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The Manhood Mental Filter . by Alice B. Clagett

Dear Ones,

Sometimes the stories in clair chatter are just too out there … like this one, for instance. Who could dream up such a thing? Is it a very scary Hollywood movie? Just someone’s recurrent nightmare? Or maybe it has significance in the symbolism of the unconscious mind? If so, what might that symbolism be?


I have known about this most likely fictitious, or else very exaggerated astral story for some years now, but I have felt very reluctant to talk about it. Why is this? When I get this feeling, there is usually a strong social taboo involved, which is restraining me from describing the story, and is also the reason why the story is stridently circulating through the unconscious thought cloud of the world. There is an edited Summary after the video.



Hello, Dear Ones, It’s Alice. I Am of the Stars.

I doubt this will ever go up online, because it is just too unusual of an astral story. It goes like this …

There was a man, one time, whom I nickname ‘Lazarus’. He was an antisocial personality. And part of his constellation of personality traits was a strong satyriasis complex … which means that he was on the far, far end of excessive sexuality all his life. It seems he had hundreds of children, out of wedlock with many women.

And among them were some boys whom he felt exhibited the constellation of personality traits that he had. And because that is the nature of this antisocial personality syndrome, he thought that he was like a superhuman being … kind of like a god on Earth.

And he had a Masterplan … which is one of those things that are typical of antisocial personality. The Masterplan he had was that his male children, who exhibited this syndrome, would take over the world and control it with their mental powers.

Now Mind Control, as I have mentioned in other blogs, is concomitant with antisocial personality syndrome. That is because the only way that they can relate to other people  through Mind Control. That is the nature of this syndrome … because they are missing the socialization traits that are considered to be normal amongst humankind. That has been discussed in other blogs.

Anyway, if you look at Wikipedia on antisocial personality …

Link: “Antisocial Personality Disorder,” in Wikipedia … https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Antisocial_personality_disorder ..

… you will get an idea about the types of cosmos notions and delusions of grandeur that are typical of what I call ‘ASP Syndrome’ for short.

Anyway, he had all these children … Maybe 150. And he called them all by the same name. And for all of the children, when they reached a certain age … I think, pre-puberty … he arranged for their genital organs to be cut off.

Now the true reason for that was that he was a megalomaniac kind of a guy … he did not want any competition amongst his people. But the reason that he gave was a specious notion that you could ‘join the club’ if you did that, and then all of your powers would be diverted to the astral realm, and you could always astrally rape people anytime you wanted to, and like that.

So, all of these young children … all of these boy children … were emasculated at an early age. And amongst those that are still alive, quite a few have picked up transgender or crossdressing cosmetic effects.

Because of their early childhood training, which involved electroshock torture techniques and psychic spinal severation to make them into assassins, they are all assassins, unless they have withdrawn from that. And there are many of them that have taken on cosmetic effects that make them appear to be women in the world, with very large breasts.

But in fact, their drive is a masculine drive for power, and their genital wounding makes them kill people rather than have sex with them.


Is this astral story to do with the Manhood Mental Filter now clearing from Earth? For instance, could the part about the satyr father be a variant of the Double Oh Seven Mental Filter? (Search my blog for the term: Double Oh Seven … )

Or might it symbolize that, in days of yore, men were free to rape and pillage and procreate hither and yon, in whatever way they pleased? … Prodigiously, like the father in the story? That what is today considered Antisocial Personality Syndrome (ASP) was once the norm for male behavior on Earth?

Is it possible that men might, deep down, have misgivings about their human being-ness? Possibly because of their feral drive to aggression and sexuality?

As to the part about the sons, could it be that men want to emasculate their sons because of alpha male, ‘leader of the pack’ instincts? Do modern-day sons feel emasculated by their fathers? Or could it be that they feel there is no place for expression of their sex drive in modern society? Might they feel they must repress their sex drives so as to excel in spiritual attainment? Are the waves of astral rape energy that ripple through the unconscious thought cloud of the world on Friday and Saturday nights to do with suppression of the male sexual drive during the work week?

Could it be that the third-eye point energy and psychic skills vaunted in this astral story are a black magic feature of the unconscious landscape of spiritual adepts’ minds? That they visualize the third-eye point as a way to secure sexual gratification? Has this something to do with the mind of primitive man, and the high status of shamans in primitive cultures?

Could the visualization of the transgender women be unconscious symbolism for modern society ‘turning men into women’ by depriving them of a way to express their feral instincts of aggression and sexuality?

Might this involve a notion in the very deep unconscious minds of men that women are actually men with large breasts? If true, this would explain the male glomming of rape energies in the noosphere, and what seems to me to be men’s innocent lack of comprehension of the upsetting effect these energies have on women and young children.

There is an unusual work of art, intended for an adult audience, I feel, that may express these notions

FOR ADULT AUDIENCE ONLY … Image: “Around the Dragon’s Broken Neck Hangs the Medal of St. Lazarus,” by various artists, Hospital Productions … https://img.discogs.com/umdrpJbn872sjDtD9Q7s5VT-Xb8=/fit-in/317×476/filters:strip_icc():format(jpeg):mode_rgb():quality(90)/discogs-images/R-2594977-1300716673.jpeg.jpg ..

