Written and published on 14 April 2017
Previously titled: Astral Story: S&M Couple Engaging 24-7 in Astral Rape
Dear Ones,
I have an astral story about a couple that participate in S and M (sadomasochism) as their normal manner of sexual expression. The woman is a dominatrix …
… and this is because the man has Soul wounding that makes killing while having sexual intercourse his usual manner of sexual expression.
In order to have sex and continue in relationship without being killed by her lover, the woman found that if she bossed him around during intercourse, and forced him to do this or that, so that she might climax, and prevented him from ejaculating, then that would be safe for her. The man would then go out and find someone to have intercourse with and kill. Or so the astral story goes.
This couple apparently is very psy, as is often the case where people have sustained grave Soul wounding. The psy-ness comes from the great noise that the Soul wounding causes in the area of the gut brain (aka the vital body, lower triangle, Lower Quaternary). This noise reverberates through the noosphere and makes it difficult to hear the milder telepathic feelings and thoughts of the majority of people.
In a situation like that described above, so the astral story goes, the man and woman had insatiable desire to dominate, rape and kill. To stay safe from the public view (as this sort of behavior attracts unwanted attention and can bring about unfortunate legal consequences) they ramped down and delayed their need to dominate, rape and kill on the physical plane by satisfying their desire through astral rape.
Their MO (modus operandi) was to find a victim, someone they had met on the physical plane, who might satisfy the role of masochist for both of them, and to direct their Soul-wounded sexual desires to that victim in shifts, 24-7. The woman would take the day shift, and the man the night shift.
When one victim, a slightly built male, became no longer available because of a fatal auto accident, in the one case (according to the astral story), they found another victim, a woman with relatively low self-esteem, whom they psychically raped till she made the intelligent move of marrying a man of strong bearing and stature and moving away from the couple’s home town. The couple then, the astral story goes, switched to another female victim.
These sorts of astral setups are very difficult for a victim to break through. What must happen is for the victim to pose, on the astral plane, as a dominatrix or dominator. In other words, the victim’s psychic communication with the gut brain of the psychically attacking couple must be aggressive (and not passive aggressive, passive, or assertive) …
In this way the victim will no longer fill the need of the astrally raping couple to ramp down their desire for sadistic play through vicarious satisfaction in the telepathic realm. For instance, when a psychic attack begins to occur, the victim might say …
“You will submit to me or __________!”
Or words to that effect.
This will deter the masochist man in the S and M couple, as he will feel intimidated, as he does when the woman in the couple behaves sadistically. The sadistic woman will be able to act out her emotional stance with her submissive male partner during intercourse. And the submissive male will be left in the lurch for a means of sexual expression, except through acting out his desire to rape and kill.
Thus, when the victim moves to an astral dominatrix or dominator stance, law enforcement might anticipate that the original S and M couple would begin acting out sadism in a ramped up manner in the physical realm.
This acting out (which represents a danger to public safety) might be anticipated to continue until they have selected another astral rape victim.
In love, light and joy
This is Alice B. Clagett.
I Am of the Stars … and so are you!
See also … Link: “Compendium: Dylan Redwine Murder Mystery,” by Alice B. Clagett, published on 22 February 2020; revised on 23 April 2020 … https://wp.me/p2Rkym-gz4 ..
Written and published on 5 April 2017; revised on 17 April 2017 and 15 April 2018
CAN CRIMINALS CHANGE THEIR RACE?
IS IT POSSIBLE FOR CRIMINALS TO HACK AND CHANGE MUGSHOTS IN LAW ENFORCEMENT DATABASES?
FAKE DATES OF BIRTH
HEIGHT ENHANCEMENT THROUGH SURGERY
FAKED WEIGHT CHANGE
CAN CRIMINALS CHANGE THEIR GENDER?
CAN FINGERPRINTS BE ALTERED?
HEIGHT-ENHANCING SURGERY TO PREVENT LAW ENFORCEMENT FROM AUTOMATICALLY MATCHING UP CRIMINAL RECORDS
FACE TRANSPLANTS AND IMPLANTS FOR IDENTITY CHANGE
MORE INFORMATION
Dear Ones,
I did a survey of the sex offender database of a Wild West town in 2015 (1) … Back then, there were lots of snapshots of male African Americans. As far as I know, the African-American population of that town is nearly zero. I wondered, what gives? Could it be that there are Caucasian sex offenders masquerading as black people?
CAN CRIMINALS CHANGE THEIR RACE?
Answer is yes, it seems. Here is an article about a type of face mask that fooled law enforcement into arresting a black man for a bank heist; later they discovered the error and arrested a Caucasian suspect:
IS IT POSSIBLE FOR CRIMINALS TO HACK AND CHANGE MUGSHOTS IN LAW ENFORCEMENT DATABASES?
Then just recently I checked the sex offender database of the Wild West town, and it showed almost only Latino people … and there are few Latino people in the town proper.
Huh! Could there be a master hacker accessing the law enforcement database at night, maybe as a janitor or maintenance person? Hypothetically?
