Written and published on 28 March 2017
- BEGINNING COMMENTS
- VIDEO BY ALICE
- SUMMARY OF THE VIDEO
- An Astral Story about a Case of Extreme Soul Wounding of a Young Boy at Puberty
- The Malspeak Program That Was Installed
- Tendencies that Might Arise Because of the First Young Man’s Early Soul Wounding
- Blending of One’s Personal Samskaras with Those of a Group
- Fatal Projection of Heart Attack Feeling in Relationship
- Projection of Childhood Genital Wounding as Public Exposure of Genitals with Black Magic Intent
- Astral Story about Another Person with Similar Depth of Soul Wounding in Early Childhood
- Tendencies that Might Arise Because of the Second Young Man’s Early Soul Wounding
- Positing the Two Soul-Wounded Young People Meeting in a Group Setting
- Projection of Early Soul Wounding as an Experiment on Others in an Attempt to ‘Uncolor’ the Remembered Trauma
- First-Tier and Second-Tier Soul Wounding and Karmic Pass-Down, with Acting Out of Rage by the Second Tier
- My Thoughts on Ways to Avoid Acting Out Soul Wounding
These astral stories are about childhood Soul wounding, projection of that wounding through acting out as an adult, and first- and second-tier karmic flow-through.
I would like to state in advance that these are merely astral stories, imaginative stories, and most likely represent vivid waking dreams, daydreams and night dreams characteristic of the astral state, rather than actual physical occurrences.
It seems to me that an understanding of these astral stories may be helpful in healing the Souls of those who have sustained dense wounding to their etheric nets as the result of many incarnations on Earth, where the duality play offers both great suffering and a chance for great Soul learning.
There is an edited Summary after the video. Note that there are several green-font sections in the Summary that are not in the video …
VIDEO BY ALICE
SUMMARY OF THE VIDEO
Hello, Dear Ones, It’s Alice. I Am of the Stars.
I am here to talk just a little today about a hypothetical instance of Soul wounding, and how that might play out in the world in a particular situation where that Soul wounding encounters other Soul wounding, say from a group. What I am hoping the takeaway might be, is …
- a further understanding of the workings of karma in the world,
- of malspeak,
- of the Soul clearing that is taking place right now,
- and of how we can recognize karmic traps and avoid them, so that the Soul clearing may happen more quickly.
An Astral Story about a Case of Extreme Soul Wounding of a Young Boy at Puberty
Suppose there were a case where a very young child was just learning about sexuality and the ability to have an orgasm. And this young person had a younger sister who used to follow him around all the time by way of hero worship.
And so, this young person was getting the feeling he wanted to try out his new skill by himself, but his younger sister followed him along, out into a field. His feeling was very strong, and he was just a very young boy at the time; he wanted to be alone, and he became upset because she would not leave him. So he threw a rock at her, and by mistake, he killed her. He tried to revive her, but he found out that she had passed on.
His father found out, and his father was a person who had trouble containing his anger. His son was distraught, very upset about it. In a fit of anger over what his young son had done, the father never noticed what the child was feeling. Instead, he took a butcher knife and cut the child’s penis off.
The Malspeak Program That Was Installed
Here we have a case of extreme Soul wounding at a very young age. Very extreme. And the Soul lesson, the malspeak that happened, was something like this:
- If I feel sexual, then I will kill a woman [as he had done his sister].
- lf I feel sexual, then I am in danger of being physically mutilated [as his father had mutilated him].
- Therefore, whenever I feel sexual, I must repress that feeling.
Tendencies that Might Arise Because of the First Young Man’s Early Soul Wounding
There would be a tendency to perceive father figures as being more powerful than they actually are … as forces that must be placated and kowtowed to, like wrathful father gods.
There would be a tendency to consider women frail creatures who might easily pass on at any time, through one’s own hand.
There might be a tendency to turn to frail women or children for sexual fulfillment, by way of repeating the childhood wounding, and this turning to might lead to physical peril for the women or children at times when the Soul wounding surfaced from the subconscious mind.