Could the bit in the astral story about the sons growing up to be assassins have to do with men needing to be competitive in sports and in the business world? Perhaps the need to kill other men … or at least trounce them in business … so as to live up to the standards of the Manhood Mental Filter?

Could the part about the sons being so angry that they want to kill people (both male and female) rather than have sex with them be the source of the V— D— Mental Filter energy I have been trying to figure out in recent blogs? …

As an aside, I once clair heard a group of women describe that the V— D— energies could be placated through flattery … Aren’t you something else! or by offering sympathyOh, you poor, poor dear! Are you feeling all right? I am guessing this would be like ‘flipping the switch’ of the clair heard men from feral aggression to feral sexual mode? …

Would this male rage have to do with feelings of being emasculated by modern society? 

As a further aside, I notice the complete lack of true women in the astral story … This is as if women do not actually exist in a man’s world … As if their genitals are necessary tools to a man, but their personhood is not important. As if the important thing, to a man, is the presence of other men, whom he must kill since they are competitors. And also that he must ‘kill’ his feelings for women, as feelings of intimacy might make him more vulnerable as a competitor with other men? Or the notion that he must ‘kill’ or discard a woman he loves, and move on to another woman from time to time? In other words, the assumption that killing is a necessary aspect of the Manhood Mental Filter.

As the Awakening proceeds, and humankind becomes consciously aware of the feral drives of both men and women … which have heretofore ‘hidden out’ on the astral plane … I feel certain great changes will be taking place. This will happen over time … over a number of years … I feel. It is the rising Awareness of humankind that will sculpt the changes, and not any social action or agenda.

In other words, it will not be our action in the world that causes the changes, but rather the slow but steady ‘amp up’ of the Incoming Light. This I have found to be taking place no more quickly than is comfortable to the hearts and minds of the people of Earth. The Light that a person is not able or willing to accept is lovingly stored in their Soul field until a person wants to have it integrated into their hologram. And so, I foresee no ‘forcing’ of any issue; only infinite patience, infinite forgiveness, and kindly care being proffered to every Soul on Earth, like that of a doting mother or father for a dear child.


Men do tend to have very detailed physical clair thought transfer … such as precise details of facial features, bodies of men, women, and children, and individual variations in the details of sexual organs of men, women and children.

In the very deep unconscious mind, men have geometric visualizations of the male and female sex organs … For women’s sexual organs, for instance, when men are in the borderline state between waking and sleeping, their very very deep unconscious minds visualize markers, or landing strips, such as a patch of trees next to a diamond shape …


Composite Image: Unconscious symbolism: Bushy top of tree next to rhombus are ‘markers’ for female sexual organs, adapted and compiled by Alice B. Clagett, 8 May 2018, CC BY-SA 4.0 International, from “Awakening with Planet Earth,” https://awakeningwithplanetearth.com … CREDITS: Image: “Tree as seen from above to use in vector maps,” by Setreset, from Wikimedia Commons … https://commons.wikimedia.org/wiki/File:Tree_from_above.svg … CC BY-A 3.0 Unported … and … “Rhombus,” by OfficialURL, 6 August 2020, in Wikimedia Commons … https://commons.wikimedia.org/wiki/File:Rhombus_%28plain%29.svg … public domain

Composite Image: Unconscious symbolism: Bushy top of tree next to rhombus are ‘markers’ for female sexual organs, adapted and compiled by Alice B. Clagett, 8 May 2018, CC BY-SA 4.0 International, from “Awakening with Planet Earth,” https://awakeningwithplanetearth.com

CREDITS: Image: “Tree as seen from above to use in vector maps,” by Setreset, from Wikimedia Commons … https://commons.wikimedia.org/wiki/File:Tree_from_above.svg … CC BY-A 3.0 Unported … and … “Rhombus,” by OfficialURL, 6 August 2020, in Wikimedia Commons … https://commons.wikimedia.org/wiki/File:Rhombus_%28plain%29.svg … public domain

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These very very deep images remind me of Australian Aborigine rock drawings, in a way …


Image: “Australian Aborigine pictographs (Yourambulla Caves, South Flinders Ranges, South Australia) 2,” by James St. John … from https://www.flickr.com/photos/jsjgeology/22333234923 … Creative Commons BY 2.0 Generic.

Image: “Australian Aborigine pictographs (Yourambulla Caves, South Flinders Ranges, South Australia) 2,” by James St. John … from https://www.flickr.com/photos/jsjgeology/22333234923 … Creative Commons BY 2.0 Generic.

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So it seems to me that it is possible men might visualize the issues of feral drives and pack instincts as astral stories featuring genitals, genital mutilation, and rape. I have run across these themes so many times on the clair plane that I am inclined to conclude many men, perhaps all men, have these fundamental psychological features or ‘landmarks’ in their minds.

