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The Great Void and Me . compiled by Alice B. Clagett

Written and published on 29 December 2017


Dear Ones,

Here are gleanings from my reading on the Great Void, as well as some of my own thoughts on the topic …


Image: Hubble Space Telescope Image: nebula IRAS 05437+2502 … https://cdn.spacetelescope.org/archives/images/large/potw1008a.jpg … COMMENT: Here are the Hubblesite terms of use … https://hubblesite.org/copyright ..

Image: Hubble Space Telescope Image: nebula IRAS 05437+2502 … https://cdn.spacetelescope.org/archives/images/large/potw1008a.jpg … COMMENT: Here are the Hubblesite terms of use … https://hubblesite.org/copyright ..

In “Creating Affluence,” Deepak Chopra describes how material things are composed of atoms, and atoms are composed of subatomic particles, and how these are but energetic changes in a huge field in which information and energy are at play. He then characterizes information and energy at play as thought … which would presuppose intelligence. Thus we might conclude that we and all things physical are all but thoughts in the mind of God …

Citation: “Creating Affluence: The A-to-Z Steps to a Richer Life Paperback” a book by Deepak Chopra, copyright 1993.

Chinese Buddhism terms the Great Void as non-obstructive. Matter has form, and thus is obstructive. The Great Void is like a foundation upon which matter can be at play …

Link: “Teachings in Chinese Buddhism: (6) Sunyata (Emptiness) in the Mahayana Context,” by Buddha.net …. http://www.buddhanet.net/cbp2_f6.htm ..

A person named Huangbo Xiyun had a thought that the reason people have chatterbox minds is that the fear their minds will be engulfed by the Great Void. What they do not realize, Huangbo Xiyun said, is that it is a person’s mind is the Great Void.


Image: Interacting Galaxies Arp 273, by NASA, ESA, and the Hubble Heritage Team (STScl/AURA)), 17 December 2010 …  http://hubblesite.org/newscenter/archive/releases/2011/11/image/a/ (direct link) http://www.spacetelescope.org/images/heic1107a/ … in Wikipedia … https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Arp_273#/media/File:UGC_1810_and_UGC_1813_in_Arp_273_(captured_by_the_Hubble_Space_Telescope).jpg … public domain … COMMENT: Here are the Hubblesite terms of use … https://hubblesite.org/copyright ..

Image: Interacting Galaxies Arp 273, by NASA, ESA, and the Hubble Heritage Team (STScl/AURA)), 17 December 2010 …  http://hubblesite.org/newscenter/archive/releases/2011/11/image/a/ (direct linkhttp://www.spacetelescope.org/images/heic1107a/ … in Wikipedia … https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Arp_273#/media/File:UGC_1810_and_UGC_1813_in_Arp_273_(captured_by_the_Hubble_Space_Telescope).jpg … public domain … COMMENT: Here are the Hubblesite terms of use … https://hubblesite.org/copyright ..

Deepak Chopra predicts that humankind will begin to experience its connection to the quantum field through awareness. Then we will begin to experience healing through thought, telepathy and clairvoyance. He sees a re-emergence of wisdom, an escape from the prison of the senses …

Link: “Seeing What You Believe, Believing What You See” by Deepak Chopra, in Forbes … https://www.forbes.com/2006/04/15/deepak-chopra-reality_cx_dc_06slate_0418chopra.html#527412ed9871 ..


Image: Black hand with wedding ring holding white infant hand …  https://awakeningwithplanetearth.com/wp-content/uploads/2017/12/76a64-bebc3aa-pai.jpg … COMMENT: This reminds me of how invisible intelligence nurtures matter.

In “The Seven Spiritual Laws of Success,” Deepak Chopra describes the foundation of creation as consciousness or potentiality. He explains that, if we align with that potentiality through which all things manifest, if we understand that our true Self is that, then we step into our true power as human beings …

Citation: “The Seven Spiritual Laws of Success,” by Deepak Chopra, New World Library, copyright1994.

Link: “The Basics of Quantum Healing” by Deepak Chopra, in “Ascension Research Center” … http://www.ascension-research.org/reality.html ..

In “Ageless Body, Timeless Mind,” Deepak Chopra speaks of the ‘invisible intelligence’ that forms the fundament of the visible, material world. He speaks of the empty space, or Void, inside atoms as comprising this invisible intelligence.

It is this intelligence that organizes the human body and keeps it healthy. The flow of this intelligent energy is termed Prana … or ‘life force’. Through pranayam … the ancient Indian practices of prolonging or withholding or slowing the breath … we can direct this energy to heal and rejuvenate the body …

Citation: “Ageless Body, Timeless Mind,” by Deepak Chopra, Three Rivers Press, 1993

Link: “Deepak Chopra: Ancient Wisdom and Quantum Magic,” by Doug Ecklund … http://www.logosresourcepages.org/NewAge/deepak.htm ..

The Great Void is not just what we greet when we pass on from this physical life. Quite the contrary! The Great Void is all around every moment we’re alive. It’s the prana in air, too … the life energy that enters our lungs when we breathe, circulates through our cells, and keeps our physical body functioning.

But the physical body, which seems so solid, is almost completely made up of the same Great Void that surrounds us. So, the great saints could nourish their bodies directly with the prana in air … without breathing. According to them, all it took was recognizing that prana is available everywhere. Even at the moment of death. Especially then!

So if we notice how the Great Void is keeping us alive, sustaining our bodies and nourishing our Spirits right now, and in every moment, how are we going to be frightened of that same sustaining, uplifting and nourishing force at the moment of death? Not possible! But the trick is … how to notice it right now?

In love, light and joy,
I Am of the Stars


Link: “Point of Uncertainty – Zero Point – Void Region,” compiled by Alice B. Clagett, published on 11 May 2014; revised … https://wp.me/p2Rkym-8aH ..

Link: “Mind-Soul Event Horizon,” compiled by Alice B. Clagett, published on 11 May 2014, revised … https://wp.me/p2Rkym-8aE ..


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Developing Skills for Navigating the Astral Plane . by Alice B. Clagett

Written and published on 10 July 2015

Dear Ones,

In an Ascension context, we are now expanding our Awareness into a second ‘dimension’, the astral realm, while retaining physical form here on Earth. Using the terms of the School of Theosophy, we are expanding our Awareness to include two planes of being. These are the material plane and the astral plane, kamaloka. Which is why an understanding of the astral plane is pertinent.

We may clair see this realm, or clair hear it, or clair sense it in some other way, no matter. When we begin to experience the astral plane, with any of our clair senses, why that is the time to study up on the astral plane. Because we must deal with the astral phenomena as we further expand our Awareness into another dimension. This higher dimension is known as ‘the fifth dimension’ in an Ascension context. I gather from my reading on the School of Theosophy’s teachings that it may be known as ‘devachan’, the ‘heaven worlds’, or the ‘higher mental plane’ in that context.

