Role Awareness . by Alice B. Clagett

    • The Deluge Last Night
    • A Visit to One of My Outdoor Sacred Spaces the Next Day
    • Speckles of Sunlight
    • The Eldest Child
    • Role of a Younger Child
    • Identify What Role We Are Playing
    • Dying and Being Reborn
    • Luke 15: Three Parables
      • Parable of the Lost Sheep
      • Parable of the Lost Coin
      • Parable of the Lost Son
    • Which Person Do You Identify With?
    • Can a Person Identify with All These Roles?
    • Awareness: What Part of Me Is Still ‘Lost’?
    • Do Not Judge Other People. Be Very Aware of Your Own Self
    • Birth Order Reference
    • Bill Ballard Reference
    • Luke 15
      • The Parable of the Lost Sheep
      • The Parable of the Lost Coin
      • The Parable of the Prodigal Son

Dear Ones,

This video includes the role of our birth order in relationships, eldest child vs youngest child roles, Bill Ballard on death and rebirth, Luke 15, nonjudgment of others’ roles, and neutral awareness of our own relationship roles. There is a lightly edited Summary after the video …



Hello, Dear Ones, It’s Alice.

The Deluge Last Night

It rained like crazy last night, and there was a clap of thunder right near where I was, at home. And my cat got so scared she went running off and hid someplace. I could not find her for a while. The rain just increased and increased; and suddenly, it felt like there was a huge bucket of water just over the roof of my apartment, and all of a sudden it got emptied onto the roof of the apartment … It was that strong of a rain.

And then, all of a sudden, it stopped. And there, in the living room, the roof was leaking, just a little bit. So I put a bucket under the leak, and it all came out all right … It did not rain that much more that night.

A Visit to One of My Outdoor Sacred Spaces the Next Day

So today I went to look, in one of the spots where I sit, to see how one of my little altars has done. And here it is …

Image: “Sacred Space,” by Alice B. Clagett, 15 September 2013, CC BY-SA 4.0 International, from “Awakening with Planet Earth,” ..

Image: “Sacred Space,” by Alice B. Clagett, 15 September 2013, CC BY-SA 4.0 International, from “Awakening with Planet Earth,” ..  

In the foreground. you see, there is a little ‘pointing’ place, that you can stand next to, in the front. And then, in the background, is this little altar place … Well it was looking somewhat the worse for wear, because in this area, it looks like all of the water comes running down there.  So I replenished the juniper sprigs, and put the pine cones back together, and put the rocks back together, and there it is! A little meditation place …

Image: “Outdoor Altar,” by Alice B. Clagett, 15 September 2013, CC BY-SA 4.0 International, from “Awakening with Planet Earth,” ..

Image: “Outdoor Altar,” by Alice B. Clagett, 15 September 2013, CC BY-SA 4.0 International, from “Awakening with Planet Earth,” ..  

So while I am standing here, I thought I would talk about something that has come to mind. And so, here we go!

Speckles of Sunlight

Image: “Incoming Light: Speckles of Sunlight,” by Alice B. Clagett, 15 September 2013, CC BY-SA 4.0 International, from “Awakening with Planet Earth,” ..

Image: “Incoming Light: Speckles of Sunlight,” by Alice B. Clagett, 15 September 2013, CC BY-SA 4.0 International, from “Awakening with Planet Earth,” ..  

I was talking to a friend last night, about the role of our birth order amongst our siblings, and how that affects our relationships throughout life. I am going to try to find you something on the internet about this, but because of the rain, my internet is not working right now. But pretty soon, I am going to find something.

The Eldest Child

I gather, from talking with my friend, and comparing that to my own life, that birth order has a lot to do with how we interact with people. Now in her case and my case, we are the eldest child in our family. And they tend to carry quite a lot of responsibility for other people … probably because, in real life, lots of times, the parents said: You are the eldest. It is your responsibility to help take care of your younger brothers and sisters … Or something like that, you know?

Role of a Younger Child

In the case of a child that is the youngest child in a family, especially in a big family, or one of the younger children, you will not find that at all. Instead, you will find some kind of happy-go-lucky feeling … and a feeling that other people are going to take care of them … as was the case when they were very young, you know? They might not have that much responsibility about money and security, and so forth, because the older siblings were looking out for them all the time when they were very young.