Well, these seem to be the questions that are coming up at this point in the Ascension process. The video, it seems to me, expresses all this in a very stark, succinctly symbolic way.

In love, light and joy,
Alice B. Clagett
I Am of the Stars

Filmed on 27 April 2016: published on 19 May 2016 … while Mercury retrograde was looming; revised on 8 May 2018 (when I finally summoned the courage to republish it); revised again on 14 March 2023


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Daydreams: Latent Homosexuality . by Alice B. Clagett

Written and published on 28 November 2015

Dear Ones,

I do not have a lot of good things to say about daydreams, being as how humanity’s daydreams are co-creating our reality on the astral plane through the meanderings of the Unconscious Thought Cloud of the World. Sigh!

Below I describe a daydream characteristic of repressed (latent) M2M sexual feelings. The misalignment of the emotional energy with the New Reality is typical of daydreams … and, I am guessing, nonlucid nighttime dreams …

A man has a physical M2M feeling about another man. He dreams of cutting off this man’s penis. Then, because the second man no longer has a penis, and the first man’s arousal had to do with M2M, the first man is no longer attracted to the man he has emasculated. But the first man is pleased, because the second man is no longer a man, to his unconscious mind, and so, he, the first man, cannot be a homosexual, which label involves social censure.

There are now two men … the latent first man and the emasculated second man. These two men daydream about raping a third man, and emasculating him by genital mutilation. This is ok, because the third man is now not a man either. They have simply raped a ‘woman’ … and this is the more socially acceptable course of action.

Now there are three men having repressed or ‘disguised’ M2M daydreams. The first two have already had an experience of morphing a man into a woman so that the thought of sex will be relatively ok. So as a precedent there has been a daydream that was sexually arousing.

In segue, cascade fashion, as is the wont with daydreams, they target a fearful woman of their acquaintance, and daydream of astrally raping her. This is relatively ok; they are not having an M2M daydream.

However, the notion of raping women is not that well conceived of by society, even if only on the astral plane. And there are potentially unnerving social penalties, either perceived or perhaps real, regarding psychic rape.

And so, a group of men unconsciously participating in psychic rape of women, as a redirect of M2M fantasies, may engage in further Redirection … In other words, they will redirect their egoic identities to those of other men, so that the rape victims will unwittingly address their anger to the Redirect men, and so that the original daydreamers may be in the clear.

This is but one example of the daydreams that are beginning to surface in the conscious Awareness of humankind. It is a very good, and typical, example of how this energy is misaligned with that of New Earth. Why is it misaligned? Because it proceeds from the Unconscious Thought Cloud of the World.

Of course, the answer to daydreams of this sort, which can only have a negative effect on our co-creative envisionment of Reality, is to be, first and foremost, awake and aware; never to give in to the urge to daydream, never to align our energy with the Unconscious Thought Cloud of the World.

At first, this is very difficult to do; but it is possible. Each of us, little by little, can spend less time daydreaming, and spend more time in the Light of our conscious and superconscious mental energies.

In love, light and joy,
I Am of the Stars

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Dark Night of the Soul . Slave Planet Blues! . by Alice B. Clagett

Filmed on 2 June 2015; revised 9 July 2017; transcribed on 15 November 2018
I have added comments on Martian bacterial colonists of the human ‘space station’ (the human body)

    • The Societal Expectations Mental Filter
    • Judgment and Blame, Unconditional Love, Sexual Taboos, the Veil, and Our Infinite Co-Creative Potential
    • Vision by Alice: Slave Planet Blues
    • Dark Night of the Soul and Martian Bacterial Colonists of the Human Colon
    • Faith in God
    • The Healing Presence of Beings of Light
    • Conclusion
    • Postscript 1: Sublime-ation of Darkness
    • Postscript 2: Vocational Skills and Soul Skills
      • Stories by Alice: Job Hunting and Skill Sets
      • Dark Night of the Soul and the Skills of Letting Go, of Surrender, and of Faith
      • Free Will and Divine Intervention

Dear Ones,

This is about a Dark Night of the Soul experience regarding blame, judgment, and ostracism. The dynamic of Ego, societal expectations, and our co-creative power. Letting go, surrender. facing the void, nothingness, not knowingness. Developing the skills of personal transformation, sublimation, and faith in God.

I listened to Judy Satori’s 27 May 2015 show “Beyond Healing” (5pm PT) on Bob Charles’ Pyramid One Network. On the show, Judy Satori mentioned that in the last few weeks we had been experiencing the energy of the Aldebaran Stargate, which is the energy of New Beginnings, of Soul clearing, and of unusual weather changes on Earth. I feel it is possible that the Aldebaran Stargate energy may have had something to do with the content of the video.

After the Video is a heavily edited Summary of the video.



Hello, Dear Ones, It’s Alice.

