake, 1805, public domain.

ALICE’S PERILOUS TALES: MY ENCOUNTER WITH A ‘PANTHER’ PERSONA

In my own thankfully uneventful encounter with a Panther persona a few years ago, because I am psychic, I noticed a demonic aspect to the energy of the Panther personality; that is the impetus for my above image of the shadow man and the William Blake drawing, which I slightly altered. Here is the tale of that encounter …

Link: “Alice’s Perilous Tales: The Man with the Trembling Pinkie,” by Alice B. Clagett, published on 23 May 2019; updated … https://wp.me/p2Rkym-cRe ..

A THIRD PROPOSED MULTIPLE PERSONALITY PERSONA: ‘ESTELLE’, THE VICTIM STAND-IN

Then, there might be another personality, that of Estelle, which is to say, the role of the Multiple Personality as a stand-in for the helpless victims of his serial killer personality. In that case, the Multiple Personality might dress like a woman and behave in an effeminate manner …

Image: “Man Writing a Letter,” by Gabriel Metsu, 1665, National Gallery of Ireland, in Wikipedia … https://commons.wikimedia.org/wiki/File:Man_Writing_a_Letter_by_Gabri%C3%ABl_Metsu.jpg … public domain

Image: “Man Writing a Letter,” by Gabriel Metsu, 1665, National Gallery of Ireland, in Wikipedia … https://commons.wikimedia.org/wiki/File:Man_Writing_a_Letter_by_Gabri%C3%ABl_Metsu.jpg … public domain

Here is another image reminiscent of Estelle …

Image: “Portrait of a Young Woman,” by Johannes Vermeer, 1665-67, in Wikimedia Commons … https://commons.wikimedia.org/wiki/File:Vermeer-Portrait_of_a_Young_Woman.j … public domain

Image: “Portrait of a Young Woman,” by Johannes Vermeer, 1665-67, in Wikimedia Commons … https://commons.wikimedia.org/wiki/File:Vermeer-Portrait_of_a_Young_Woman.j … public domain

For more on the ‘Estelle’ stand-in, see my blog category: Crossdressing – transgender

DOES THE ‘PANTHER’ PERSONAL OF A MULTIPLE PERSONALITY HAVE THE ABILITY TO HYPNOTIZE HIS INTENDED VICTIM?

Speaking intuitively, I feel there is a possibility that the ‘Jack the Ripper’ aspect of a person suffering from Multiple Personality Disorder might have mind control abilities that might aid him in pursuit of prey … hypnotic abilities that are throwbacks to the behavior of predatorial animals. Here I offer the example of the cuttlefish, which hypnotizes its prey with oscillating color displays …

Video: “Hypnosis Attack: World’s Deadliest,” by Nat Geo Wild, published on 21 May 2012 … https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l1T4ZgkCuiM ..

Maybe the sudden switch from one personality to another, in the case of a stalker who suffers from Multiple Personality Disorder, has a similar hypnotic effect on the victim. Could this be about the expectations of the victim being suddenly flummoxed? Could the victim of the Panther, like the victim of the color-oscillating cuttlefish, be in a state of shocked bemusement? A state of ‘mind mud’?

Here is more on the topic …

Link: “How Do Predators Hypnotize Their Prey?” by Alice B. Clagett, begun on 31 May 2018; published on 26 June 2018 … https://wp.me/p2Rkym-9sy ..

CAN OTHER PEOPLE BE OBSESSED BY A MULTIPLE PERSONALITY?

I have further hypotheses that the splintered personality who mimics the roles of those he sees around him might also feel that one of his favored personalities obsesses other people and causes them to act out his Multiple Personality roles in life.

If the Multiple Personality is, perhaps through use of the reptilian area of his brain, able to hypnotize other people, then that might explain their being obsessed by him (if in fact obsession takes place). For a different take on this idea, see …

Link: “Package Dream,” by Alice B. Clagett, filmed on 16 May 2018; published on 11 July 2018 … https://wp.me/p2Rkym-9Bv ..