While I have no answer here, I do have a lead. I saw a photo of a person by a particular name, under the jurisdiction of the Sheriff’s office for that town … Apparently he was convicted 13 September 2004 in Alabama of sexual assault on a child.
Then I found a person by the same name, charged with sexual assault on a child, 13 September 2004 … This person looked similar to the man in the Sheriff’s office photo, but parted his hair differently, and his face was thinner.
What gives, I wonder? Could this be evidence of hacking or tampering with the Wild West town’s law enforcement sexual offender database? Or maybe an attempt by two crooks to confuse the public? Or maybe it is simply evidence of occasional steroid use by one person?
FAKE DATES OF BIRTH
In searching through criminal files for the Wild West, I came across one man who had 4 different names, very different hairdos, and slightly different dates of birth (DOB, as it is called). Yet he had the same sorts of criminal offenses in each of the four records.
So, I am guessing that criminals may alter their dates of birth, as well as their names and ‘dos’, so that their criminal records are less easily compiled in Law Enforcement databases?
HEIGHT ENHANCEMENT THROUGH SURGERY
During my 2015 perusal of a sexual offender database in the Wild West, one thing I noticed was that there were 18 men of varying weights, but all of them were about 5′ 10″ in height, which was quite a large proportion of the total number of people listed.
And there was another, smaller cluster of men about 6′ 1″ in height, which seemed to me to be exceedingly odd.
Suppose incorrect photos were put into these files, and the rest of the statistics were not altered … Would that point to 2 perps working overtime in the same Wild West area, one about 5′ 10″ tall, and one about 6′ 1″ tall?
Or might it be one perp with height enhancement surgery? Looks like that is a possibility; see …
Then I wondered about variations in weight in the 2015 Wild West sex offender database, maybe 40 to 85 pounds of difference. I wondered, can this by any chance be achieved with a body suit? The answer is, yes, according to Wikipedia:
“Fatsuits may also be used to impart the experience of being obese to the wearer, not just the appearance of obesity to their audience. The suit in this case is weighted, as well as padded. Where the intention is to impart the experience of being seen as fat in a community, its appearance must also be realistic and so a fatsuit rather than just a weight belt is needed. Several celebrities noted for their slimness have worn such garments and recorded their, and others’, reactions as documentary of social attitudes to weight….” –from Link: “Fatsuit,” in Wikipedia … https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Fatsuit … CC BY 3.0
CAN CRIMINALS CHANGE THEIR GENDER?
This was my next question. Yes again … Breast augmentation is one way to appear to change gender. See …
HEIGHT-ENHANCING SURGERY TO PREVENT LAW ENFORCEMENT FROM AUTOMATICALLY MATCHING UP CRIMINAL RECORDS
Height can be changed through surgery; it looks like as many as 6 inches can be gained through surgery. Maybe this kind of operation would prevent computer matching of criminal records in a law enforcement database. See:
Link: “Disadvantages & Risks of Leg Lengthening Surgery to Increase Height || Height Growth Tips,” by Pastimers – World’s Best & Worst, 6 April 2016 … https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CTKrJA2QssE ..
FACE TRANSPLANTS AND IMPLANTS FOR IDENTITY CHANGE
I can think of two kinds of face surgery to prevent detection of one’s criminal history. See …
An Astral Story about a Case of Extreme Soul Wounding of a Young Boy at Puberty
The Malspeak Program That Was Installed
Tendencies that Might Arise Because of the First Young Man’s Early Soul Wounding
Blending of One’s Personal Samskaras with Those of a Group
Fatal Projection of Heart Attack Feeling in Relationship
Projection of Childhood Genital Wounding as Public Exposure of Genitals with Black Magic Intent
Astral Story about Another Person with Similar Depth of Soul Wounding in Early Childhood
Tendencies that Might Arise Because of the Second Young Man’s Early Soul Wounding
Positing the Two Soul-Wounded Young People Meeting in a Group Setting
Projection of Early Soul Wounding as an Experiment on Others in an Attempt to ‘Uncolor’ the Remembered Trauma
First-Tier and Second-Tier Soul Wounding and Karmic Pass-Down, with Acting Out of Rage by the Second Tier
My Thoughts on Ways to Avoid Acting Out Soul Wounding
Dear Ones,
BEGINNING COMMENTS
These astral stories are about childhood Soul wounding, projection of that wounding through acting out as an adult, and first- and second-tier karmic flow-through.
I would like to state in advance that these are merely astral stories, imaginative stories, and most likely represent vivid waking dreams, daydreams and night dreams characteristic of the astral state, rather than actual physical occurrences.
It seems to me that an understanding of these astral stories may be helpful in healing the Souls of those who have sustained dense wounding to their etheric nets as the result of many incarnations on Earth, where the duality play offers both great suffering and a chance for great Soul learning.
There is an edited Summary after the video. Note that there are several green-font sections in the Summary that are not in the video …
VIDEO BY ALICE
SUMMARY OF THE VIDEO
Hello, Dear Ones, It’s Alice. I Am of the Stars.