I have seen schemas of the planes of being (1) that indicate the causal plane lies above the astral plane and the lower mental plane, and below the higher mental plane. For instance, in this image, “Diagram XXV. The Cycle of Rebirth,” the astral plane is shown below the lower mental plane, and presumably below the higher mental plane …

Image: “Diagram XXV. The Cycle of Rebirth” … http://hpb.narod.ru/Images/causal147.gif ..

In an Ascension context we speak of ‘transcending time and space’, stepping into the eternal Now in the fifth dimension. Since it is the causal plane that binds us to the law of cause and effect, I am guessing that we must also somehow overcome this hurdle of causality before experiencing the synchronicity of the Now.

How this may transpire, I do not know. Is the causal plane the void of which Tom Kenyon and Sandra Walter speak? Or is the void on just the ‘other side’ of the causal plane? That is something yet to be discovered.

Meantime, to my lights, the task at hand is to purify the emotions, so that my astral body will be free to experience any of the astral subplanes at will. I found a good quote from Arthur E. Powell’s chapter “Mastering the Emotions” from his book “The Astral Body and Other Phenomena,” but to preserve their copyright I must provide the reference rather than including the quotation. I hope this will not deter the reader from looking up the passage …

Citation: “The Astral Body and Other Astral Phenomena,” compiled by Arthur E. Powell, published 1927, Quest Book edition 1973, copyright The Theosophical Publishing House, London, Ltd. 1965 … “Chapter XXV: The Mastery of Emotion,” page 221, third full paragraph (beginning “It is obvious …”) to the end of page 221 (ending “… and to Initiation”).

In love, light and joy,
I Am of the Stars


(1) There are many variants on this theme. See, for instance …

Link: “An Historic Dig into the Planes of Existence,” http://savevsdragon.blogspot.com/2014/07/an-historical-dig-into-planes-of.html ..

In the “Planes of Nature” chart on that page, the “mental plane” is said to include the mental body and the causal body.


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5D Skill Sets: Rewriting History, Jumping Timelines, Merging Dimensions . by Alice B. Clagett

Filmed on 20 June 2015; published on 27 June 2015; transcribed on 12 November 2018
Previously titled: 5D Skillsets: Rewriting History, Jumping Timelines, Merging Dimensions

    • 2015 Summer Solstice
    • My Daily Life Compared to My Shadow Aspects, and Those of Others
    • Recommendation: Peggy Black on Re-Writing News Headlines
    • Forgiveness of Others is Forgiveness of Ourselves as Well
    • Our Hologram, and the Void, in Relation to Rewriting History, and Switching and Merging Timelines and Dimensions
    • Activation of Light: Optimize Timelines and Dimensions, by the Hathors, through Alice B. Clagett
    • What Happens When I Use This Activation of Light
    • Recommendation: Sandra Walter and the Creator Breath

Dear Ones,

Here is a video on developing fifth dimensional skill sets: rewriting history, jumping timelines, merging dimensions and timelines. Transforming our shadow aspects. How ‘astral stories’ help us learn to co-create reality. Also: The hologram. Causality and synchronicity.

There is an edited Summary after the video …



Hello, Dear Ones, It’s Alice.

I have a little to say about rewriting history and jumping timelines and merging dimensions and timelines and so forth …

2015 Summer Solstice

Wow, look at the sunlight! It is almost Summer Solstice; tomorrow is Solstice Day. So I am getting what you might call my dirt time … or my pine needle time … today, because the sunlight is just so incredible that I am doing my best to absorb as much of the atmosphere as I can, today and tomorrow.

My Daily Life Compared to My Shadow Aspects, and Those of Others

I thought I would go over my own shadow aspects … which generally I do not recognize, except on the psychic plane people tell me about them. I am a very quiet person, peaceful; I do not think much. I go walking in nature. I do not care much about politics or headlines. I never watch television … ‘though I do love to play Mexican Train Dominoes with my friends, and to go to church, and like that.

Not by choice, but due to life circumstances, I lead a very quiet, meditative, ‘loner’ lifestyle. But on the astral plane: I hear people say the exact opposite about me. They say that I am always talking; they say that I cannot be quiet. They say my mind is very restless. They say I am an alluring woman who is leading men astray.

And I say back to them: Are you sure you have the right person? Because it does not make sense to me! [laughs] The funny thing is, I have the same kind of thing to say about them. They might be the same kind of person as I am, but I am hearing all these scenarios … these incredible scenarios from them about war, and craziness … when in fact they may be a very loving person, I am hearing that they are all about hatred … things like that; the exact opposite of the way they are.

But would they ever believe that, if I were to tell them? Uh-uh. Not a chance! You know? These are the polarities that we have to merge.

Recommendation: Peggy Black on Re-Writing News Headlines

So when we see the news headlines … Peggy Black, Sacred Sound Salutarist … https://www.peggyblack.com/… talks about ‘doing the headlines’ … She does a meditation on the headlines every morning, and she changes the world outlook on the headlines from something negative to something extremely positive.

And in that way she is rewriting the whole world, right? She is owning the headlines; she is a pacifist who is rewriting war. She is a person who is rewriting all the scarcity she sees in the newspaper and in the headlines; rewriting it into a world of abundance, and so on.

She is taking what she sees in the world as ‘other’ … which is, in fact, her own Shadow side, and transforming it in that way … which is a wonderful way to do it.

Forgiveness of Others is Forgiveness of Ourselves as Well

So we may see people that represent these qualities that are actually our own Shadow side. And we may choose to forgive and completely absolve and love them. And what we will really be doing is forgiving, completely absolving, and loving ourselves.

Our Hologram, and the Void, in Relation to Rewriting History, and Switching and Merging Timelines and Dimensions

And the reason for this is, that all that we see … out to a space of about 9 feet out, all around us … This is our hologram. We exist in a Void … a complete Void … a Void in which we create what is in our hologram.

We are the co-creator Gods of the Universe; we create what is in our hologram. So we perceive something as ‘other’ … which, in fact, is an impossibility. That which we perceive is really ourselves, creating this Play.

So that is why it is completely easy, when we are hearing these astral stories going on and on, spinning off in our minds … It is very easy to rewrite all that history. And to switch timelines. And to switch dimensions. And to merge everything … It is because it is all ours; all ours completely. It is completely up to us to erase and rewrite and do what we want.

And that includes all the people that we hear too, because we are creating them, through Free Will, for the All.

So the astral stories are going along at a quick clip, right now. And every time that they get very scary or very ‘not me’ … into the Shadow side … I just say …

Activation of Light: Optimize Timelines and Dimensions
by the Hathors, through Alice B. Clagett

Spirit to Team!
Optimize Timelines and Dimensions!
For the All, through Free Will!

What Happens When I Use This Activation of Light

And this is the thing that convinces us … it convinced me, anyway! … It convinced me that this is just a hologram, because the minute I do that, the whole astral kaleidoscope … the whole astral story changes completely, as if it never existed.