There might be a tendency to turn to men for sexual encounters, in an effort to spare women’s lives, and this turning to might bring up fears of a wrathful god as the Soul wounding surfaced from the subconscious mind. This might result in physical threats of genital mutilation or death, so as to relieve feelings of physical violation and fear of death at the hand of the father associated with the early Soul wounding.
These tendencies might possibly surface in real life, but more likely, they might weave as threads of denser energy through the fabric of the subconscious mind of the young man.
Blending of One’s Personal Samskaras with Those of a Group
Now suppose, in this state of extreme Soul exhaustion and upset, and repression of the vital sex drive, this young person eventually encountered a group that had these kinds of samskaras:
- One might be the tendency of the people there to repeat the malspeak,
- Oh God, I want your money!
- And let’s say that this organization also had a notion that expression of sexuality is sinful and deleterious to the development of the Soul.
So this young person would feel that they fit in, because they, themselves, would have repressed sexual energy. So the two samskaras: the group samskara, “Oh God, I want your money!” and the young man’s samskaras, after a time, would blend in the young man.
Fatal Projection of Heart Attack Feeling in Relationship
This might give rise, after a time, of a feeling of heart attack whenever the young person was in relationship with other people; a feeling of imminent death whenever this person had a sexual feeling.
Then, let’s say that the responsibilities of this young person with regard to the group might include developing relationships with people so as to obtain donations from them for the group. When this person developed relationships with other people, lets say he felt a kind of heart attack feeling, as if his heart were being injured (because of his prior association of relationships with mutilation, and so forth).
This heart attack feeling can give rise to repressed, strong negative emotions that cause heart attacks in other people (through a process termed by psychologists ‘projection’ … which is to say, projection of one’s own feelings and emotions onto another person, on the astral plane).
If these potential donors were to pass on, then the young person would be fulfilling the desire of the group “Oh God, I want your money!” … that malspeak … if the person who passed on had signed on as donors should they pass on. So in this instance, one might expect, many deaths of potential donors who had written into their will a bequest or donation to this group.
Projection of Childhood Genital Wounding as Public Exposure of Genitals with Black Magic Intent
In addition, this young person might feel, say, that the exposure of his sexual organ in public, might be the greatest of black magic, because of the thing that happened to him in his youth. He might feel that, by exposing himself in public, someone else might have a heart attack, because he (the young person) had a heart attack when his penis was exposed and his father cut it off in early childhood (although it might be, say, that his penis was later reconstructed).
Astral Story about Another Person with Similar Depth of Soul Wounding in Early Childhood
Let’s posit that, in that same group, there might be another person with a similar depth of Soul wounding. And this person grew up in a family that was very strictly against any kind of sexual display … such as, say, some of the Christian faiths are against dancing, wearing revealing clothes, and such like, and who, in general, feel that sexuality is sinful and a work of the devil. There are groups out there that are like that.
And let’s say this second young person grew up in such a very restrictive environment, and then, at the age of puberty, rebelled against the whole thing, ran away from home, and took up with a man. A man, say, picked him up on the road; this man offered safety and security … a chance to stay alive, and so forth … but asked and demanded sexual favors and inflicted sexual abuse.
Let’s say that this second young person, in his first ever romantic relationship, became head-over-heels infatuated with the man. Then, when that person grew tired of the child, the child thought to offer him the supreme gesture of cutting off their own sexual organ (along the lines of the religious training his parents had given him). And let’s suppose that that did not work … that did not ingratiate the young man with the older man again. The man just bowled them over and let them go.