MIGHT THE MULTIPLE PERSONALITY FABRICATE EVIDENCE THAT OTHER PEOPLE ARE ACTING OUT HIS PERSONALITY ROLES?

It could be that the Multiple Personality is able to obsess other people. Alternatively, it might be that he might fabricate evidence, such as doctored-up photographs or faked out videos, to falsely prove that other people are undertaking the roles he himself acts out. That might be done because of a feeling that he is different from other people, and from a desire that he might fit in; that other people might be more like him.

For more on this, see my blog categories:  Obsession – possession – entity attachment – exorcism  … and …   ‘Casting’ thought forms – clair ventriloquism

MIGHT THE MULTIPLE PERSONALITY WISH TO ACT IN OR CREATE MOVIES THAT SUPPORT HIS ‘PANTHER’ PERSONALITY AS SOCIALLY ACCEPTABLE?

It seems to me that the Multiple Personality might also feel that acting out of favored roles, say through the movies, might influence a movie-viewing community to minimize the import of a ‘Panther’ persona.

In other words, he might wish to act in, or he might film a movie that he hoped would alter societal expectations in such a way that the predatorial role becomes socially acceptable. Would this be what is termed in psychology ‘projection’ or might there be some truth to popularization of the serial killing role through cinema, I wonder?

See, for instance, the glamorization of the role of the ‘Panther’ in the 2018 American horror-thriller film “Bad Samaritan” …

Link: “Bad Samaritan (film),” in Wikipedia … https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bad_Samaritan_(film) ..

MIGHT THE MULTIPLE PERSONALITY FEEL THAT CRIME MAKEOVERS ARE TRUE ALTERATIONS OF EGO?

Could it be that the experience of a Multiple Personality of slipping into one personality role after another might lead him to feel that a ‘crime makeover’ … such as cosmetic alterations to the face and body … as well as changes of diction, dress and gait such as might be employed in the acting world, might cause him to become a different person? Might he feel that the way he is viewed in the eyes of the world is the complete truth of who he is? I feel that ego splintering might lead the Multiple Personality to such a belief.

In other words, he might settle on a particular personality as the truth of himself; and then create physical details to support his choice. He might choose a persona completely different from those he has enacted priorly, and then undergo radical cosmetic surgery representing the nature of his radically new persona.

He might choose a new name, and even act out the persona in a movie that presents to the world his new self. Or he might do the same for a person whom he feels to be like himself; perhaps a person he has obsessed into ‘Panther’ actions in the world, or whom he falsely believes he has so obsessed.

Or perhaps he might favor or possibly film a movie glamorizing the new persona. This might involve a gender switch, such as a switch from the role of ‘Jim’ to that of ‘Estelle’. Intriguingly, the 2005 British drama serial “Secret Smile” might be perceived by a Multiple Personality as glamorization of the socially acceptable role of ‘Estelle’

Link: “Secret Smile” in Wikipedia … https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Secret_Smile ..

For more on the crime makeover, see my blog category: Crime makeover

OBSESSION OF A VICTIM BY DEMONIC ENERGIES COURSING THROUGH THE ‘PANTHER’: FACT OR FICTION?

People who hypothesize the existence of demonic energies separate from the shadow of the personality of a person, and as separate from the shadow of the personality of the collective unconscious of humankind, would infer the further threat of black magic energies coursing through the Panther persona of a person suffering from Multiple Personality Disorder.

The first interpretation of the shadow and monster image above illustrates the theory of obsession by demonic energies …

Link: “Triple Vortical ‘Vampire Effect’ – a Temporary Ascension Symptom,” by Alice B. Clagett, published on 5 May 2017; revised on 22 February 2018, 22 April 2018, and 23 February 2019 …  https://wp.me/p2Rkym-7bd ..

Were this theory to prove true, then the hypothetical threat … that of a demonically possessed patient and a demonically obsessed victim … would be the greater.