So these astral stories that are unfolding and spinning off right now, they have to do with our Soul wounding, and our Shadow side, and accepting them completely into us. And they are being very ingeniously arranged by God … through the deftness of the hand of God.

The deftness of the hand of God is allowing us to see the Shadow side of ourselves, so that we may incorporate it, you see?

So there is that: Rewriting history just like that! … I rewrite that history; none of that astral story needs to happen. I rewrite that physical story that happened to me; that past never happened. And this is what happened.

I jump to the future! I become that future, universally loving being of Light! And I jump back into the present time, in that form!

We can do what we want! This is our hologram. It is completely empty! It is like on Startrek … the completely empty hologram, waiting for us to fill it with the experiences we wish to create through our God nature.

As to how it could be that other people’s holograms relate to our own and co-create, with us, the reality that all we hu-man (1) beings experience, I do not know how that is. I do not know how that synchronous reality happens; except to say that the grace of God, and the deftness of the hand of God are marvelous … incredible.

Recommendation: Sandra Walter and the Creator Breath

And one other thing: I found out the other day that the Creator Breath that Sandra Walter recommends, is an incredible help with merging all the timelines and dimensions into the one Now and the one present. I will try to find her description of that Creator Breath for you, separately; but I will explain it a little bit right now: You put your arms out, to each side of you, at the height of your shoulders. And then you inhale completely and bring both hands into your heart … A really big, strong inhale; and bring those hands into your heart.

As you inhale, you are inhaling all your timelines and dimensions and astral experiences … all the different rewrites of history that have been happening to you that day … and you bring them all in and merge them in the Nowness of your heart … in Source, there, inside your heart. And keep holding the breath in until you feel the strong warmth of that merge, emerging from your heart and crystallizing and changing your whole body structure. It is an incredible experience. Try to keep holding your breath in for as long as you possibly can, and then some, all right? And then when you are ready to exhale, you bring your arms back out, in a great sweeping arc … back out as far as they can go. And exhale out your New Creation.

Anyway, that is how I do it, because of what she says. And I do that many times during the day.

This is the thing: My mind is not fully trained yet, because my heart energy is not fully open to all the dimensions. So, escaping from the subconscious context, and the unconscious context, during the day, are astral creations that I do not really intend to create … like these stories that I begin to hear, that the mind fabricates, based on old Soul wounding, without my absolute say-so, right?

All these things are circulating in my hologram, even though I change things and rewrite things. I may have a million rewrites circulating in my hologram in one day … or at least a few! So the Creator Breath takes everything from within my hologram … pulls it in, into my heart, into Source itself. And then, holding the breath in, for a little bit longer than is comfortable, changes the metabolism of the body, and completely changes the hologram: The Golden Light of the hologram comes out.

And then, as you exhale out, you exhale out that Golden Light … that beautiful Soul creation.

Here is a far better description of Creator Breath that Sandra Walter has given …

Video: “Ascension Path Meditation: Divine Neutrality,” by Ascension Path with Sandra Walter …  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DXxnX4xWg8A ..


Well, take care!

In love, light and joy,
I Am of the Stars


(1) In Sufism the word ‘Hu’ means ‘God’. Per Sandra Walter of Ascension Path … https://sandrawalter.com/ ‘Hu-man’ might thus be thought of as meaning ‘God-man’.


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Mystery RIFF: Out of the Fog and Out of the Box . by Alice B. Clagett

Written and published on 2 June 2015; revised
Previously entitled: “RIFF: Out of the Fog and Out of the Box”


Dear Ones,


Image: A man in a white shirt, looking through a translucent window. His hands are on the glass … http://i.telegraph.co.uk/multimedia/archive/01082/health-graphics-20_1082173a.jpg ..

I was just there! Then I proclaimed:
My mind to the Mind of God!

My gosh, this has been happening over and over again!
Dark night of the Soul! Déjà vu!
Then, the flash of illumination!


Image: Young man wearing a business suit and tie, bent over in a cramped white cube … http://l7.alamy.com/zooms/489b20c7624647a790b602418c94c683/businessman-in-the-cramped-white-cube-a5df1k.jpg ..

I really dislike wearing suits!
And mental boxes!
And 9 to 5!
I’m changing to a more spacious box!
Or maybe NO box! Yeah, the Void!


Image: A person in a museum, watching light dancing on a wall … BROKEN LINK

My hologram!
What will I view today?!


Video: “Reservoir by Broken Box Mime Theatre. 29 August 2012 … https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0HLoN3sst_A ..

Why mope, my dear personality?
Just switch timelines, my gosh!

. . . . .

In love, light and joy,
I Am of the Stars


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Dark Night of the Soul . Slave Planet Blues! . by Alice B. Clagett

Filmed on 2 June 2015; revised 9 July 2017; transcribed on 15 November 2018
I have added comments on Martian bacterial colonists of the human ‘space station’ (the human body)

    • The Societal Expectations Mental Filter
    • Judgment and Blame, Unconditional Love, Sexual Taboos, the Veil, and Our Infinite Co-Creative Potential
    • Vision by Alice: Slave Planet Blues
    • Dark Night of the Soul and Martian Bacterial Colonists of the Human Colon
    • Faith in God
    • The Healing Presence of Beings of Light
    • Conclusion
    • Postscript 1: Sublime-ation of Darkness
    • Postscript 2: Vocational Skills and Soul Skills
      • Stories by Alice: Job Hunting and Skill Sets
      • Dark Night of the Soul and the Skills of Letting Go, of Surrender, and of Faith
      • Free Will and Divine Intervention

Dear Ones,

This is about a Dark Night of the Soul experience regarding blame, judgment, and ostracism. The dynamic of Ego, societal expectations, and our co-creative power. Letting go, surrender. facing the void, nothingness, not knowingness. Developing the skills of personal transformation, sublimation, and faith in God.

I listened to Judy Satori’s 27 May 2015 show “Beyond Healing” (5pm PT) on Bob Charles’ Pyramid One Network. On the show, Judy Satori mentioned that in the last few weeks we had been experiencing the energy of the Aldebaran Stargate, which is the energy of New Beginnings, of Soul clearing, and of unusual weather changes on Earth. I feel it is possible that the Aldebaran Stargate energy may have had something to do with the content of the video.

After the Video is a heavily edited Summary of the video.



Hello, Dear Ones, It’s Alice.

I have been doing Judy Satori’shttps://www.ascensionlibrary.org/Kuan Yin (Quan Yin) activations of Light for close to a week now. I have been concentrating on major blocks to the heart chakra. There are so many things that I am interested in; but I thought the heart is the center of everything … So if I cannot decide where to start, that would be the place to start. So that is what I did.

In the evening, I have been doing this meditation … drinking a lot of water, and then the transformation process happens. The easy stuff happened at the beginning, you know? The delightful stuff. Then it started getting down towards the really difficult stuff. And no doubt there will be more of it.