And then there is the child in the middle … which may be addressed in the “More Information” section below.

Identify What Role We Are Playing

But the point of that conversation, I think, is that we need to identify the role or roles we are playing in life; not because they are good or bad, but just so we will know what we are doing rotely, automatically. By observing, we will know whether we want to continue with that behavior. You know what I mean? So that we can choose rationally what roles we want. And we will have more roles and choices in life.

Dying and Being Reborn

Apparently, this kind of process is coming up for a lot of people: The feeling of dying and being reborn. A feeling that the old is coming to an end; a desire to cling to that, and to fear the death of the old. The thought that the rebirth into the New is coming round. You know?

I was listening to one of Bill Ballard’s video just the night before, and he confirmed all that … he talked about rebirth too. It was really strange! I had been taking it in a personal sense, but when I heard Bill Ballard’s video, I thought: Maybe this is happening with a large group of people right now. Then the next day, I heard an acquaintance talking about the same thing, and it became clear that we are all changing our roles and upgrading our understanding and awareness of everything that is going on in our relationships right now.

It feels a lot like death. In fact, some people are choosing to die rather than face this. Personally, I would like to stay alive, and I would like to have my choices; but of course, you never know what the Divine has in store for us! [laughs]

Luke 15: Three Parables

Then today I went to church. The sermon was on Luke 15, and there were three stories involved (I’m paraphrasing below; for the Biblical text, see “More Information” below).

Parable of the Lost Sheep. The first story had to do with a shepherd. He had a hundred sheep. One got lost, and he went out looking for it. It was really important for him to find that one lost sheep. I am sure you have heard that story.

Parable of the Lost Coin. And then, the next story was about a woman. She had ten coins, but she lost one coin. She looked through the whole house; finally she found that coin, and she was so happy that she invited all her neighbors over to celebrate.

Parable of the Lost Son. And the last story was about a man who had two sons. The younger son (remember what was said, above, about younger siblings?) told his father: I would like my inheritance now. So the father divided up all he had, and he gave half to the younger son. The younger son went off to a foreign land, and spent all the money that he had, until he had nothing whatsoever.

Hard times fell upon that place where he was. He worked for someone else who had pigs, and that person asked him to go and feed the pigs. He was so hungry, he wished he could eat the pig food, but nobody offered him any.

So then he thought, What am I doing? The lowly people that work on my father’s farm have plenty to eat. I should just go back and beg my father for forgiveness and understanding. So he did that. His father was very happy to see him. He said, “My son … was lost, and is found again!” Let us kill the fatted calf, and let us feast and be happy! … something like that. So they did that.

And then the older son, who was very responsible in looking after his father’s land, and who had never spent any of the money, was off in the fields, taking care of things. He heard all the music and merrymaking, so he came back, and asked a servant, What is going on here?  What is this? The story was explained to him, and he got really angry and refused to go in.

He said to his father, I have been doing all the hard work all this time. What is this? You never even killed a goat for me and my friends. So the father explained to him: My son, who was lost, is come back again. This is a time of rejoicing. (I assume everything was knit up in that way.)

Which Person Do You Identify With?

After the pastor told these stories, he went on to say to us: Which of the people in these stories do you identify with?

  • Do you think of yourself as the lost sheep, as the sheep that are safe and found?
  • Do you think of yourself in the role of Christ, passing no judgment on anyone?

Can a Person Identify with All These Roles?

At first, I could not figure it out. Finally I came up with, that I could identify with any of those. I think that is kind of a good state of mind to have: Not to judge other people’s roles, but just to see them very clearly. And the same with mine.

Awareness: What Part of Me Is Still ‘Lost’?

What the pastor said was even more interesting. He said: We may think of ourselves as found, but there are parts of us, parts of our bodies, that are not found. We may be mostly found, but nobody is completely found (not in this dimension, anyway … He did not say that.)

Do Not Judge Other People. Be Very Aware of Your Own Self

I thought maybe he was saying, Do not judge other people. Take a good look at yourself, and just do what you can to find yourself…

So that is the story for today: Finding oneself. Finding one’s role. And maybe not taking a role too seriously, even if we learned to be the thing that we now are when we were little children.