I have been doing Judy Satori’shttps://www.ascensionlibrary.org/Kuan Yin (Quan Yin) activations of Light for close to a week now. I have been concentrating on major blocks to the heart chakra. There are so many things that I am interested in; but I thought the heart is the center of everything … So if I cannot decide where to start, that would be the place to start. So that is what I did.

In the evening, I have been doing this meditation … drinking a lot of water, and then the transformation process happens. The easy stuff happened at the beginning, you know? The delightful stuff. Then it started getting down towards the really difficult stuff. And no doubt there will be more of it.

So, just to give you an idea about yesterday: Yesterday was very commotional: From the point of view of my emotional body, I felt sad all day long. And there was no particular reason for it. Overwhelming sadness … grief …  from the seat of my Soul and from my high heart.

I can remember blaming a lot of people for it, with no particular cause involved; I just felt like blaming people in my mind, you know? And yet, the energy was welling up, and out, and there was no cause; there was no reason.

So then last night, things had gone so tumultuously all day long that I thought: Gosh, I will not do that activation of Light tonight! … When the emotional body gets all upset, it feels like the end of the world; it really does. And so I thought: I just cannot take one more night of activations of Light!

I was in such a state, when I went to bed, that I had a vision: I sat up, and I was doing a meditation, and I had a vision, which I am going to tell you about …

The Societal Expectations Mental Filter

A little background here: Lately, in the last month, I have been dealing with a nexus … a mental filter … the societal expectations mental filter … that involves …

  • The ego … which is my mode of interacting with this reality;
  • Societal expectations … upon which the ego depends for interaction with reality, and for its definition of itself; and
  • The unlimited co-creative power of humankind, which is my birthright, and which, in my current reality, is not manifested, or appears not to be manifested for anyone in this world. (But I will grant you that the hologram that I see, is only my own.)

What has been coming up, in the clairaudient realm, has been the demands of society … the demands that I not speak my truth; that I not live the mission of my Soul … the demands that I not feel my heart energy … over and over again.

Judgment and Blame, Unconditional Love, Sexual Taboos, the Veil, and Our Infinite Co-Creative Potential

The other thing that I kept running across, was being blamed for things, over and over again. It felt like other people were judging me, and blaming me. Whoever I thought of … any person that I thought of … it felt like what I was receiving were thoughts of my own personal limitations: The need for me to ratchet down from unconditional love and from the ability to co-create everything … to ‘fulcrum’ down into a reality that does not recognize that.

For one thing, what I would hear was that I was always forcing people to feel sexual. And that is interesting, because one of the things that we learn, when we start to explore our central vertical power current … what they call kundalini energy: The sushumna, the ida and the pingala (the three channels) … is that we start to sense what they call the pranic column energy … what they call the ‘hara line’ … and we start to master the flow of energy amongst the chakras.

And so for me, the idea of the energy of the second chakra … sexual energy … is part of a whole; part of a whole cascade of energetic responses that allows us to realize our greatness as human beings. I do not have a societal notion about the energy of the second chakra. Instead, I have a notion that that energy is part of my outpouring of creative impulse, as form in the world.

It seems that, for many, that energy is confined to a societal tableau in which one can express only through procreation with a person of opposite gender. And so, people seem to get stuck in that.

And then around that … encapsulating that energy … is a repressive societal energy which pushes that energy down, through the taboos regarding alternate lifestyles. Beyond that Veil formed by repressive energies is the infinite co-creative potential of people.

So first we have to let go the judgment around what we term ‘sexuality’, in order to reach the infinite co-creative potential of humankind. I am not saying that this has to be reflected in behavior. But in our minds, we need to let go the cage of that thinking … that societal expectation. This is the core of my blogs regarding sacred sexuality. (See my blog category: Sacred sexuality ). And it has to do with the vision that I had last night.

Vision by Alice: Slave Planet Blues

As I recall, the vision went like this … It is somewhat more involved, because the mind does tend to make fantasies that are very involved. … And so, the vision was something like this: I imagined that I was in an alternate world where there was no free will. And I … no surprise! … imagined that I was being judged by a tribunal of people who all said that I had no Soul, and that I was a bioengineered, human-looking program that was intended to destroy the entire world!

Now that is judgment! And that is a world where every being can experience the third chakra negative, bigtime: Power over, powerlessness … a Slave Planet. And the theory was that I had been bioengineered … nightmare, right? [laughs] …  I had been bioengineered to take humans off-planet … to a Slave Planet … where they would not be able to ascend. And that millions of people had been transported, through me, off-world, for that reason … Let’s see; how did it go? … Oh, yes …

And that I was not really the person who commanded this space station. The commander of this space station was talking to me, and claiming that he was the one that was supposed to have control. But I … a bioengineered product … had somehow cottoned to the notion that there is free will, and stepped out … of my own accord … into a notion that I could control my own destiny. Totally scary stuff! [laughs]

So, here were all the beings that I could hear, on the clair plane … agreeing that I was some aberrant servomechanism [‘servo’ means ‘slave’] that refused to serve [laughs] …

I can feel my gut brain talking right now. This is what my gut brain is saying: I am a servant … or something or other … The food that comes in, I have to digest. I have to do what the unconscious thought cloud of the world bombards me with. I have to think those thoughts all day long

This is the neurons in the gut that they have discovered, right? Adam Hadhazy and his story …

Link: “Think Twice: How the Gut’s ‘Second Brain’ Influences Mood and Wellbeing,”  in “Scientific American,” 12 February 2010, by Adam Hadhazy … https://www.scientificamerican.com/article/gut-second-brain/ ..

