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Loss, the Ego, Enlightenment, the Void, and Co-creation of Reality . by Alice B. Clagett

Filmed on 24 May 2015; published on 8 July 2015; revised and transcribed on 13 November 2015

    • Catastrophic Early Childhood Loss
    • An Example of Catastrophic Early Childhood Loss: Heart Vampire
    • Circle of One: The Sociopath, Psychopath, or Anti-Social Personality
      • Love Relationships: Seeking to Destroy the Other.
      • Iterations of Soul Wounding: Their True Purpose
    • Young Love Amongst Normals: Perfecting Dissociation from ‘Part Object’ Orientation
    • Sabotaging Body Elementals: Star-Crossed Love
    • Recap
      • Early Childhood Loss
      • Sense of Omnipresence of the Sociopath, versus that of the Empath
      • Divine Grace and Iterations of Soul Wounding
      • On Young Love and a Lesser Sense of Loss
      • On Returning the Heart Chakra to Full Functionality
      • The Current Age of Renewal, Regeneration, and New Creation
      • Star Memories versus the Duality Play
      • Ascension: An Unparalleled Sense of Loss
      • Courage and the Void
      • For Those Who Are ‘on the Fence’ with Regard to Ascension …

Dear Ones,

This video describes loss in various contexts, including:

  • Some general views from my reading of this excellent book: “Primitive Experiences of Loss Working with the Paranoid-Schizoid Patient” by Robert T. Waska, and also some information based on my clair hearing of astral stories, and intuitive understandings I have come to through clair hearing of these stories.
  • A notion that Ascension and Enlightenment experiences of clearing Soul wounding may also bring up a feeling of loss, as we integrate the full functioning of the heart chakra.
  • Integration, through grace, at a higher level of Awareness, where we are one with the Divine.
  • And there is a discussion of first love and first loss among well-adjusted young people as well, and on overcoming resultant reticence to dare to love again.

There is an edited Summary after the video …



Hello, Dear Ones, It’s Alice.

Catastrophic Early Childhood Loss

I was reading a very learned psychological treatise the other day; the topic was early childhood loss of comforting relationships, and a state of mind that they call paranoid-schizoid

Link: “Primitive Experiences of Loss: Working with the Paranoid-Schizoid Patient,” by Robert T. Waska, Counselor, LPCC, MFT, PhD … https://books.google.com.cy/books?id=nrxWbDqAB44C&printsec=copyright#v=onepage&q&f=false ..

I am not much for labels, but I did find interesting some of the insights that they had about the ego, and the way that it develops in early childhood. It seems that loss of comforting, sustaining relationships in early childhood causes certain ways of relating to the third dimension of reality ,,, that are very like what everyone else … all the the other egos in the world … are doing; but it is just slightly more exaggerated. So, what I learned was a lesson for me as well …

It was something like this … I am going to try; I am putting my own slant on this … Say, a baby is newborn. It sees things in a kind of cascade, without any labels … without any relational significance to its own needs … without any concept of parts being a whole (as in, a ‘whole person’, for instance, its mother).

But rather, one of the very first things is that there is a certain portion … of something … in its field of vision, that creates a sensation of fullness in its stomach, that is pleasing. And this is the very first, and a very important thing, that a child has to do, in order to stay alive: To bond with that instinct of suckling; that instinct of suckling and receiving milk.

So, very early on, the child becomes, in its visual field, attached to the look of that breast of its mother. And in addition, shortly thereafter, when its eyes clear, it begins to recognize a twinkle in her eye. And then the twinkle in her eye, and a smile on her lips, and the vision of her breast, and the feeling of fullness in the stomach which is pleasing.

So there are three of what this author calls ‘part objects’ that the child identifies with … visual objects: The eye, the smile, and the breast.

Over and over again, say, in the course of a year, the child sees the vision of these ‘part objects’, feels a pleasant sensation, and then experiences a sense of loss as the mom walks out of the room or goes about her work. It is a long time before the child begins to understand, through a process of give and take … of receiving something pleasant, and then losing that sensation of pleasantness … say, by the mom walking out of the room, something more than this.

Say 365 days, or however long … and the child begins to realize a sense of permanence there. And that sense of permanence is its experience of love. It begins to understand that the parts that it sees are actually a being … a Soul … part of a Soul that has a permanent relationship of give and take with itself; the beginning of societal or tribal bonding.