Introduction
I am here to talk just a little today about a hypothetical instance of Soul wounding, and how that might play out in the world in a particular situation where that Soul wounding encounters other Soul wounding, say from a group. What I am hoping the takeaway might be, is …
a further understanding of the workings of karma in the world,
of malspeak,
of the Soul clearing that is taking place right now,
and of how we can recognize karmic traps and avoid them, so that the Soul clearing may happen more quickly.
An Astral Story about a Case of Extreme Soul Wounding of a Young Boy at Puberty
Suppose there were a case where a very young child was just learning about sexuality and the ability to have an orgasm. And this young person had a younger sister who used to follow him around all the time by way of hero worship.
And so, this young person was getting the feeling he wanted to try out his new skill by himself, but his younger sister followed him along, out into a field. His feeling was very strong, and he was just a very young boy at the time; he wanted to be alone, and he became upset because she would not leave him. So he threw a rock at her, and by mistake, he killed her. He tried to revive her, but he found out that she had passed on.
His father found out, and his father was a person who had trouble containing his anger. His son was distraught, very upset about it. In a fit of anger over what his young son had done, the father never noticed what the child was feeling. Instead, he took a butcher knife and cut the child’s penis off.
The Malspeak Program That Was Installed
Here we have a case of extreme Soul wounding at a very young age. Very extreme. And the Soul lesson, the malspeak that happened, was something like this:
If I feel sexual, then I will kill a woman [as he had done his sister].
lf I feel sexual, then I am in danger of being physically mutilated [as his father had mutilated him].
Therefore, whenever I feel sexual, I must repress that feeling.
Tendencies that Might Arise Because of the First Young Man’s Early Soul Wounding
There would be a tendency to perceive father figures as being more powerful than they actually are … as forces that must be placated and kowtowed to, like wrathful father gods.
There would be a tendency to consider women frail creatures who might easily pass on at any time, through one’s own hand.
There might be a tendency to turn to frail women or children for sexual fulfillment, by way of repeating the childhood wounding, and this turning to might lead to physical peril for the women or children at times when the Soul wounding surfaced from the subconscious mind.
There might be a tendency to turn to men for sexual encounters, in an effort to spare women’s lives, and this turning to might bring up fears of a wrathful god as the Soul wounding surfaced from the subconscious mind. This might result in physical threats of genital mutilation or death, so as to relieve feelings of physical violation and fear of death at the hand of the father associated with the early Soul wounding.
These tendencies might possibly surface in real life, but more likely, they might weave as threads of denser energy through the fabric of the subconscious mind of the young man.
Blending of One’s Personal Samskaras with Those of a Group
Now suppose, in this state of extreme Soul exhaustion and upset, and repression of the vital sex drive, this young person eventually encountered a group that had these kinds of samskaras:
One might be the tendency of the people there to repeat the malspeak,
Oh God, I want your money!
And let’s say that this organization also had a notion that expression of sexuality is sinful and deleterious to the development of the Soul.
So this young person would feel that they fit in, because they, themselves, would have repressed sexual energy. So the two samskaras: the group samskara, “Oh God, I want your money!” and the young man’s samskaras, after a time, would blend in the young man.
Fatal Projection of Heart Attack Feeling in Relationship
This might give rise, after a time, of a feeling of heart attack whenever the young person was in relationship with other people; a feeling of imminent death whenever this person had a sexual feeling.
Then, let’s say that the responsibilities of this young person with regard to the group might include developing relationships with people so as to obtain donations from them for the group. When this person developed relationships with other people, lets say he felt a kind of heart attack feeling, as if his heart were being injured (because of his prior association of relationships with mutilation, and so forth).
This heart attack feeling can give rise to repressed, strong negative emotions that cause heart attacks in other people (through a process termed by psychologists ‘projection’ … which is to say, projection of one’s own feelings and emotions onto another person, on the astral plane).
If these potential donors were to pass on, then the young person would be fulfilling the desire of the group “Oh God, I want your money!” … that malspeak … if the person who passed on had signed on as donors should they pass on. So in this instance, one might expect, many deaths of potential donors who had written into their will a bequest or donation to this group.
Projection of Childhood Genital Wounding as Public Exposure of Genitals with Black Magic Intent
In addition, this young person might feel, say, that the exposure of his sexual organ in public, might be the greatest of black magic, because of the thing that happened to him in his youth. He might feel that, by exposing himself in public, someone else might have a heart attack, because he (the young person) had a heart attack when his penis was exposed and his father cut it off in early childhood (although it might be, say, that his penis was later reconstructed).
Astral Story about Another Person with Similar Depth of Soul Wounding in Early Childhood
Let’s posit that, in that same group, there might be another person with a similar depth of Soul wounding. And this person grew up in a family that was very strictly against any kind of sexual display … such as, say, some of the Christian faiths are against dancing, wearing revealing clothes, and such like, and who, in general, feel that sexuality is sinful and a work of the devil. There are groups out there that are like that.