Thus I urge psychologists and psychiatrists to approach therapy for people suffering from Multiple Personality Disorder with utmost attention to their personal safety and for that of those restraining and seeing to the needs of the patient.

In love, light and joy,
I Am of the Stars

In this blog is another set of photos regarding the Jim, Panther, and Estelle personas: Link: “Dream about a Multiple Personality,” by Alice B. Clagett, filmed on 24 May 2018; published on 29 May 2018 … https://wp.me/p2Rkym-9cW ..

Here is another blog about the same man … Link: “Two Local Menaces? Triple Multiple Personality and His Pal,” by Alice B. Clagett, written and published on 1 November 2020 … https://wp.me/p2Rkym-kp6 ..

Here is a cartoon drawing I made about the same man … Link: “Package Dream,” by Alice B. Clagett, filmed on 16 May 2018; published on 11 July 2018 … https://wp.me/p2Rkym-9Bv ..

Here is an animated gif I made about the man … Link: “ADULTS ONLY (PG-13): Drug Lord Demon,” animated gif by Alice B. Clagett, drawn on 19 November 2019; published on 1 December 2019 … https://wp.me/p2Rkym-fhf ..

This is a poem I wrote about him … Link: “Ode to the Risen Christ,” channeled by Alice B. Clagett, written and published on 26 December 2019 … https://wp.me/p2Rkym-fKP ..

The drawing “Devil” in this blog was of the Multiple Personality. The blog has to do with a former friend of his … Link: “Catastrophic Childhood Experiences: Witchy Woman Hater,” published on 12 August 2020 … https://wp.me/p2Rkym-jt6 ..

This blog describes a double Multiple Personality (a different man from the one described in the current blog) … Link: “The Stalker: Encounter with a Multiple Personality?” by Alice B. Clagett, written and published on 9 July 2019 … https://wp.me/p2Rkym-dyb ..

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FOOTNOTES

(1) See my blog category: Catastrophic childhood experiences

(2) Link: “Jack the Ripper,” in Wikipedia … https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Jack_the_Ripper ..

(3) Link: “Sexual Predator,” in Wikipedia … https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sexual_predator ..

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Violence Against Transgender and Crossdressed Sex Workers . by Alice B. Clagett

Written on 12 May 2018. Text in green font is not in the soundtrack.

  • SOUNDTRACK BY ALICE B. CLAGETT
  • SUMMARY OF THE SOUNDTRACK
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Dear Ones, Here are a soundtrack and Summary to do with the issue of violence against transgender and crossdressing sex workers …

SOUNDTRACK BY ALICE B. CLAGETT

 

SUMMARY OF THE SOUNDTRACK

Hello, Dear Ones, It’s Alice. I Am of the Stars.

I have been trying, for a long time, to get to the bottom of this issue of violence against transgender people and crossdressing people. I came across something today, just very briefly, about that. I think that the issue that involves danger and violence against transgender and crossdressing men has to do with sexual preference.

There is a big movement, in the world today, to allow people to have their own choice in sex partners. Kind of a feeling of: I love this person … or … I love that person … or … I prefer this or that type of person. And I think that is a very healthy and good movement: That people should be able to choose what they want in a sex partner.

However … and this is just a guess … It could be that this issue of violence against transgender and crossdressing men has to do with sex work. It could be that men who pay sex workers that they think are women because of transgender changes or crossdressing changes, and then find, at the last moment, that they are relating to someone who is not their own sexual preference, become very angry … especially if they are drunk. And then violence occurs.

So in the one case, if this is true, in the one case there is the issue … which I support … of choosing your own sexual preference, whether it be …

  • the traditional male-female relationship,
  • or what they call male-to-male or M2M,
  • or F2F … female-to-female,
  • or a love triangle involving three people,
  • or polygamy, having more than one husband or wife,
  • or polyamory, romantically loving more than one person at a time,

Whatever your preference is, then if you feel  joy in your heart, through it, then that is fine.

But if one person tries to trick another person into not fulfilling their preference with regard to sexual relationships, then that is not good.