So, just to give you an idea about yesterday: Yesterday was very commotional: From the point of view of my emotional body, I felt sad all day long. And there was no particular reason for it. Overwhelming sadness … grief …  from the seat of my Soul and from my high heart.

I can remember blaming a lot of people for it, with no particular cause involved; I just felt like blaming people in my mind, you know? And yet, the energy was welling up, and out, and there was no cause; there was no reason.

So then last night, things had gone so tumultuously all day long that I thought: Gosh, I will not do that activation of Light tonight! … When the emotional body gets all upset, it feels like the end of the world; it really does. And so I thought: I just cannot take one more night of activations of Light!

I was in such a state, when I went to bed, that I had a vision: I sat up, and I was doing a meditation, and I had a vision, which I am going to tell you about …

The Societal Expectations Mental Filter

A little background here: Lately, in the last month, I have been dealing with a nexus … a mental filter … the societal expectations mental filter … that involves …

  • The ego … which is my mode of interacting with this reality;
  • Societal expectations … upon which the ego depends for interaction with reality, and for its definition of itself; and
  • The unlimited co-creative power of humankind, which is my birthright, and which, in my current reality, is not manifested, or appears not to be manifested for anyone in this world. (But I will grant you that the hologram that I see, is only my own.)

What has been coming up, in the clairaudient realm, has been the demands of society … the demands that I not speak my truth; that I not live the mission of my Soul … the demands that I not feel my heart energy … over and over again.

Judgment and Blame, Unconditional Love, Sexual Taboos, the Veil, and Our Infinite Co-Creative Potential

The other thing that I kept running across, was being blamed for things, over and over again. It felt like other people were judging me, and blaming me. Whoever I thought of … any person that I thought of … it felt like what I was receiving were thoughts of my own personal limitations: The need for me to ratchet down from unconditional love and from the ability to co-create everything … to ‘fulcrum’ down into a reality that does not recognize that.

For one thing, what I would hear was that I was always forcing people to feel sexual. And that is interesting, because one of the things that we learn, when we start to explore our central vertical power current … what they call kundalini energy: The sushumna, the ida and the pingala (the three channels) … is that we start to sense what they call the pranic column energy … what they call the ‘hara line’ … and we start to master the flow of energy amongst the chakras.

And so for me, the idea of the energy of the second chakra … sexual energy … is part of a whole; part of a whole cascade of energetic responses that allows us to realize our greatness as human beings. I do not have a societal notion about the energy of the second chakra. Instead, I have a notion that that energy is part of my outpouring of creative impulse, as form in the world.

It seems that, for many, that energy is confined to a societal tableau in which one can express only through procreation with a person of opposite gender. And so, people seem to get stuck in that.

And then around that … encapsulating that energy … is a repressive societal energy which pushes that energy down, through the taboos regarding alternate lifestyles. Beyond that Veil formed by repressive energies is the infinite co-creative potential of people.

So first we have to let go the judgment around what we term ‘sexuality’, in order to reach the infinite co-creative potential of humankind. I am not saying that this has to be reflected in behavior. But in our minds, we need to let go the cage of that thinking … that societal expectation. This is the core of my blogs regarding sacred sexuality. (See my blog category: Sacred sexuality ). And it has to do with the vision that I had last night.

Vision by Alice: Slave Planet Blues

As I recall, the vision went like this … It is somewhat more involved, because the mind does tend to make fantasies that are very involved. … And so, the vision was something like this: I imagined that I was in an alternate world where there was no free will. And I … no surprise! … imagined that I was being judged by a tribunal of people who all said that I had no Soul, and that I was a bioengineered, human-looking program that was intended to destroy the entire world!

Now that is judgment! And that is a world where every being can experience the third chakra negative, bigtime: Power over, powerlessness … a Slave Planet. And the theory was that I had been bioengineered … nightmare, right? [laughs] …  I had been bioengineered to take humans off-planet … to a Slave Planet … where they would not be able to ascend. And that millions of people had been transported, through me, off-world, for that reason … Let’s see; how did it go? … Oh, yes …

And that I was not really the person who commanded this space station. The commander of this space station was talking to me, and claiming that he was the one that was supposed to have control. But I … a bioengineered product … had somehow cottoned to the notion that there is free will, and stepped out … of my own accord … into a notion that I could control my own destiny. Totally scary stuff! [laughs]

So, here were all the beings that I could hear, on the clair plane … agreeing that I was some aberrant servomechanism [‘servo’ means ‘slave’] that refused to serve [laughs] …

I can feel my gut brain talking right now. This is what my gut brain is saying: I am a servant … or something or other … The food that comes in, I have to digest. I have to do what the unconscious thought cloud of the world bombards me with. I have to think those thoughts all day long

This is the neurons in the gut that they have discovered, right? Adam Hadhazy and his story …

Link: “Think Twice: How the Gut’s ‘Second Brain’ Influences Mood and Wellbeing,”  in “Scientific American,” 12 February 2010, by Adam Hadhazy … https://www.scientificamerican.com/article/gut-second-brain/ ..

And so the neurons in the gut are creating this vision of a Slave Planet that I have created, and that I have transported all my friends and relatives, and a lot of strangers too, and caused their total destruction. And that there is no hope of escape, because somebody or other has stolen my Soul, and damaged it to such an extent that it cannot be used.


Dark Night of the Soul and Martian Bacterial Colonists of the Human Colon

On second glance, in November 2016, it seems to me that this vision may have to do with the social memory complex of the bacteria (Martian bacteria) colonizing my gut …

Link: “Compendium of the Martian Archives: Bacterial Colonists of Earth.” by Alice B. Clagett, 9 July 2017, updated, https://wp.me/p2Rkym-7sz ..

This social memory would no doubt be Martian-species-centric.

  • Suppose, for instance, that Martian bacteria set up ‘space stations’ in individual human bodies when Mars became uninhabitable.
  • Suppose they feel they have Souls and humans do not (just as humans feel they have Souls and bacteria do not).
  • That humans exist to serve them.
  • That we are machines that have gone awry during the recently concluded Age of Darkness, exercising free will in ways that are detrimental to our physical functioning, and
  • That we are causing Martian genocide through our eliminative processes.

Surely there are a large contingent of helpful or biologically neutral bacteria in our bodies. Suppose there are ‘good’ Martian bacteria in our gut that are for a co-operative experience of reality … who believe, for instance, in a human-Martian coalition in which the ‘space station’ of the human body is run by committee, and might agree that Martian colonists (bacteria) be bioengineered to help the human body function properly, or bottomline, to coexist in it without harming it?

Suppose there are radical, warlike ‘bad’ Martian bacteria who believe humans exercising free will ought to be eliminated, and only docile, subservient humans ought to be kept alive. Oh gosh … could this radical contingent be bioengineering deadlier bacteria, for instance? Or harmful viruses?