And let’s say this second young person grew up in such a very restrictive environment, and then, at the age of puberty, rebelled against the whole thing, ran away from home, and took up with a man. A man, say, picked him up on the road; this man offered safety and security … a chance to stay alive, and so forth … but asked and demanded sexual favors and inflicted sexual abuse.
Let’s say that this second young person, in his first ever romantic relationship, became head-over-heels infatuated with the man. Then, when that person grew tired of the child, the child thought to offer him the supreme gesture of cutting off their own sexual organ (along the lines of the religious training his parents had given him). And let’s suppose that that did not work … that did not ingratiate the young man with the older man again. The man just bowled them over and let them go.
Tendencies that Might Arise Because of the Second Young Man’s Early Soul Wounding
This second young man might have a tendency to form romantic relationships with men (thus reliving his early childhood Soul wounding),
He might feel extra sensitive to criticism from both men and women (because of his concerns about his genitals being different from those of other men)
This extra-sensitivity to criticism might lead to formation of vendetta or blood feud lists of people to be persecuted through astral rape, or through stalking by himself or his lovers
If his choice of sexual partners were to be men, this extra-sensitivity might lead more specifically to persecution of women through rape and/or murder scenarios on the astral and physical plane and a feeling of misogyny
When having sexual relations, he might experience pain because of the physical wounding his genital cells had sustained and,
He might act this out either masochistically (as a reliving of the early trauma)
Or sadistically (as psychological projection of the early karma onto another person)
And he might be attracted to a spiritual group that espoused sexual repression (according to the teaching of his youth)
This, then, would set up an overall dynamic of a sexually repressed lifestyle, with intermittent experiences of sexuality associated with denser emotions experienced in his early childhood
Positing the Two Soul-Wounded Young People Meeting in a Group Setting
Let’s posit, as a hypothesis, that these two young people, who had both been subject to extremely difficult Soul wounding situations in youth, met in one group or organization. Let’s posit these two spiritual people continued for a long time in the group, and were greatly valued and respected by the group because of their many great talents, and because of their devotion to the ideals of the group, and in spite of the early Soul wounding they had sustained.
Projection of Early Soul Wounding as an Experiment on Others in an Attempt to ‘Uncolor’ the Remembered Trauma
One thing that we might anticipate from their association in this group, would have to do with their shared early Soul wounding to do with genital mutilation. For instance, they might think nothing of performing an experiment with people considered by the general public to be dispensable, unneeded, and unwanted (as they, themselves, had felt when the early childhood Soul wounding occurred), an experiment involving cutting off their sexual organs (as theirs had been cut off in youth) and converting these people, through cosmetic surgery, to a notion of being women. Which might be idealized by these two people, and by others in that group, as kindly, loving men (that is, the kind of men they wished that their fathers might have been).
With a lack of understanding of the basic physiology concerned, and of the importance of orgasm in creating physical and mental health, they might arrange to have performed operations in which men of violent propensities would no longer be capable of having orgasms.
Consequently, when these men who had been experimented on, and who now looked like women, felt sexual, they would … with that ‘crossed wires’ feeling that occurs at a moment of great physical and psychological trauma … turn the rage of their body cells, which had been mutilated, into the act of killing other people.
They might, for instance, assist in killing people who were potential donors for that group (as a playing out of the group samskara, “Oh God, I want your money!”), or other people they had been hired out to kill by that group.
First-Tier and Second-Tier Soul Wounding and Karmic Pass-Down, with Acting Out of Rage by the Second Tier
What we have here is a very densely wounded clearing that is taking place, not only of these people who were initially wounded, but also of the people on the second tier, whom they wound because of their own Soul wounding.
So there is a first and second tier here. There is also a first and second tier in terms of karmic pass-down in the duality play. For instance, these two people on the first tier, or even the whole group, might have associated Soul wounding. And interspersed amongst them might be the same malspeak, because, in associating with groups, we catch each other’s malware and malspeak as if it were an infection, like the flu. So the members of the group might share a number of malware and malspeak programs, and act in unison, in an unconscious way, without actually knowing, to express their Soul wounding … which, fortunately, is now clearing.
One thing that they might express has to do with rage held into the sexual organs because of those initial, childhood occurrences that damaged the physical cells. So when it happens that they express themselves sexually with other people, though they themselves might never participate in an act of violence … and I have seen this, on the astral plane, any number of times, in any number of situations … through sharing of the malware and the malspeak that they have, to do with rage over that area of the body, they infect the second tier of people with that emotion.
And that second tier, let’s say, who may be less in control of their actions, goes out and acts out the fantasies of the first tier, by way of killing women or children, for instance, or mutilating people.
My Thoughts on Ways to Avoid Acting Out Soul Wounding
My feeling is that, when engaged in sexual activities, people ought to seek out, others of the same or similar astral matter density. And what that will result in is less acting out during this time of great change.
Also, the understanding that the body is the sacred temple of grace of God will help us to avoid storing negative emotions in the body. All of the body is good and great, I feel. And understanding that allows us to dispense with this type of malware and malspeak that holds rage and fear and so forth in the body.