  • One case is: Seeking out and finding your joy in sexuality and sexual fulfillment.
  • And the other is: Tricking a person into not getting that joy.

That is my thought on that for today.

In love, light and joy,
I Am of the Stars

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Link: “List of people killed for being transgender,” in WIkipedia … https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_unlawfully_killed_transgender_people ..
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Issues of Violence and Betrayal to Do with Crossdressing . by Alice B. Clagett

Filmed on 17 April 2018; published on 29 April 2018

Dear Ones,

This video is about issues of violence and betrayal to do with crossdressing … dressing ‘in drag’, as it is sometimes called, and also to do with transgender surgery. There is an edited Summary after the video …

VIDEO BY ALICE

SUMMARY OF THE VIDEO

This video is about men who are dressing as women … ‘crossdressing’, as they say …

There are two things I would like to discuss. One is that, even though men may be crossdressing, they still have the drives of men. The drives of men are very different from the drives of women, in various ways, some of which have to do with territorial aggression. Men are far more territorially aggressive than women. They are more ‘outgoing’. They have a drive to expand outward from their current geographic position. And also with regard to the battle of the sexes, men who take on the role of being a woman are much more aggressively antagonistic to other women, as potential competitors, than are women born female … although there are women born female who are ruthlessly aggressive in that regard.

The second thing has to do with violence … the tendency towards violence. As you may know, there is a big difference between the percentages of men who act out through violent actions, and the percentages for women who do that.

I feel it may be that men who crossdress, or assume the role of women, will still tend to act out … in terms of violent actions … to a greater extent than women.

Men and women who are born to the genders they portray in the wold may take it for granted that crossdressing men are like women born female. But then a crossdressing man may act in a different way; he may act more like a man, with regard to violence. For instance, he may rape a woman in a woman’s restroom in a public place. 

Over the years, I have been in women’s restrooms in many public places, and I have never seen a woman rape another woman in a public restroom. I do recall seeing a young woman with short hair in a public restroom many years ago. She was exiting the restroom as I entered. She looked me straight in the eye; it was very clear that her intention was to rape me.

As she was leaving and I was entering, and there were other women in the restroom, she had no opportunity to undertake that action; yet I remember her intent to this day because I had never run into it before in a women’s restroom; I found it to be incongruous and completely out of place. There must have been something wrong, I thought … something was deeply wrong with her. She was behaving like a man and not like a woman.

Similarly, women and men who are born to the genders they portray in the world may be inclined, through social conditioning and prior experience, to treat crossdressing men as if they were as docile as women born female. Then they may find that crossdressing men act more like men than women.

I can say from my own ‘near miss’ described above that there are two anticipatable outcomes when this occurs: 

As mentioned above, there will be an opportunity, in the instance of antisocial people who are crossdressed, to prey upon other people, who thought that they had the gentler drives of women.

Then on the part of the victims, as the gender taboo is breached there will be a sense of shock, of bewilderment, and then a state of high alarm, a feeling of anger, and of being betrayed.

I have read in Wikipedia about the issue of transgender murders …

Link: “List of people killed for being transgender,” in Wikipedia …  https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_unlawfully_killed_transgender_people ..

From this it is clear that people around the world have been murdering transgender people at a percentage presumably much higher than the general population.

I wonder if there is any relationship between negative emotions to do with discovery of taboo breach, and the issue of transgender murders that I read about in Wikipedia,

Those are just my thoughts on it. I am sure there are many other factors. I would like to know more about it; I hope we find out more, soon.

In love, light and joy,
I Am of the Stars

See also … Link: “Astral Case Studies: Boy with the Rock, and Child Lilith,” by Alice B. Clagett, written on 26 August 2018; published on 27 September 2018 … https://wp.me/p2Rkym-adS … See the story of the boy with the rock.