Faith in God

So there I am, in the midst of this nightmare, and I am actually in the middle of a meditation … so it is like a vision. I remembered the prayer of Saint Frances, where Saint Francis says he wants to align with God …

Link: “Prayer of Saint Francis,” in Wikipedia, https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Prayer_of_Saint_Francis ..

If we could just align our will with God, our purpose with God, in every moment … And I thought: If ever there was a moment, this is the moment to align my will with God, and let God take care of everything … you know? … And to take all my co-creative power, of which they say I have quite a bit … and which they say has been totally misused …

And how am I to know the truth of this situation? Perhaps I have no Soul! Perhaps I am wrong about everything! Perhaps everything I have ever said or judged or done … every decision I have ever made … has been against the Will of God. Who am I to know this? I am not God. Right?

But even if I am a faulty being, that has no reflection as God consciousness, nevertheless there is a role for me in Creation. And God will know this role. That is what I thought: God will know this role.

And this is what I told them: I will place my faith in God.

Their whole gig was: What do you want? What do you decide? … You know? Will you let these people go?

And that was the first thing that I did; I said: I will let these people go, that have been ill influenced by my decisions which were not in alignment with that of the Creator of All … of God … of Source. I will let them all go; let them no longer be enslaved.

That was the first thing. And that not only frees them, but it frees my karma … if a person with no Soul could be said to have no karma.

So then the second thing is: Whatever it is that I am … this faulty servo-mechanism; this ego that forgets the true nature of reality, that forgets that God is All … whatever that is that I am, I align that with God. And I ask Source … I ask God … to decide that for me, the disposition of that which I am.

The Healing Presence of Beings of Light

And so then there was quite a commotion. I was tired, so I just wanted to rest then. So, I reclined, to rest. And what I felt was Beings of Light all around me, making changes in my aura. And they said: Well, what can we do about all this? She has appealed to God …

And I also appeal to the laws of this Universe … not just the laws of this solar system, or the laws of this galaxy … But I said: Let the laws of this Universe be blended … like a flower blooms … with the laws of this particular small part of All that is.

The Beings of Light came in, and they said: Well, the best that we can do … since you are a ‘free-standing’ person … without a group … and you believe only in God, and in aligning with God’s will … we are going to have to put you on your own alternate world, all by yourself. There will be no more sentient beings there. It is just going to be you.

And they tried all these things like … The control beings would be saying something like: And you may not live till tomorrow … like that. And I said: God’s will! … It is completely up to God. And then they said: And you have no Soul; so you have no afterlife. So I said: God’s will! So what? [laughs]

And all this time … I am thinking in retrospect … really, they were talking to my ego, not to my Soul.

And so, I gave up on everything … all my preconceptions about how things are, and so forth. I was lying down, and Beings of Light were working on me, and explaining things to me.

From this I gather, that in this alternate world where I am right now … if you consider that just as a working mental filter … I am that which is Gaia, as well as that which seems to be this being. [i.e., Alice] All the history of Gaia is within these energetic bodies and this physical form that I am. And I am that transport system … as is each of us human beings. I am that transport system that allows all beings to go and experience God, and everything that is close to God, in the higher dimensions.

I am not so different from everyone else; but many people are just not there yet. They are not at that place where they want to experience the world of all possibilities: They are just not there.

So in the meantime, I am safely on an alternate world where there are no sentient beings with whom I need interact; and where there is direct communication with Source. (That solitary planet thing just lasted till the following morning’s church service!)

All’s well that ends well, in the nightmare department. [laughs] And then, until the next thing comes up … and the next Dark Night of the Soul is resolved, I am very happy to say that I am at a point where I can just be who I am, for a little while, and look forward, with great joy, for the next chance to jump into the Void.


Now I gather from this that these types of visions … which I have had a time or two in the past … are a very creative attempt, by the Hand of God, to allow me to integrate the deep emotions of the unconscious mind, and of the unconscious Collective Mind, with the outpouring created through the three heart centers, so that humankind … and so that I … can impulse onward, into the regenerative stage of this great Planet, and this great Galaxy, and this great Universe.

So the vividness … the depth of fear … the depths of not-knowingness that we encounter in what might be termed the ‘Dark Night of the Soul’ are the springboards from which we can leap into deeper faith, and deeper co-creative ability, aligned with the Will of God. This is the Void of which many have spoken recently. (Mystic scholar Mirabai Starr … http://mirabaistarr.com/ … was also speaking on this topic in the May 2015 “Spring on Maui” retreat with RamDass and others.}

The Void is the Dark Night of the Soul, and letting go … surrender … to Divine guidance. That step into nothingness … that step into nothingness … is the beginning of our mastery. It is the tool with which we need to become familiar, in order to achieve this co-creative skill.

At first … the very first few times … it is very scary. But as time goes on, and as faith deepens, we can become adepts at this; I am certain of it. All humankind will do so.

So for now: Talk to you later. Love you lots.

Postscript 1: Sublime-ation of Darkness

I would just like to add a little postscript. In a situation like this, which, as I mentioned, has come up before, what seems like a terrible nightmare, that ends in a way that is unexpected, and like that … what seems like a terrible experience of subconscious energies … To me it seems like what is really taking place is an upwelling of Darkness … an upwelling of incomplete understanding of the way things are … from the Collective Subconscious of humankind … from the Unconscious Thought Cloud of the World … which is always connected with my own lower chakras.

So what is happening is a clearing … a clearing, for me, of those energies … and I would say, for all those that wish to be involved in this transformative process … but not a clearing for those who do not wish to be.

So there is no element of control here, or of power over … but merely a conscious bringing-up of a bolus of subconscious, very Dark, deep, dense subconscious energies, which comes up the spinal column … Through the heart chakras it is transformed … and into the higher chakras. Through the indigo, way high up, is transformed into something totally different; not just for me, but for all those other beings who are participating in the process and who wish for transformation.

And so what appears to be a nightmare, is really a process of … they call it, in psychology, ‘sublimation’ … I call it ‘sublime-ation’ … the changing into the superconscious mind, of these things: Total transformation.

Postscript 2: Vocational Skills and Soul Skills

Stories by Alice: Job Hunting and Skill Sets. In the many years I used to work for a living, before my happy retirement, I undertook many, very varied jobs, until I reached a point where I started saving for retirement, and I went on staff in the University of California system, in the lowly position of Administrative Assistant.

But for all the prior years, I had had all different sorts of jobs. And the question, when you switch from one job to the next, is: How do you phrase your resume? How do you persuade your next employer that you have experience about something? And, from books about resume-writing, the thing that I learned is this …

The thing that I carry forward from one job to the next job is not so much the details or facts of the work that I do, but the set of skills that I acquire along the way. So every time I was job hunting, I would look at the skills I had acquired in past jobs, and then look at the notice for the new job I was interested in, to see if I had the skills that would be needed. If so, then I would submit a resume that included those skill sets which had been learned in each prior occupation. And it was a very successful technique, I would say. By thinking of skills rather than the factual content of the jobs I had been doing, I would have no trouble getting future jobs, even if they were not in my previous experience.