In love, light and joy
This is Alice B. Clagett.
I Am of the Stars … and so are you!
Filmed on 27 March 2017, published on 3 April 2017; revised
VIDEO BY ALICE
SUMMARY OF THE VIDEO
Threat of Violence Against Men Who Become Transgender Women
Gender ‘Mistakes’, Societal Expectations, and Self-Esteem
Can a Person Have an Orgasm after a Transgender Operation?
Cellular Memories of Physical Pain Caused by Transgender Surgery
Pain during Intercourse from Vagina Being Too Shallow
Astral Story about a Transgender Woman Who Is Unable to Achieve Orgasm
Torture of the Young Child by the Father During Childhood
A Similar Instance, Where a Young Hermaphrodite Was Tortured by the Father
The Father’s Acting Out of the Metaphor: I’ll Nail Your Hide to the Barn Door
How Torture by a Parent During Childhood Can Lead to Torturing Children as an Adult
On Psychological Projection of Soul Wounding Scenarios
Parental Grant of Authority to Torture
Parental Impulse Control, Possible Substance Abuse, and Habit of Physical Abuse
Self-Torture: Cosmetic, Height-Enhancing, Identity-Changing Surgery
Stimulus and Response: Overwhelming Urge to Act Out
Astral Instance of Acting Out Pederasty Based on Childhood Post-War Experience
The Desire of the Soul, When Soul Wounding Is ‘Acted Out’
The Stance of the Spiritual Healer
A Forward Look Regarding Transgender Soul Wounding
On Keeping a Low Profile
On Exploring Every Avenue to Orgasm or Climax
On Avoiding ‘Acting Out’
The Prospect of DNA Repair Through the Incoming Light
A Prayer of Healing
MORE INFORMATION
The issue of transgender people being murdered
Can transgender women attain orgasm?
Do transgender women torture children?
A few instances of violence caused by transgender persons
Dear Ones,
This is about transgender Soul wounding, and the recent violent crimes against transgender women. An edited Summary follows the video; text in green font is not in the video, and was added on 5 April 2017 …
VIDEO BY ALICE
SUMMARY OF THE VIDEO
There has been an incredible solar windstream last night and today. Last night the protonfall was, maybe 11,000 … really high … and it was 6,000 or so this morning. This is my favorite kind of protonfall; really cool! The solar winds blow a lot of interesting information in with them.
Threat of Violence Against Men Who Become Transgender Women
I thought I would talk a little bit about men who become transgender women. I looked up in Wikipedia, and I found that there is an immense threat of violence and threat to the lives of men who become transgender women. (See “For More Information” below.)
And it looks like there may perhaps be no letup this year. I spent some time cogitating on that, and trying to figure out what the dynamic was. And I have come up with a little something that I will put forth; no doubt others will come up with their own ideas.
Gender ‘Mistakes’, Societal Expectations, and Self-Esteem
I think when a man really feels like he should have been a woman, that because societal expectations are against it, that feeling leads to low self-esteem. Because, even though he may be very careful about it, on the astral plane that information will be passed around amongst his friends and family and so forth.
In their subconscious minds, people can be exceedingly cruel with societal expectations that they feel are not met. And unless we are aware of our own deep feelings, or of their subconscious, then that will be the primitive, reptilian brain’s responses; the responses of the feral drives that are lurking, and operating in the back of our mind, without our generally knowing what is going on, until we become very introspective.
So let’s say that there is a person who wishes that he were a woman, and does not cotton onto other people’s cruel subconscious messages about unmet societal expectations. Then he will begin to develop low self-esteem because they are always dissing him.
If he is conscious of what is going on with them, he can craft responses that will help improve his self-esteem.
If he feels he has low self-esteem but does not know why, he can always begin positive affirmations, or other work to improve his self-esteem.
Can a Person Have an Orgasm after a Transgender Operation?
But let’s assume that there is an issue with low self-esteem. Then the person gets a transgender operation. I have read up what I can on transgender operations, and I have to say, my general take on it is that the success of the operations may be overstated. (See “For More Information” below.)
Cellular Memories of Physical Pain Caused by Transgender Surgery. in My own feeling is that there is a significant percentage of transgender women who have had such pain from the surgery that was performed, that they find it difficult, or very painful, or impossible, to have an orgasm. And further that, because of the trauma that their very sensitive genital tissues sustained in the course of the operation that allowed them to become transgender, whenever the act of sex is performed, I feel that the memory of that pain that is deep in the cells will be combining with the pleasure of the act of sex that is taking place.
Pain during Intercourse from Vagina Being Too Shallow. Further, I heard that the vagina is not quite as long, among transgender women, perhaps not at all as long, in some cases, as might be anticipated by the man who is having sex with them. And so, if that were to be combined with the issue of low self-esteem, there might unfold a scenario where the transgender woman allows the man to injure her because he is trying to penetrate her too deeply when the operation does not allow that. And that might be from a fear of looking different from other people.