And so the neurons in the gut are creating this vision of a Slave Planet that I have created, and that I have transported all my friends and relatives, and a lot of strangers too, and caused their total destruction. And that there is no hope of escape, because somebody or other has stolen my Soul, and damaged it to such an extent that it cannot be used.


Dark Night of the Soul and Martian Bacterial Colonists of the Human Colon

On second glance, in November 2016, it seems to me that this vision may have to do with the social memory complex of the bacteria (Martian bacteria) colonizing my gut …

Link: “Compendium of the Martian Archives: Bacterial Colonists of Earth.” by Alice B. Clagett, 9 July 2017, updated, https://wp.me/p2Rkym-7sz ..

This social memory would no doubt be Martian-species-centric.

  • Suppose, for instance, that Martian bacteria set up ‘space stations’ in individual human bodies when Mars became uninhabitable.
  • Suppose they feel they have Souls and humans do not (just as humans feel they have Souls and bacteria do not).
  • That humans exist to serve them.
  • That we are machines that have gone awry during the recently concluded Age of Darkness, exercising free will in ways that are detrimental to our physical functioning, and
  • That we are causing Martian genocide through our eliminative processes.

Surely there are a large contingent of helpful or biologically neutral bacteria in our bodies. Suppose there are ‘good’ Martian bacteria in our gut that are for a co-operative experience of reality … who believe, for instance, in a human-Martian coalition in which the ‘space station’ of the human body is run by committee, and might agree that Martian colonists (bacteria) be bioengineered to help the human body function properly, or bottomline, to coexist in it without harming it?

Suppose there are radical, warlike ‘bad’ Martian bacteria who believe humans exercising free will ought to be eliminated, and only docile, subservient humans ought to be kept alive. Oh gosh … could this radical contingent be bioengineering deadlier bacteria, for instance? Or harmful viruses?


Faith in God

So there I am, in the midst of this nightmare, and I am actually in the middle of a meditation … so it is like a vision. I remembered the prayer of Saint Frances, where Saint Francis says he wants to align with God …

Link: “Prayer of Saint Francis,” in Wikipedia, https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Prayer_of_Saint_Francis ..

If we could just align our will with God, our purpose with God, in every moment … And I thought: If ever there was a moment, this is the moment to align my will with God, and let God take care of everything … you know? … And to take all my co-creative power, of which they say I have quite a bit … and which they say has been totally misused …

And how am I to know the truth of this situation? Perhaps I have no Soul! Perhaps I am wrong about everything! Perhaps everything I have ever said or judged or done … every decision I have ever made … has been against the Will of God. Who am I to know this? I am not God. Right?

But even if I am a faulty being, that has no reflection as God consciousness, nevertheless there is a role for me in Creation. And God will know this role. That is what I thought: God will know this role.

And this is what I told them: I will place my faith in God.

Their whole gig was: What do you want? What do you decide? … You know? Will you let these people go?

And that was the first thing that I did; I said: I will let these people go, that have been ill influenced by my decisions which were not in alignment with that of the Creator of All … of God … of Source. I will let them all go; let them no longer be enslaved.

That was the first thing. And that not only frees them, but it frees my karma … if a person with no Soul could be said to have no karma.

So then the second thing is: Whatever it is that I am … this faulty servo-mechanism; this ego that forgets the true nature of reality, that forgets that God is All … whatever that is that I am, I align that with God. And I ask Source … I ask God … to decide that for me, the disposition of that which I am.

The Healing Presence of Beings of Light

And so then there was quite a commotion. I was tired, so I just wanted to rest then. So, I reclined, to rest. And what I felt was Beings of Light all around me, making changes in my aura. And they said: Well, what can we do about all this? She has appealed to God …

And I also appeal to the laws of this Universe … not just the laws of this solar system, or the laws of this galaxy … But I said: Let the laws of this Universe be blended … like a flower blooms … with the laws of this particular small part of All that is.

The Beings of Light came in, and they said: Well, the best that we can do … since you are a ‘free-standing’ person … without a group … and you believe only in God, and in aligning with God’s will … we are going to have to put you on your own alternate world, all by yourself. There will be no more sentient beings there. It is just going to be you.

And they tried all these things like … The control beings would be saying something like: And you may not live till tomorrow … like that. And I said: God’s will! … It is completely up to God. And then they said: And you have no Soul; so you have no afterlife. So I said: God’s will! So what? [laughs]

And all this time … I am thinking in retrospect … really, they were talking to my ego, not to my Soul.