It is a wonderful thing to think of: the skills, rather than the factual content of what we are doing.

Dark Night of the Soul and the Skills of Letting Go, of Surrender, and of Faith. And how does that apply to the current nightmare scenario resolution? … the ‘sublime-ation’ process? Well, I am looking at last night, and what I see … the main thing that springs out … is the development of letting go, and surrender, and faith in the unknown … in a situation of Dark Night of the Soul, to have that faith that carries us through.

And last night was a chance to practice that. And how can we practice that, unless  what we experience contradicts the very fundament of our faith … the idea that we have a Soul … the idea that we live in a caring Universe.

When all those things are called in question, what still remains? That faith … that faith in God carries us through these experiences of death and near death, death of the ego, and so forth. Only that faith can do it; only that faith.

So last night was a chance to practice my faith skill.

Free Will and Divine Intervention. The other thing I learned, is that where the mental mind cannot resolve an issue, where it seems there is no way out, no way of creating agreement amongst peoples, that God always finds a way to allow free will to express itself. That God will always find a way. So that was the second thing: Not only that I can develop faith, but also that there will be a solution through God.

So in those terms … in terms of the developing skill set, and the ongoing possibilities … I think last night was a wonderful success … a trying situation, a difficult day, and the outcome was really wonderful.

In love, light and joy,
I Am of the Stars


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For information on quieting the vital body, see …

Link: “Chapter 6. Quieting the Vital,” in “Sri Aurobindo, or the Adventure of Consciousness,” at “Satprem” … https://www.aurobindo.ru/workings/satprem/adventure_of_consciousness_e.htm#019 ..  

For information on the four centers of consciousness, see …

Link: “The Centers of Consciousness,” a subheading in “Sri Aurobindo, or the Adventure of Consciousness”… https://www.aurobindo.ru/workings/satprem/adventure_of_consciousness_e.htm#014 ..

For more on the experience of death as transition to the fifth dimension, see Tom Kenyon’s mp3 “Bridge between the Worlds,” explained here …

Link: “The Fifth Perspective: Transcending Space and Time,” A Hathor Planetary Message through Tom Kenyon … https://tomkenyon.com/the-fifth-perspective-transcending-space-and-time … The link for the mp3 is near the bottom of that webpage.


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Lightworkers and the Void: Recreating the Familiar in the Space of Limitless Possibilities . by Alice B. Clagett

Filmed on 29 May 2015; published on 31 May 2015; revised

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Dear Ones,

This video is about a new mission for Lightworkers, wayshowers, and pathfinders. There is an edited Summary after the video …



Hello, Dear Ones, It’s Alice.

I have been doing some thinking about what might be termed ‘old lightworker’ considerations.  And it goes something like this …

A lot of us have been invested, for many incarnations, in Lightworker, wayshower, pathfinder work. We may have, ingrained in our Souls, a consciousness of uplifting and helping other people.

Some of us are spiritual counselors, or psychological counselors, or healers and artists whose work helps uplift the awareness of humanity.

Here we are, at a turning point in the history of the world. And everything has changed. We humans … Lightworkers and all humans … find ourselves in a space so different that we do not even recognize where we are.

And so, what does our mind do, when it sees nothing familiar? It recreates for us scenarios of what was once familiar.

So, for the Zen Buddhist, whose Lightworker mission is to uplift suffering humanity with compassion … that Zen Buddhist will continue to see … in the current Void, in the current space where all is possible … the possibility that will manifest is a world of suffering, which he can uplift through compassion.

For the person whose job is. say, healing … whether through alternative medicine or through  Western medicine … in this space of the Void, this space of limitless possibilities where we are now, this place where we can co-create any reality that we wish to create … what would such a person create? A reality where there are people to be healed physically.

And for the psychologist and psychoanalyst, who are used to helping people achieve emotional and mental balance, who are used to uplifting humanity in that way … What would their minds create now, in this place of the Void, in this place of all possibilities? They would create a world with many people whom they could assist and uplift emotionally and mentally. Is that not true?

And for the artist, who is used to creating pictures that show the injustices in the world … the things in the world that need to be changed and made more beautiful … That kind of person, who is used to social consciousness … What would they create in the world? They would create pictures of things that are not perfectly beautiful.

It is the same for folks who work for social justice and social change. In this time of New Creation, could those folks envision a world in which there is no need of social change? No … because …

  • The alternative is far too uncomfortable.
  • The alternative is far too transformational.
  • The alternative is full of lack of knowingness, lack of any understanding based on what has gone before.

Is that not so? And so, for the Buddhist, and for the medical doctor, and for the psychologist and psychoanalyst; for the artist, and the worker for social justice … for all Lightworkers, who take whatever path to their own Soul purpose, I ask you to stand aside now. Stand aside from that which has gone before. And experience the sensation of not knowing. The sensation of the unknown. This feeling of the Void that is available to us now.

And from that ground of not knowing, that ground of pure being, let us ask Spirit for the greatest co-creative possibility we can manifest in our lives today.

Not that which has gone before. Not the suffering. Not the lack of physical health. Not the lack of emotional or mental balance. Not the great injustices that were once known in this world. Rather, a new life of harmony for all beings. A new life of balance for planet Earth.

In love, light and joy,
I Am of the Stars

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Loss, the Ego, Enlightenment, the Void, and Co-creation of Reality . by Alice B. Clagett

Filmed on 24 May 2015; published on 8 July 2015; revised and transcribed on 13 November 2015

    • Catastrophic Early Childhood Loss
    • An Example of Catastrophic Early Childhood Loss: Heart Vampire
    • Circle of One: The Sociopath, Psychopath, or Anti-Social Personality
      • Love Relationships: Seeking to Destroy the Other.
      • Iterations of Soul Wounding: Their True Purpose
    • Young Love Amongst Normals: Perfecting Dissociation from ‘Part Object’ Orientation
    • Sabotaging Body Elementals: Star-Crossed Love
    • Recap
      • Early Childhood Loss
      • Sense of Omnipresence of the Sociopath, versus that of the Empath
      • Divine Grace and Iterations of Soul Wounding
      • On Young Love and a Lesser Sense of Loss
      • On Returning the Heart Chakra to Full Functionality
      • The Current Age of Renewal, Regeneration, and New Creation
      • Star Memories versus the Duality Play
      • Ascension: An Unparalleled Sense of Loss
      • Courage and the Void
      • For Those Who Are ‘on the Fence’ with Regard to Ascension …

Dear Ones,

This video describes loss in various contexts, including:

  • Some general views from my reading of this excellent book: “Primitive Experiences of Loss Working with the Paranoid-Schizoid Patient” by Robert T. Waska, and also some information based on my clair hearing of astral stories, and intuitive understandings I have come to through clair hearing of these stories.
  • A notion that Ascension and Enlightenment experiences of clearing Soul wounding may also bring up a feeling of loss, as we integrate the full functioning of the heart chakra.
  • Integration, through grace, at a higher level of Awareness, where we are one with the Divine.
  • And there is a discussion of first love and first loss among well-adjusted young people as well, and on overcoming resultant reticence to dare to love again.