Astral Story about a Transgender Woman Who Is Unable to Achieve Orgasm
Continuing with a particular notion of a case for men who have become transgender women, I would like to take a possible ‘what if’ and a possible ‘for instance’ regarding the transgender woman who, because of the pain involved, or because the operation was less than perfect … or for whatever reason, is unable to achieve orgasm, either with or without the act of sex, in any of the various ways described in the popular literature.
Torture of the Young Child by the Father or Mother During Childhood. Let’s just take a case where the young boy was treated very badly by his father because his father did not want the community to laugh at him regarding the desire of the young child to be a girl rather than a boy. And suppose this father tortured that child physically.
Such astral instances have been discussed in prior blogs. and need not be repeated here; I have also described in a prior blog an astral instance of torture by a mother under the influence of alcohol.
A Similar Instance, Where a Young Hermaphrodite Was Tortured by the Father. From astral stories, I know of a similar case, where a child was born hermaphroditic (intersex) … with partly male and partly female characteristics, including partly male and partly female genitals.
The Father’s Acting Out of the Metaphor: I’ll Nail Your Hide to the Barn Door. The greatest torture situation that ever happened to this child was a perfect example of how the subconscious mind uses metaphors and symbolism as its language. And it assigns its own physical values to metaphors. It cannot think abstractly … I have discussed this in past blogs (see my blog category ‘Unconscious symbolism’).
The young child who is hermaphroditic apparently feels sometimes more masculine, and sometimes more feminine, because the balance of the hormones may shift from the one pole to the other. In the astral stories, this was the case with this young person: Sometimes they said: I would like to be a man. Sometimes they said: would like to be a woman. And one day the father absolutely blew it, freaked out, and took up from his subconscious mind the metaphor ‘I’ll nail your hide to the barn door’ …
In my youth, this saying used to be used quite a bit. These days are more civilized. But in those days of yore, in the countryside, people used to say quite a bit to their children: I’ll tan your hide and tack it to the barn door! … if you do not sweep the floor (or whatever it was that they wanted their children to do). It was common parlance back then.
So there was this metaphor floating around, back when, about tanning a child’s hide and tacking it to the barn door; probably because that is what they did with cattle and so forth: they would tan the hide, and tack it to the barn door to stretch it out, and then use it for something.
So to get back to the astral story: Maybe this was a country setting; I do not know. What happened was, the child waffled back and forth one too many times, caught the father’s attention on a bad day, and the father dragged the child outside and nailed the child’s right foot to the barn door.
I am sure if he had just thought for a minute he would have realized he was just acting out a metaphor. But in fact, this is what happened; and he said: You decide! And I will not remove that nail until you decide.
So the child decided it would be a man. Right then and there, I guess, because the pain was so great. So the father relented and the child became a man in dress, in attitude, and so forth … and then in later life, decided to get the transgender operation so as to be completely female.
In the ordinary instance of transgender surgery, there is a young man who would prefer to be a woman; whereas, in the astral story I just now recounted, there was a hermaphroditic or intersex young person who grew up as a male child and then decided to be a woman. In this astral story, when the operation was performed, apparently through ignorance, the surgeon removed some sexual organs that were involved in climax and the feeling of orgasm.
How Torture by a Parent During Childhood Can Lead to Torturing Children as an Adult. When the surgery was finished, that young person could no longer have an orgasm. So in such an instance, when this operation leads to that result, and if there has been physical torture of the child by the parent in early childhood by the parent or the parental caretaker, then the surgery results in further physical torture for the sake of placating the parental figure from years past. It is a way of saying: Look, dad, I am what you expected me to be! I am just awoman! (See “For More Information” below.)
In other words, in response to that early childhood torture, the young person takes it upon himself to torture himself again. And then expects for everything to be alright. But because of the early samskara of torture, and because of the repetition of that, it is no longer possible to enjoy the act of sex.
And so, in this instance on the astral plane, of which I speak, the young transgender woman turned to torturing children sexually. In other words, she was projecting the Soul wounding in her second chakra onto someone else, and then reliving that Soul wounding through the pain that she was inflicting on the child. (See “For More Information” below.)
On Psychological Projection of Soul Wounding Scenarios
This is not the only such instance that I have run into, on the astral plane, where people turn from having been deeply wounded by past circumstances, especially by a father (but also sometimes by a mother), and move into projecting that pain onto someone else, so that they can be the powerful figure … because it is too scary to remember that horrible stuff! And instead, turn to someone else, and re-enact it through what they do to that other person.
Parental Grant of Authority to Torture. In the deep subconscious mind of such a child, there would be the unspoken understanding that, because the father had tortured her, it would be ok for her to do the same.
Parental Impulse Control, Possible Substance Abuse, and Habit of Physical Abuse. Further, a father that would torture his child in such a way would have very poor impulse control, or else would have issues with substance abuse, or such like. This might be anticipated to lead to time after time of such instances of childhood physical abuse.
So what you will see amongst these young people who have been physically tortured by their parents, is the possibility of learned poor impulse control, and of learned substance abuse and physical abuse of children that come into their lives. More concerning, they are likely to act out torture time after time with other people.