Tendencies that Might Arise Because of the Second Young Man’s Early Soul Wounding
- This second young man might have a tendency to form romantic relationships with men (thus reliving his early childhood Soul wounding),
- He might feel extra sensitive to criticism from both men and women (because of his concerns about his genitals being different from those of other men)
- This extra-sensitivity to criticism might lead to formation of vendetta or blood feud lists of people to be persecuted through astral rape, or through stalking by himself or his lovers
- If his choice of sexual partners were to be men, this extra-sensitivity might lead more specifically to persecution of women through rape and/or murder scenarios on the astral and physical plane and a feeling of misogyny
- When having sexual relations, he might experience pain because of the physical wounding his genital cells had sustained and,
- He might act this out either masochistically (as a reliving of the early trauma)
- Or sadistically (as psychological projection of the early karma onto another person)
- And he might be attracted to a spiritual group that espoused sexual repression (according to the teaching of his youth)
- This, then, would set up an overall dynamic of a sexually repressed lifestyle, with intermittent experiences of sexuality associated with denser emotions experienced in his early childhood
Positing the Two Soul-Wounded Young People Meeting in a Group Setting
Let’s posit, as a hypothesis, that these two young people, who had both been subject to extremely difficult Soul wounding situations in youth, met in one group or organization. Let’s posit these two spiritual people continued for a long time in the group, and were greatly valued and respected by the group because of their many great talents, and because of their devotion to the ideals of the group, and in spite of the early Soul wounding they had sustained.
Projection of Early Soul Wounding as an Experiment on Others in an Attempt to ‘Uncolor’ the Remembered Trauma
One thing that we might anticipate from their association in this group, would have to do with their shared early Soul wounding to do with genital mutilation. For instance, they might think nothing of performing an experiment with people considered by the general public to be dispensable, unneeded, and unwanted (as they, themselves, had felt when the early childhood Soul wounding occurred), an experiment involving cutting off their sexual organs (as theirs had been cut off in youth) and converting these people, through cosmetic surgery, to a notion of being women. Which might be idealized by these two people, and by others in that group, as kindly, loving men (that is, the kind of men they wished that their fathers might have been).
With a lack of understanding of the basic physiology concerned, and of the importance of orgasm in creating physical and mental health, they might arrange to have performed operations in which men of violent propensities would no longer be capable of having orgasms.
Consequently, when these men who had been experimented on, and who now looked like women, felt sexual, they would … with that ‘crossed wires’ feeling that occurs at a moment of great physical and psychological trauma … turn the rage of their body cells, which had been mutilated, into the act of killing other people.
They might, for instance, assist in killing people who were potential donors for that group (as a playing out of the group samskara, “Oh God, I want your money!”), or other people they had been hired out to kill by that group.
First-Tier and Second-Tier Soul Wounding and Karmic Pass-Down, with Acting Out of Rage by the Second Tier
What we have here is a very densely wounded clearing that is taking place, not only of these people who were initially wounded, but also of the people on the second tier, whom they wound because of their own Soul wounding.
So there is a first and second tier here. There is also a first and second tier in terms of karmic pass-down in the duality play. For instance, these two people on the first tier, or even the whole group, might have associated Soul wounding. And interspersed amongst them might be the same malspeak, because, in associating with groups, we catch each other’s malware and malspeak as if it were an infection, like the flu. So the members of the group might share a number of malware and malspeak programs, and act in unison, in an unconscious way, without actually knowing, to express their Soul wounding … which, fortunately, is now clearing.
One thing that they might express has to do with rage held into the sexual organs because of those initial, childhood occurrences that damaged the physical cells. So when it happens that they express themselves sexually with other people, though they themselves might never participate in an act of violence … and I have seen this, on the astral plane, any number of times, in any number of situations … through sharing of the malware and the malspeak that they have, to do with rage over that area of the body, they infect the second tier of people with that emotion.
And that second tier, let’s say, who may be less in control of their actions, goes out and acts out the fantasies of the first tier, by way of killing women or children, for instance, or mutilating people.
My Thoughts on Ways to Avoid Acting Out Soul Wounding
My feeling is that, when engaged in sexual activities, people ought to seek out, others of the same or similar astral matter density. And what that will result in is less acting out during this time of great change.
Also, the understanding that the body is the sacred temple of grace of God will help us to avoid storing negative emotions in the body. All of the body is good and great, I feel. And understanding that allows us to dispense with this type of malware and malspeak that holds rage and fear and so forth in the body.
In love, light and joy,
I Am of the Stars
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