There is an edited Summary after the video …



Hello, Dear Ones, It’s Alice.

Catastrophic Early Childhood Loss

I was reading a very learned psychological treatise the other day; the topic was early childhood loss of comforting relationships, and a state of mind that they call paranoid-schizoid

Link: “Primitive Experiences of Loss: Working with the Paranoid-Schizoid Patient,” by Robert T. Waska, Counselor, LPCC, MFT, PhD … https://books.google.com.cy/books?id=nrxWbDqAB44C&printsec=copyright#v=onepage&q&f=false ..

I am not much for labels, but I did find interesting some of the insights that they had about the ego, and the way that it develops in early childhood. It seems that loss of comforting, sustaining relationships in early childhood causes certain ways of relating to the third dimension of reality ,,, that are very like what everyone else … all the the other egos in the world … are doing; but it is just slightly more exaggerated. So, what I learned was a lesson for me as well …

It was something like this … I am going to try; I am putting my own slant on this … Say, a baby is newborn. It sees things in a kind of cascade, without any labels … without any relational significance to its own needs … without any concept of parts being a whole (as in, a ‘whole person’, for instance, its mother).

But rather, one of the very first things is that there is a certain portion … of something … in its field of vision, that creates a sensation of fullness in its stomach, that is pleasing. And this is the very first, and a very important thing, that a child has to do, in order to stay alive: To bond with that instinct of suckling; that instinct of suckling and receiving milk.

So, very early on, the child becomes, in its visual field, attached to the look of that breast of its mother. And in addition, shortly thereafter, when its eyes clear, it begins to recognize a twinkle in her eye. And then the twinkle in her eye, and a smile on her lips, and the vision of her breast, and the feeling of fullness in the stomach which is pleasing.

So there are three of what this author calls ‘part objects’ that the child identifies with … visual objects: The eye, the smile, and the breast.

Over and over again, say, in the course of a year, the child sees the vision of these ‘part objects’, feels a pleasant sensation, and then experiences a sense of loss as the mom walks out of the room or goes about her work. It is a long time before the child begins to understand, through a process of give and take … of receiving something pleasant, and then losing that sensation of pleasantness … say, by the mom walking out of the room, something more than this.

Say 365 days, or however long … and the child begins to realize a sense of permanence there. And that sense of permanence is its experience of love. It begins to understand that the parts that it sees are actually a being … a Soul … part of a Soul that has a permanent relationship of give and take with itself; the beginning of societal or tribal bonding.

In the bottom of its mind, though, it still has these ‘part objects’, and on top of that … superimposed on that … is a new learning experience of a mature relationship with another being … Truly, a relationship of dependence at first; but as a child gets a little older … after the age of two, it starts to realize that it, itself, is an independent being with free will. So then it becomes a more mature relationship.

An Example of Catastrophic Early Childhood Loss: Heart Vampire

All right … So then, what the gentleman in the learned psychological treatise was talking about was early childhood loss of a comforting relationship. Let’s say that, in a worst case scenario, at the age of five the child flies into a tantrum and … as is often the case with young children … has been experimenting with matches, sets fire to the family home, and all the people, except for that child, are killed in the fire.

Where does that leave the child? The first sense is: Everyone that I loved is dead, and I killed them. And the second feeling … according to this understanding that I read about … is that of a kind of regression to the early infant stage of ‘part objects’, where the ego says: It is not possible; I could not have done that. And it returns to the older way of seeing things.

So then the ego of the young child begins to imagine that the people it sees are actually not people, but rather ‘part objects’: Parts of its whole ego. And going through life like this … with this misunderstanding of things … is kind of catastrophic from the point of view of societal expectations …

Circle of One: The Sociopath, Psychopath, or Anti-Social Personality

What happens then, for instance, is that the child will use and manipulate other people without regard for free will, because, in the child’s weltanschauung, the other people are merely part objects that are part of its own Self … for its own gratification. And when grown up, it will be treating people in the same way.

Love Relationships: Seeking to Destroy the Other. Further, when this young person reaches the point of reaching out, in a love relationship, it is not uncommon for this young person to relive the childhood trauma, and seek to destroy the person whom it loves, over and over again: To do the same thing with new ‘part objects’ … new lovers.

Iterations of Soul Wounding: Their True Purpose. Now this behavior is a reaching out of the Soul; their Soul is reaching out to remember the original wounding and come to a more mature understanding. It should, I feel, be understood in that light: As a longing of the Soul for healing … I say this in hopes that we understand that kind of behavior from the perspective of Soul healing and Soul love and Soul forgiveness.

Young Love Amongst Normals: Perfecting Dissociation from ‘Part Object’ Orientation

And also, I think it is important to understand that most everybody on Earth right now has, to some degree, some aspect of that ‘part object’ orientation. What often happens is that, even in living in a very secure home environment, on first love they will be anticipating some kind of enduring relationship similar to that which has existed, so far, with the natal family. But seldom is this the case.

In the case of first love … because the skills are not all there, for a mature relationship of romance … there is a process of beginning to learn those skills. And so, frequently, first love is a very intense and painful experience of complete identification, and then, complete loss: Loss of the ‘part object’ with which the young lover wholly identified his or her own ego.

Sabotaging Body Elementals: Star-Crossed Love

So what that leaves people with, is a sort of a feeling that, If they love, they will lose. Thus …  because of this experience of failed love; of failed romance …  there is a body elemental within most of us that says: I would like to find someone!

And then it says: But if I find someone, I will lose them. [laughs]

And this is, I feel, what Judy Satori calls ‘sabotaging behavior’. It is when we give our body elementals two instructions that contradict each other …

  • One comes from the conscious mind: I would like to find someone!
  • And the other comes from the unconscious mind: If I find someone, I will lose them.

Uh oh! But it is a very simple job to clear all that with our body elementals, because they are very programmable. They are very amenable; all they want to do, is what we ask them to do; to make us happy … Because, after all, they are our own thought forms. They are our own artificial elementals.

So what we do is we say to our body elemental: This is what I want!

And they say: Yeah?

And then we could say: I want the perfect romantic relationship for me, and I would like it to last for the rest of my life, or as long as we both want it to!

And they will say: Oh! Ok!

So … walking along that road … Heading in that direction … and looking forward with great enthusiasm to some teachings by Judy Satori on that topic … no doubt, along with language of Light activations …

Link: “Ascension Library” … https://www.ascensionlibrary.org/

We will see what comes up!

Wishing you all the perfect romantic relationship! Talk to you later.