I wish you all a wonderful day … not too rainy, no roof leaking. I hope your cat (if you have one) is not too scared. All is well here, and I hope all is well with you. Love and blessings.


Birth Order Reference. Here’s an article about birth order and relationships:

“Link: Birth Order and Personalities,” by Diana L. Walcutt, Ph.D. … ..

Bill Ballard Reference. Here’s the Bill Ballard video I quoted in my video:

Video: “9-13-13 Bill Ballard — Birthing of New Earth and Fractals in My Experience” … ..

Luke 15. And here’s Luke 15 (KJV, public domain)

The Parable of the Lost Sheep

1 “Then drew near unto him all the publicans and sinners for to hear him.
2 “And the Pharisees and scribes murmured, saying, This man receiveth sinners, and eateth with them.”
3 “And he spake this parable unto them, saying,
4 “What man of you, having an hundred sheep, if he lose one of them, doth not leave the ninety and nine in the wilderness, and go after that which is lost, until he find it?
5 “And when he hath found it, he layeth it on his shoulders, rejoicing.
6 “And when he cometh home, he calleth together his friends and neighbours, saying unto them, Rejoice with me; for I have found my sheep which was lost.
7 “I say unto you, that likewise joy shall be in heaven over one sinner that repenteth, more than over ninety and nine just persons, which need no repentance.”

The Parable of the Lost Coin

8 “Either what woman having ten pieces of silver, if she lose one piece, doth not light a candle, and sweep the house, and seek diligently till she find it?
9 “And when she hath found it, she calleth her friends and herneighbours together, saying, Rejoice with me; for I have found the piece which I had lost.
10 “Likewise, I say unto you, there is joy in the presence of the angels of God over one sinner that repenteth.”

The Parable of the Prodigal Son

11 “And he said, A certain man had two sons:
12 “And the younger of them said to his father, Father, give me the portion of goods that falleth to me. And he divided unto them his living.
13 “And not many days after the younger son gathered all together, and took his journey into a far country, and there wasted his substance with riotous living.
14 “And when he had spent all, there arose a mighty famine in that land; and he began to be in want.
15 “And he went and joined himself to a citizen of that country; and he sent him into his fields to feed swine.
16 “And he would fain have filled his belly with the husks that the swine did eat: and no man gave unto him.
17 “And when he came to himself, he said, How many hired servants of my father’s have bread enough and to spare, and I perish with hunger!
18 “I will arise and go to my father, and will say unto him, Father, I have sinned against heaven, and before thee,
19 “And am no more worthy to be called thy son: make me as one of thy hired servants.
10 “And he arose, and came to his father. But when he was yet a great way off, his father saw him, and had compassion, and ran, and fell on his neck, and kissed him.
21 “And the son said unto him, Father, I have sinned against heaven, and in thy sight, and am no more worthy to be called thy son.
22 “But the father said to his servants, Bring forth the best robe, and put it on him; and put a ring on his hand, and shoes on hisfeet:
23 “And bring hither the fatted calf, and kill it; and let us eat, and be merry:
24 “For this my son was dead, and is alive again; he was lost, and is found. And they began to be merry.”

25 “Now his elder son was in the field: and as he came and drew nigh to the house, he heard musick and dancing.
26 “And he called one of the servants, and asked what these things meant.
27 “And he said unto him, Thy brother is come; and thy father hath killed the fatted calf, because he hath received him safe and sound.
28 “And he was angry, and would not go in: therefore came his father out, and intreated him. 29 “And he answering said to his father, Lo, these many years do I serve thee, neither transgressed I at any time thy commandment: and yet thou never gavest me a kid, that I might make merry with my friends:
30 “But as soon as this thy son was come, which hath devoured thy living with harlots, thou hast killed for him the fatted calf.
31 “And he said unto him, Son, thou art ever with me, and all that I have is thine.
32 “It was meet that we should make merry, and be glad: for this thy brother was dead, and is alive again; and was lost, and is found.”

In love, light and joy,
Alice B. Clagett
I Am of the Stars

Filmed on 15 September 2013; published on 16 September 2013; transcribed on 30 July 2018; revised on 17 March 2023


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