Self-Torture: Breast-Enhancement, Height-Enhancing, Identity-Changing Surgery. Another possibility is that they may perform that torture on themselves time after time (such as with many iterations of cosmetic, height-enhancing, or appearance-changing surgery).
Stimulus and Response: Overwhelming Urge to Act Out
In a practical sense, what can be done about this? It seems there is an impulse, like a passion, that rises up in those who have been tortured in childhood because of a particular stimulus. And then they cannot get it out of their minds. And then the overwhelming urge comes up to act it out.
Astral Instance of Acting Out Pederasty Based on Childhood Post-War Experience
I know of another instance along this line that is very similar. The other instance has to do with a very young person who was, in a wartime situation, separated from a parent. The parent was killed, and the house was demolished. And then the child was forced to rove in packs with other children, through a town that was demolished through bombing. This continued for some years, during his early life. There were some, quite a few years in which his whole living had to do with pillaging and looting and trying to lord it over other children. Or trying to survive through being a sex object for bullying people that were stronger than he.
For this young person, because acts of submission and rectal intercourse with other young children were what allowed him to stay alive during those post-war years, he feels that it is perfectly ok, now that he is a grownup, for him to project what happened to him onto children in his neighborhood. Because of his early childhood conditioning, he feels that shooting these children in the buttocks with opium first, makes it ok to do this, as it numbs the pain. In other words, the palliative makes it ok to inflict pain … I am guessing, because in his childhood no such care was taken in regard to him.
I feel it is a very difficult thing for him, because the minute, on the astral plane, that the thought of having intercourse with a child comes up for him, as a picture in his mind, he can never let it go from his mind, until, that night, he finds a way to act it out.
By ‘acting out’ I mean that he projects out what happened to him onto someone else, and relives what happened to him through that child.
The Desire of the Soul, When Soul Wounding Is ‘Acted Out’
The desire of the Soul, when early childhood Soul wounding is acted out, is to remember and heal the pain that the child experienced. But the action of the personality is the exact opposite.
The Stance of the Spiritual Healer
I do not know how this crushingly intense impulse to act out can be curbed. I am hoping others will come up with something on this. Overall, I say, from my own standpoint, that the best I can do is to offer prayers for grace, and prayers of faith that there will be a solution. That these Souls will find healing, in this great Light that is coming in to Earth this year. I hope that will be true.
I sense their pain, I sense the great pain of those that are their victims. And I hope, for each of them, that the answer will be provided through Divine grace.
A Forward Look Regarding Transgender Soul Wounding
On Keeping a Low Profile. Right now, I do not know what to do about this. From a societal perspective, their discovery is, from the reading I have done, likely to lead to their dropping form through violence from others, so I would advise keeping a low profile.
On Exploring Every Avenue to Orgasm or Climax. Aside from that, it might be a good idea to look up, in the popular literature, all the different ways that orgasm can be attained, lacking the typical scenario. There are apparently quite a few different ways: Stimulation of the G-spot/prostate, clitoral stimulation, stimulation of the stump of the pudential nerve are mentioned as ways for transgender people to attain orgasm in the literature I researched online (see below).
So I suggest experimenting, to see if perhaps you can begin to experience, say, autoerogenous climax or orgasm; then you can slowly begin to heal those tissues of the pain that they have experienced over this incarnation.
On Avoiding ‘Acting Out’. I hope that you’re able to decrease and eliminate the projective mechanism that is causing you to move against and away from societal expectations, and into the arena of extreme societal disapproval. It’s best to steer clear of legal sanctions, as I have read that transgender people in prison may suffer violence or even loss of life at the hands of others.
The Prospect of DNA Repair Through the Incoming Light. Aside from that, I would hope, with great faith and expectation, for a cure that may be forthcoming with the Incoming Light; a DNA repair for people with very deep, second-chakra Soul wounding.
This may take place, I feel, through feeling your own heart, and fulfilling your own heart’s deep creative urges in a less destructive way. I wish each of you the very best.
A Prayer of Healing
That is all I have on that right now. I have a prayer of healing for each of you, and I hope, with all my heart, that you will see excellent results in the future.
In love, light and joy
This is Alice B. Clagett.
I Am of the Stars … and so are you!
Reading between the lines, it looks to me like orgasm among transgender women is iffy. This article mentions climax from vaginal penetration, using a vibrator angled upward to stimulate the G-spot/prostate and clitoral stimulation …
This article mentions the G-spot/prostate as well as stimulation of the stump of the pudential nerve as an option for those who underwent early days transgender operations …
Stimulation of the G-spot/prostate, clitoral stimulation, stimulation of the stump of the pudential nerve are mentioned as ways for transgender people to attain orgasm in the literature I researched online.