Early Childhood Loss. To tie these threads together: First, I was talking about a situation of early childhood loss, when a person reverts to an early mental milieu in which there is a lack of understanding of integration; of the parts of the visual field as separate individuals … separate people from itself. In other words, because of a very overwhelming feeling of loss and guilt, the ego of the young child reverts to a notion that what it sees … and most significantly, the people that it sees … are just part of itself; that it is all that there is in the whole known Universe … That everything it sees is just an extension of itself.

Sense of Omnipresence of the Sociopath, versus that of the Empath. This is a feeling of omnipresence, in a way. It is a feeling that an empath gets; but in this case, it is not an empathic feeling, because the proper movement of the heart chakra energy has been injured somewhat, or wounded, by the sensation of overwhelming loss.

So the feeling of omnipresence, in this instance, has to do with extension of that heart energy … that wounded heart energy … into the situation of every person in the purview of that wounded child. The child will reflect that Soul wounding in everyone; in other words, to the sociopathic child, everyone will seem to reflect his or her own Soul wounding.

In the case of a sociopathic person who is clairvoyant … that person will see, on the clair realm, people in the astral realm, in such a way that they seem to be reflecting that early childhood wounding.

Divine Grace and Iterations of Soul Wounding. The Divine purpose of this is, to allow the Soul to clear that energy and return to proper heart energy functioning.

So God, if you will … the Divine Grace in one’s life … is ever bringing to the Awareness the notion … the understanding … the re-enactment of that wounding, for the sole purpose of allowing the Soul to return to a full state of unconditional love. That is the reason for that.

The reasoning is not to injure, over and over again. It is a very compassionate God that allows this to happen. But the result … if we do not pay attention to our Soul learning, our incarnational learning, is further Soul wounding.

So … Now is the time for everyone to look at what is transpiring in the world … right in front of us … right now. That is the thing that needs clearing. That is the thing that needs healing: Anything that hurts. Anything that feels like suffering.

On Young Love and a Lesser Sense of Loss. So, that is to do with clearing from early childhood loss. And then the next thing that I talked about had to do with lesser sensations of loss of love, that most people do go through, in their first love experience: They tend to experience, to a lesser extent, the type of loss that that author was describing.

On Returning the Heart Chakra to Full Functionality. And so, their own experience, as they go through life, will be the experience of relationships that are incomplete.

And the purpose is the same: The Divine Grace, the Divine intention, if you will, is exactly the same: To allow that person to integrate the energy of full heart chakra functioning. So it is not like God punishing us; it is more like God reminding us that there is this work to do … That it is our job to do it … And, if we should ask, allowing us the Grace to accomplish it.

The Current Age of Renewal, Regeneration, and New Creation. Well, so, one thing that I forgot, and that I will mention now …

Technically, Ascension already occurred in 2012, and now we are in an age of Renewal and Regeneration and New Creation, As we become aware of all that … of how much things have changed … we are learning to use those tools.

It seems like the plant life and the animal life, and even the rocks of Earth have figured it out! Certainly the waters of New Creation are there for us to take in and transform our own being with! But we humans have mental filters that are taking their time to catch up! So the Noosphere is taking a while to catch up.

And a lot of it has to do with these experiences of loss of love.

Star Memories Versus the Duality Play. We came from the stars; we came from a situation in which love was everywhere. You did not have to look far, for a being that could meet your heart energy with its own heart energy fully open and complete.

There was no such thing as loss of the sort that we experience in the third dimension. We decided to do this great Duality experience, and … Poom! … Here we were on Earth! And most likely, the very first experience we had was an experience of loss, when we opened our eyes as newborns. Quite a shock! [laughs]

And then, on top of that, the kind of shock of which that author spoke. The shock of new love lost, of first love lost: A terrible experience, really. I mean, after the experience, and after many years of romantic love experiences, we tend to look back and say: Oh, first love! Like that …

But it is not like that at all; it is a very difficult experience to go through, for every young child. We forget how gruesome it is! And so: First love; that loss!

Ascension: An Unparalleled Sense of Loss. And here, now (to get to the final point that I was attempting to make) … Here, now, in this process of Ascension … of becoming aware of what has already happened, the ego is faced with a loss like no other … Unparalleled loss. The loss of everything known. The loss of the third dimension; the loss of the physicality as being true. The sense that everything is nothing but illusion. The very scary sense … a sense of lack of safety … intrinsic in the notion that we can create whatever we want as reality. These things are very difficult.

It is the loss of the mother again. It is the loss of the mother that is everything familiar; that is everything we have ever experienced in the way of comfort … as well as discomfort.

Courage and the Void. It is the willingness to stand in the space where there is nothing, with the understanding that there will be … do psychologists call it an ‘integration’? … That, for sure, what will follow is Grace. And what will result is something far more beautiful than anything we have ever known before, in the third dimension.

And which we remember, from those times where we were one with the Divine. We were more One than we can imagine, right now, with the presence that is complete love, complete joy, complete peace. These things are coming back to us now.

It takes bravery to stand in the face of this. And what we, on the clair plane, are experiencing … amongst those set forth as the ‘first wave’ of Ascension .. is a similar disintegration of ego … ‘part’ identification of objects … in facing this catastrophic egoic loss, this ego terror, this territoriality and this hostility of ego … that are hallmarks of what we considered to be ‘I’ in the past. These things all come up. And they set us apart from the rest of the world.

Almost all people are categorizing and labeling almost everything other than themselves as wrong and bad, and in some cases, are making all kinds of judgment calls. And that has to do with the scariness of this moment in time.

For Those Who Are ‘on the Fence’ with Regard to Ascension … I know many of you, out there, are on the fence with regard to Ascension. It is true? Or is it just a figment?

So what I am asking of you right now … if you are clair, and if you are troubled by the noospheric chaos at this moment … is to consider the possibility that these theories that I put forth today could fill the bill … Could step into that gap between the past known, and the current Void, and the future that will be what we create, which will then be known.

See if maybe the difficulty with what Tom Kenyon …

Link: “Tom Kenyon,” https://tomkenyon.com/ … Search the term: cognitive dissonance

… calls the ‘cognitive dissonance’ in the noosphere today … has to do with ego loss; great loss of comforting relationships, and maybe a regression to what has been labeled what it is labeled [smiles] … a momentary regression of the ego to a very young, infantile understanding of the Universe, preparatory to gathering that courage to step into the void, and into New Creation. [waves goodbye]


Here are a few ways to heal the heart after experiences of romantic loss:

  • Reprogram sabotaging body elementals (as described in the video).
  • And for romantic or nurturing loss, or to heal the heart of the cognitive dissonance of the noosphere, I recommend going to Judy Satori’s website https://www.ascensionlibrary.org/ and searching the term: Kuan Yin   … or … Quan Yin

You will find other good heart healing meditations elsewhere on the internet as well.

In love, light and joy,
I Am of the Stars


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