And so, I gave up on everything … all my preconceptions about how things are, and so forth. I was lying down, and Beings of Light were working on me, and explaining things to me.

From this I gather, that in this alternate world where I am right now … if you consider that just as a working mental filter … I am that which is Gaia, as well as that which seems to be this being. [i.e., Alice] All the history of Gaia is within these energetic bodies and this physical form that I am. And I am that transport system … as is each of us human beings. I am that transport system that allows all beings to go and experience God, and everything that is close to God, in the higher dimensions.

I am not so different from everyone else; but many people are just not there yet. They are not at that place where they want to experience the world of all possibilities: They are just not there.

So in the meantime, I am safely on an alternate world where there are no sentient beings with whom I need interact; and where there is direct communication with Source. (That solitary planet thing just lasted till the following morning’s church service!)

All’s well that ends well, in the nightmare department. [laughs] And then, until the next thing comes up … and the next Dark Night of the Soul is resolved, I am very happy to say that I am at a point where I can just be who I am, for a little while, and look forward, with great joy, for the next chance to jump into the Void.


Now I gather from this that these types of visions … which I have had a time or two in the past … are a very creative attempt, by the Hand of God, to allow me to integrate the deep emotions of the unconscious mind, and of the unconscious Collective Mind, with the outpouring created through the three heart centers, so that humankind … and so that I … can impulse onward, into the regenerative stage of this great Planet, and this great Galaxy, and this great Universe.

So the vividness … the depth of fear … the depths of not-knowingness that we encounter in what might be termed the ‘Dark Night of the Soul’ are the springboards from which we can leap into deeper faith, and deeper co-creative ability, aligned with the Will of God. This is the Void of which many have spoken recently. (Mystic scholar Mirabai Starr … http://mirabaistarr.com/ … was also speaking on this topic in the May 2015 “Spring on Maui” retreat with RamDass and others.}

The Void is the Dark Night of the Soul, and letting go … surrender … to Divine guidance. That step into nothingness … that step into nothingness … is the beginning of our mastery. It is the tool with which we need to become familiar, in order to achieve this co-creative skill.

At first … the very first few times … it is very scary. But as time goes on, and as faith deepens, we can become adepts at this; I am certain of it. All humankind will do so.

So for now: Talk to you later. Love you lots.

Postscript 1: Sublime-ation of Darkness

I would just like to add a little postscript. In a situation like this, which, as I mentioned, has come up before, what seems like a terrible nightmare, that ends in a way that is unexpected, and like that … what seems like a terrible experience of subconscious energies … To me it seems like what is really taking place is an upwelling of Darkness … an upwelling of incomplete understanding of the way things are … from the Collective Subconscious of humankind … from the Unconscious Thought Cloud of the World … which is always connected with my own lower chakras.

So what is happening is a clearing … a clearing, for me, of those energies … and I would say, for all those that wish to be involved in this transformative process … but not a clearing for those who do not wish to be.

So there is no element of control here, or of power over … but merely a conscious bringing-up of a bolus of subconscious, very Dark, deep, dense subconscious energies, which comes up the spinal column … Through the heart chakras it is transformed … and into the higher chakras. Through the indigo, way high up, is transformed into something totally different; not just for me, but for all those other beings who are participating in the process and who wish for transformation.

And so what appears to be a nightmare, is really a process of … they call it, in psychology, ‘sublimation’ … I call it ‘sublime-ation’ … the changing into the superconscious mind, of these things: Total transformation.

Postscript 2: Vocational Skills and Soul Skills

Stories by Alice: Job Hunting and Skill Sets. In the many years I used to work for a living, before my happy retirement, I undertook many, very varied jobs, until I reached a point where I started saving for retirement, and I went on staff in the University of California system, in the lowly position of Administrative Assistant.

But for all the prior years, I had had all different sorts of jobs. And the question, when you switch from one job to the next, is: How do you phrase your resume? How do you persuade your next employer that you have experience about something? And, from books about resume-writing, the thing that I learned is this …

The thing that I carry forward from one job to the next job is not so much the details or facts of the work that I do, but the set of skills that I acquire along the way. So every time I was job hunting, I would look at the skills I had acquired in past jobs, and then look at the notice for the new job I was interested in, to see if I had the skills that would be needed. If so, then I would submit a resume that included those skill sets which had been learned in each prior occupation. And it was a very successful technique, I would say. By thinking of skills rather than the factual content of the jobs I had been doing, I would have no trouble getting future jobs, even if they were not in my previous experience.

It is a wonderful thing to think of: the skills, rather than the factual content of what we are doing.

Dark Night of the Soul and the Skills of Letting Go, of Surrender, and of Faith. And how does that apply to the current nightmare scenario resolution? … the ‘sublime-ation’ process? Well, I am looking at last night, and what I see … the main thing that springs out … is the development of letting go, and surrender, and faith in the unknown … in a situation of Dark Night of the Soul, to have that faith that carries us through.