Link: “The Child with the Rock,” by Alice B. Clagett, filmed on 24 March 2017 … https://wp.me/p2Rkym-76h ..
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Crime Makeovers: 1 . by Alice B. Clagett

Written and published on 5 April 2017; revised on 17 April 2017 and 15 April 2018

  • CAN CRIMINALS CHANGE THEIR RACE?
  • IS IT POSSIBLE FOR CRIMINALS TO HACK AND CHANGE MUGSHOTS IN LAW ENFORCEMENT DATABASES?
  • FAKE DATES OF BIRTH
  • HEIGHT ENHANCEMENT THROUGH SURGERY
  • FAKED WEIGHT CHANGE
  • CAN CRIMINALS CHANGE THEIR GENDER?
  • CAN FINGERPRINTS BE ALTERED?
  • HEIGHT-ENHANCING SURGERY TO PREVENT LAW ENFORCEMENT FROM AUTOMATICALLY MATCHING UP CRIMINAL RECORDS
  • FACE TRANSPLANTS AND IMPLANTS FOR IDENTITY CHANGE
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Dear Ones,

I did a survey of the Durango, Colorado, sex offender database in 2015 (1) … Back then, there were lots of snapshots of male African Americans. As far as I know, the African-American population of Durango is nearly zero. I wondered, what gives? Could it be that there are Caucasian sex offenders masquerading as black people?

CAN CRIMINALS CHANGE THEIR RACE?

Answer is yes, it seems. Here is an article about a type of face mask that fooled law enforcement into arresting a black man for a bank heist; later they discovered the error and arrested a Caucasian suspect:

Link: “Face Mask That’s So Good Everyone Wants One,” by Guy Adams, 10 December 2010 … https://www.independent.co.uk/news/world/americas/face-mask-thats-so-good-every-crook-wants-one-2155856.html ..

IS IT POSSIBLE FOR CRIMINALS TO HACK AND CHANGE MUGSHOTS IN LAW ENFORCEMENT DATABASES?

Then just recently I checked the Durango sex offender database, and it showed almost only Latino people … and there are few Latino people in Durango proper.

Huh! Could there be a master hacker accessing the law enforcement database at night, maybe as a janitor or maintenance person? Hypothetically?

While I have no answer here, I do have a lead. I saw a photo of a person by a particular name, under the jurisdiction of the La Plata County, Colorado, Sheriff’s office … Apparently he was convicted 13 September 2004 in Alabama of sexual assault on a child.

Then I found a person by the same name, charged with sexual assault on a child, 13 September 2004 … This person looked similar to the man in the La Plata County photo, but parted his hair differently, and his face was thinner.

What gives, I wonder? Could this be evidence of hacking or tampering with the Colorado law enforcement sexual offender database? Or maybe an attempt by two crooks to confuse the public? Or maybe it is simply evidence of occasional steroid use by one person?

FAKE DATES OF BIRTH

In searching through criminal files for Colorado, I came across one man who had 4 different names, very different hairdos, and slightly different dates of birth (DOB, as it is called). Yet he had the same sorts of criminal offenses in each of the four records.

So, I am guessing that criminals may alter their dates of birth, as well as their names and ‘dos’, so that their criminal records are less easily compiled in Law Enforcement databases?

HEIGHT ENHANCEMENT THROUGH SURGERY

During my 2015 perusal of the Durango, Colorado, sexual offender database, one thing I noticed was that there were 18 men of varying weights, but all of them were about 5′ 10″ in height, which was quite a large proportion of the total number of people listed.

And there was another, smaller cluster of men about 6′ 1″ in height, which seemed to me to be exceedingly odd.

Suppose incorrect photos were put into these files, and the rest of the statistics were not altered … Would that point to 2 perps working overtime in the Durango area, one about 5′ 10″ tall, and one about 6′ 1″ tall?

Or might it be one perp with height enhancement surgery? Looks like that is a possibility; see …

Link: “New York Man Grows Six Inches Through Surgery,” by Denise Martinez-Ramundo and Bill Ritter, 23 February 2012, in ABC News … http://abcnews.go.com/Health/york-man-grows-inches-surgery/story?id=15776730 ..