Other instances of violence caused by transgender persons
I checked for instances of violence caused by transgender persons. From my research, it seems these are far less frequent than are instances of violence perpetrated against transgender people …
On Being Aware of the Tendency to Act Out Early Soul Wounding in One’s Adult Life
The Inclination to ‘Act Out’ in One’s Adult Life Is Really the Soul’s Attempt to Resolve Early Soul Wounding
Acting Out Rage Against Women
On Cross-Dressing and Acting Out the Father’s Genital Mutilation or Child Murder Role in Later Life
Second-Tier Karmic Flow-Through of Acting Out Based on Early Childhood Soul Wounding
Dear Ones,
This is an astral story of early childhood Soul wounding and the inclination to act out in adult life by a process called ‘projection’ in Psychology. This is the process to be fought and subdued, as the Incoming Light continues to transform our beautiful planet Earth, and each of her beings. An edited Summary follows the video; text in green font was not in the video …
VIDEO BY ALICE
SUMMARY OF THE VIDEO
Hello, Dear Ones, It’s Alice. I Am of the Stars.
Astral Story about a Boy Who Threw a Rock
I have a Soul wounding fable to tell you about a young boy. I have discussed it a little before. The astral story goes like this: There was a young boy who was first learning about orgasm. He lived in a rural area, and he went out into a meadow. His little sister, who idolized him, followed him, but he did not want her around. He tried to get her to go away, but she would not go away, and so he picked up a rock and hit her on the head with it.
His intention was to get her to cry and to leave, but unfortunately the blow knocked her out, and she fell on a rock and it killed her. He tried to wake her up. He could not believe that she was dead. Then he went and told his father. In a fit of anger, his father took a butcher knife and cut his penis off.
Soul Wounding and Psychological Projection
What happened there was a typical instance of Soul wounding in the third dimension. Extreme Soul wounding. The young boy was in such shock at what his father did that he fell into a state of post-traumatic stress disorder, a state of overwhelmingly immense fear.
But he couldn’t blame the incident on his father, because his father had done this horrible thing to him. And he needed to obey his father and honor his father to prevent his father from actually continuing on and mutilating him more and killing him.
So instead, he projected his extreme upset over that incident … his rage and anger over that incident … onto his younger sister who was already dead.
The Inclination to ‘Act Out’ in One’s Adult Life Is Really the Soul’s Attempt to Resolve Early Soul Wounding
Acting Out Rage Against Women. Then in later life, he had a feeling of fear and rage towards women … what you might call a ‘crossed-wires’ rage, that had to do with projection of those emotions. Actually and originally, he felt fear and upset over a man in authority, and then it became ‘once removed’ … to fear and upset over women.
In later life, he felt it more comfortable to have intimate relationships with men than with women. (It could also be that relations with women might be difficult because of the genital wounding.) And when he saw women alone, in a meadow or wilderness place, he had an urge to kill them. It was as if his Soul was repeating this early childhood accident and trying to make better sense of it, and to come to a resolution of the Soul wounding that had occurred.
This does happen, quite frequently, that people continue to play out portions of early childhood, very deep and severe Soul wounding incidents, in an attempt to bring them to their conscious attention, and to resolve it.
On Cross-Dressing and Acting Out the Father’s Genital Mutilation or Child Murder Role in Later Life. This astral story might also play out as the desire to genitally mutilate young boys, or to murder them, if the man who had this early childhood trauma were to act out the early story as if he were his own father.
It might also play out as genital mutilation of adult men, particularly if the young man has assumed a female role in adult life. This, I guess, has to do with the societal expectation that the young man, now a woman, will take male lovers, and the early PTSD experience of overwhelming fear of the father, because of the act that occurred.
So then, when the opportunity to have intimate relations with a man came up, the Soul wounding scenario would begin to surface from the subconscious mind. The energy behind the repression of the memory, as it threatened to release from the subconscious to the conscious mind, might cause the man … now a woman in the eyes of the world … to flip personas to the omnipotent, genitally mutilating father, so as to re-repress the emergent fear.
Second-Tier Karmic Flow-Through of Acting Out Based on Early Childhood Soul Wounding
There is a further elaboration that sometimes occurs on this type of story, where a person tends to repeat a violent act that occurred in early childhood, but knows the social and legal consequences of such an act. So he may convince others … friends, for instance … to carry out this act for him in the name of friendship. That is what I call a second-tier karmic occurrence: When, from the first tier of karma, karma flows down into a tier of acquaintances or friends.
So there is that story. And I am sure that this story has a solution coming up very soon … some time this year, I feel … for all those who have been so deeply wounded.
In love, light and joy
This is Alice B. Clagett.
I Am of the Stars … and so are you!
Filmed on 24 March 2017; published on 3 April 2017; revised on 26 March 2023
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MORE INFORMATION
Link: “Astral Case Studies: Boy with the Rock, and Child Lilith,” by Alice B. Clagett, written on 26 August 2018; published on 27 September 2018 … https://wp.me/p2Rkym-adS … See the story of the boy with the rock.
Link: “Issues of Violence and Betrayal to Do with Crossdressing,” by Alice B. Clagett, filmed on 17 April 2018; published on 29 April 2018 … https://wp.me/p2Rkym-8Aa ..