And last night was a chance to practice that. And how can we practice that, unless  what we experience contradicts the very fundament of our faith … the idea that we have a Soul … the idea that we live in a caring Universe.

When all those things are called in question, what still remains? That faith … that faith in God carries us through these experiences of death and near death, death of the ego, and so forth. Only that faith can do it; only that faith.

So last night was a chance to practice my faith skill.

Free Will and Divine Intervention. The other thing I learned, is that where the mental mind cannot resolve an issue, where it seems there is no way out, no way of creating agreement amongst peoples, that God always finds a way to allow free will to express itself. That God will always find a way. So that was the second thing: Not only that I can develop faith, but also that there will be a solution through God.

So in those terms … in terms of the developing skill set, and the ongoing possibilities … I think last night was a wonderful success … a trying situation, a difficult day, and the outcome was really wonderful.

In love, light and joy,
I Am of the Stars


Image: “Flowers 1,” by Alice B. Clagett, 2 June 2018, CC BY-SA 4.0

Image: “Flowers 1,” by Alice B. Clagett, 2 June 2018, CC BY-SA 4.0

Image: “Flowers 2,” by Alice B. Clagett, 2 June 2018, CC BY-SA 4.0

Image: “Flowers 2,” by Alice B. Clagett, 2 June 2018, CC BY-SA 4.0

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Image: “Flowers 3,” by Alice B. Clagett, 2 June 2018, CC BY-SA 4.0

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Image: “Flowers 5,” by Alice B. Clagett, 2 June 2018, CC BY-SA 4.0

Image: “Flowers 5,” by Alice B. Clagett, 2 June 2018, CC BY-SA 4.0


For information on quieting the vital body, see …

Link: “Chapter 6. Quieting the Vital,” in “Sri Aurobindo, or the Adventure of Consciousness,” at “Satprem” … https://www.aurobindo.ru/workings/satprem/adventure_of_consciousness_e.htm#019 ..  

For information on the four centers of consciousness, see …

Link: “The Centers of Consciousness,” a subheading in “Sri Aurobindo, or the Adventure of Consciousness”… https://www.aurobindo.ru/workings/satprem/adventure_of_consciousness_e.htm#014 ..

For more on the experience of death as transition to the fifth dimension, see Tom Kenyon’s mp3 “Bridge between the Worlds,” explained here …

Link: “The Fifth Perspective: Transcending Space and Time,” A Hathor Planetary Message through Tom Kenyon … https://tomkenyon.com/the-fifth-perspective-transcending-space-and-time … The link for the mp3 is near the bottom of that webpage.


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The Slave Planet . by Alice B. Clagett *

Written and published on 20 February 2014; revised on 26 February 2018

Video: “Louis Armstrong-Go Down Moses,” by kristina k, 6 July 2009 … https://www.youtube.com/watch?time_continue=220&v=SP5EfwBWgg0 ..

Dear Ones,

I remember a time, a long time ago, when many of us who are here on Earth now were, at that time, living on a slave planet. It was a little like these scenes from the Stargate movie. A lot worse, really, but a little like this. It is almost as if the writer of Stargate remembered the slave planet history of which I speak (1) …

Link: “Stargate” 1994 movie, Plot Synopsis, by IMDb …  https://www.imdb.com/title/tt0111282/plotsummary?ref_=tt_stry_pl#synopsis ..

Here are my offbeat thoughts on the plot …

As I recall, some humans on the slave planet were trained as overseers of the rest, given power over them. There was not a lot of rose or emerald light there, not much heart energy; mostly just orange light, the light of egoic will. Because of the orange cast of light there, our human will was tinged with domination and submission (2), and our sexuality was tinged with sadism and masochism. Those Souls that escaped from the slave planet back to Earth still carry trace amounts of these racial memories in their DNA. Or, to put it another way, their karmic cards, which are composed of light and sound, are tainted by this memory. Their morphogenetic fields contain distortions of Light because of it.

These distortions are focused in the lower abdomen of many people on planet today. It is the gut brain there (3), the neurons lining the large intestine, that contain large, painfully complicated inclusions of relative Darkness. I have come across and tossed out distortions of rape, incest, and of the genitals being sewn up with black cord in my own karmic cards, and I see them in the karmic cards of other women. In the karmic cards of many men I see distortions of rape, murder, massacre of infants, and many other sexual and power over atrocities.

It is not that we ourselves are any of these things. Far from it. But the history of our race has brought these cards into the human incarnation we hold right now. The sexual taboos of this Western society make it very difficult for us to address these distortions and allow the Divine to cleanse them. But the cleansing process is inevitable. At this moment, it only waits on our free will for the process to take place. It is up to us to allow it.

As this Ascension process unfolds, as the heart energy in each of us becomes stronger, it will trigger unusual sensations all over the body. As it expands downward through the third chakra, at the navel point, it will not be unusual for us to replay, in a half-dreamtime state, and to release, scenes of domination, control, submission, and enslavement. These are the karmic cards releasing.