Then I wondered about variations in weight in the 2015 Durango sex offender database, maybe 40 to 85 pounds of difference. I wondered, can this by any chance be achieved with a body suit? The answer is, yes, according to Wikipedia:

“Fatsuits may also be used to impart the experience of being obese to the wearer, not just the appearance of obesity to their audience. The suit in this case is weighted, as well as padded. Where the intention is to impart the experience of being seen as fat in a community, its appearance must also be realistic and so a fatsuit rather than just a weight belt is needed. Several celebrities noted for their slimness have worn such garments and recorded their, and others’, reactions as documentary of social attitudes to weight….” –from Link: “Fatsuit,” in Wikipedia … https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Fatsuit … CC BY 3.0

CAN CRIMINALS CHANGE THEIR GENDER?

This was my next question. Yes again … Breast augmentation is one way to appear to change gender. See …

Link: “Breast Augmentation,” in Wikipedia … https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Breast_augmentation ..

Aside from surgery, it looks like there are more conservative ways. This I found by searching Google Shopping under “Crossdress” …

LInk: “Cross-dress for Sale” search at Google … https://www.google.com/search?q=cross+dress+for+sale&tbm=shop&source=lnms&sa=X&ved=0ahUKEwiO2I6w643TAhWHjlQKHfY2ApYQ_AUIBigB&biw=1280&bih=633&dpr=1#tbm=shop&q=crossdress&* ..

And there are other forms of identity-changing surgery:

CAN FINGERPRINTS BE ALTERED?

Criminals sometimes alter their fingerprints …

Link: “Forensic Spotlight: Altered Fingerprints: A Challenge to Law Enforcement Identification Efforts,” by the FBI’s Criminal Justice Information Services Division, Latent and Forensic Support Unit, 5 May 2015 … https://leb.fbi.gov/spotlights/forensic-spotlight-altered-fingerprints-a-challenge-to-law-enforcement-identification-efforts ..

HEIGHT-ENHANCING SURGERY TO PREVENT LAW ENFORCEMENT FROM AUTOMATICALLY MATCHING UP CRIMINAL RECORDS

Height can be changed through surgery; it looks like as many as 6 inches can be gained through surgery. Maybe this kind of operation would prevent computer matching of criminal records in a law enforcement database. See:

Link: “New York Man Grows 6 Inches Through Surgery,” by ABC News … http://abcnews.go.com/Health/york-man-grows-inches-surgery/story?id=15776730 ..

Link: “Disadvantages & Risks of Leg Lengthening Surgery to Increase Height || Height Growth Tips,” by Pastimers – World’s Best & Worst, 6 April 2016 … https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CTKrJA2QssE ..

FACE TRANSPLANTS AND IMPLANTS FOR IDENTITY CHANGE

I can think of two kinds of face surgery to prevent detection of one’s criminal history. See …

Link: “Changing identity – face transplant ethics,” by Royal Free London NHS Foundation Trust … https://www.royalfree.nhs.uk/services/services-a-z/plastic-surgery/facial-reconstruction-and-face-transplants/changing-identity-face-transplant-ethics/ ..

Link: “Chin Surgery: Understanding Mentoplasty,” by American Academy of Facial Plastic and Reconstructive Surgery, Inc … https://www.aafprs.org/AAFPRS/Procedures/Facial-Rejuvenation/Chin_Surgery.aspx ..

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Well, questions here, and no answers.

In love, light and joy,
I Am of the Stars

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Link: “Crime Makeovers 2,” by Alice B. Clagett, published on 26 March 2018 … https://wp.me/p2Rkym-8wp ..

Link: “Community Health: Cults That Kill and Outlaw Gangs,” by Alice B. Clagett, published on 7 December 2015 … https://wp.me/p2Rkym-4pb ..

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(1) The link I had for that database … http://24.248.177.73/zipdirectory/co/81301 … is no longer active; I guess too much time has gone by.
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