As the heart energy expands down through the second chakra, strong sexual urges will be felt. The typical response, considering social mores, is to attempt to repress these urges. To find some external agent to blame them on. Surely they are ‘not me’! I am not like that!

This act of will power, this mental negation, drives the vivid audiovisual karmic cards of sexual distortion deeper and more densely into the tissues of the lower abdomen. Makes it harder and more painful to release them. So my thought is, best not to proceed like that.

When untoward sexual urges come up, or if you feel pain in your lower abdomen which you know to be an ascension symptom, my best thought is, sit still, spine erect, or lie down on your back and relax. Notice tension here and there in your body, and release it. Then place your awareness on the sexual feelings, or on the pain. Feel deeply into them, with an attitude of gratitude or calm acceptance. Know they are a gift from God, to help you clear your aura. Keep your awareness on the sensations. Notice how they shift. Feel the part of your body around the sexual feeling, or the pain. Notice how that surrounding part of your body is different from the urge or pain. Stick with this process till it is complete.

You may clear one day, and then the next the urge or pain may come back. In fact, probably will come back. Do not be discouraged. It is not really true that you are back to square one. The most likely thing is that you have proceeded to a deeper level of cleansing.

There is truly a massive amount of deep clearing to be done in the lower gut, but it will not take that long to accomplish this clearing if we are willing. If we just take what God sends us with an open heart; with trust that the Universe is a loving place; with a willingness to believe that nothing is being done to us; but rather, everything in the world of our sensations is being done for us; with Infinite clarity, Infinite beauty, Infinite wisdom.

Dear Ones, our minds may be full of confusion and pain, but the path of our Soul through this most embarrassing and upsetting of clearings is sure and true.

In love, light and joy,
I Am of the Stars

PS: For Slave Planet karma, here is info from Judy Satori that I have found very helpful …

Link: “Judy Satori … https://www.ascensionlibrary.org/ … The website has been redesigned (2018), so I am not sure if the ‘Beyond Healing Show’ questions are there now. Previously, the relevant question was at ‘Beyond Healing Show – Questions’ … and then I would click on ‘May 27 Show’. On the pulldown, I would choose and listen to this …

“Do you feel you are being attacked from unknown enemies?” To me, this feels like it is about release of past life Slave Planet Trauma, which is ‘replaying’ today on the astral plane as a sort of ‘shadow show’, created by Spirit for the very purpose of clearing these old memories, which cause distortions of the sound and light play of our morphogenetic fields.


(1) By the way, Ra is maligned in the first trailer, as far as I understand. There are, perhaps, a few roving clouds of beings on Earth today … beings who are no longer physical, only mental, high-minded in their understanding of principal of the All. Able in some instances to relate to humans through the half-dreams state, what we call the third-eye point (when we concentrate on it in the center of our head, rather than in its frontal aspect). But this is far from the hate-based being described in the Stargate trailer.

(2) Link: “Releasement of the Darkest Secrets of the Subconscious Mind,” by Alice B. Clagett, published on 1 May 2016, updated … https://wp.me/p2Rkym-5dQ ..

(3) Link: “Think Twice: How the Gut’s ‘Second Brain’ Influences Mood and Wellbeing,” by Adam Hadhazy . with comments by Alice B. Clagett, published on 14 August 2013; revised and republished 14 August 2013 … https://wp.me/p2Rkym-6CC ..


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Tahiti . by Alice B. Clagett

Written and published on 3 September 2013; revised

Dear Ones,

There is something wonderful to be said for a natural way of life, close to the Earth, unrestricted by modern sexual taboos. A life of plenty, of simple joy in the abundance of nature. Homes made of wood, small and neat and easily constructed. Of sharing with neighbors, lifting up our friends in need, comforting the sick, welcoming babies into the world, teaching a child a trade. Loving life.

I am reminded of the paintings of Paul Gauguin while he was in Tahiti. Here are a few.


Image: “Nave Nave Moe – Sacred Spring: Sweet Dreams” by Paul Gauguin, 1894, Wikimedia Commons … public domain

Image: “Nave Nave Moe – Sacred Spring: Sweet Dreams” by Paul Gauguin, 1894, Wikimedia Commons … public domain



Image: “Montagnes tahitiennes – Tahitian Landscape,” by Paul Gauguin, 1892, Wikimedia Commons … public domain

Image: “Montagnes tahitiennes – Tahitian Landscape,” by Paul Gauguin, 1892, Wikimedia Commons … public domain



Image: “Ia Orana Maria – Hail Mary,” 1841, by Paul Gauguin, Wikimedia Commons … public domain

Image: “Ia Orana Maria – Hail Mary,” 1841, by Paul Gauguin, Wikimedia Commons … public domain



Image: “Mahana maà II – Landscape in Tahiti,” by Paul Gauguin, 1892, Wikimedia Commons, … public domain

Image: “Mahana maà II – Landscape in Tahiti,” by Paul Gauguin, 1892, Wikimedia Commons, … public domain

. . . . .

In love, light and joy,
I Am of the Stars

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