In the bottom of its mind, though, it still has these ‘part objects’, and on top of that … superimposed on that … is a new learning experience of a mature relationship with another being … Truly, a relationship of dependence at first; but as a child gets a little older … after the age of two, it starts to realize that it, itself, is an independent being with free will. So then it becomes a more mature relationship.

An Example of Catastrophic Early Childhood Loss: Heart Vampire

All right … So then, what the gentleman in the learned psychological treatise was talking about was early childhood loss of a comforting relationship. Let’s say that, in a worst case scenario, at the age of five the child flies into a tantrum and … as is often the case with young children … has been experimenting with matches, sets fire to the family home, and all the people, except for that child, are killed in the fire.

Where does that leave the child? The first sense is: Everyone that I loved is dead, and I killed them. And the second feeling … according to this understanding that I read about … is that of a kind of regression to the early infant stage of ‘part objects’, where the ego says: It is not possible; I could not have done that. And it returns to the older way of seeing things.

So then the ego of the young child begins to imagine that the people it sees are actually not people, but rather ‘part objects’: Parts of its whole ego. And going through life like this … with this misunderstanding of things … is kind of catastrophic from the point of view of societal expectations …

Circle of One: The Sociopath, Psychopath, or Anti-Social Personality

What happens then, for instance, is that the child will use and manipulate other people without regard for free will, because, in the child’s weltanschauung, the other people are merely part objects that are part of its own Self … for its own gratification. And when grown up, it will be treating people in the same way.

Love Relationships: Seeking to Destroy the Other. Further, when this young person reaches the point of reaching out, in a love relationship, it is not uncommon for this young person to relive the childhood trauma, and seek to destroy the person whom it loves, over and over again: To do the same thing with new ‘part objects’ … new lovers.

Iterations of Soul Wounding: Their True Purpose. Now this behavior is a reaching out of the Soul; their Soul is reaching out to remember the original wounding and come to a more mature understanding. It should, I feel, be understood in that light: As a longing of the Soul for healing … I say this in hopes that we understand that kind of behavior from the perspective of Soul healing and Soul love and Soul forgiveness.

Young Love Amongst Normals: Perfecting Dissociation from ‘Part Object’ Orientation

And also, I think it is important to understand that most everybody on Earth right now has, to some degree, some aspect of that ‘part object’ orientation. What often happens is that, even in living in a very secure home environment, on first love they will be anticipating some kind of enduring relationship similar to that which has existed, so far, with the natal family. But seldom is this the case.

In the case of first love … because the skills are not all there, for a mature relationship of romance … there is a process of beginning to learn those skills. And so, frequently, first love is a very intense and painful experience of complete identification, and then, complete loss: Loss of the ‘part object’ with which the young lover wholly identified his or her own ego.

Sabotaging Body Elementals: Star-Crossed Love

So what that leaves people with, is a sort of a feeling that, If they love, they will lose. Thus …  because of this experience of failed love; of failed romance …  there is a body elemental within most of us that says: I would like to find someone!

And then it says: But if I find someone, I will lose them. [laughs]

And this is, I feel, what Judy Satori calls ‘sabotaging behavior’. It is when we give our body elementals two instructions that contradict each other …

  • One comes from the conscious mind: I would like to find someone!
  • And the other comes from the unconscious mind: If I find someone, I will lose them.

Uh oh! But it is a very simple job to clear all that with our body elementals, because they are very programmable. They are very amenable; all they want to do, is what we ask them to do; to make us happy … Because, after all, they are our own thought forms. They are our own artificial elementals.

So what we do is we say to our body elemental: This is what I want!

And they say: Yeah?

And then we could say: I want the perfect romantic relationship for me, and I would like it to last for the rest of my life, or as long as we both want it to!

And they will say: Oh! Ok!

So … walking along that road … Heading in that direction … and looking forward with great enthusiasm to some teachings by Judy Satori on that topic … no doubt, along with language of Light activations …

Link: “Ascension Library” … https://www.ascensionlibrary.org/

We will see what comes up!

Wishing you all the perfect romantic relationship! Talk to you later.


Early Childhood Loss. To tie these threads together: First, I was talking about a situation of early childhood loss, when a person reverts to an early mental milieu in which there is a lack of understanding of integration; of the parts of the visual field as separate individuals … separate people from itself. In other words, because of a very overwhelming feeling of loss and guilt, the ego of the young child reverts to a notion that what it sees … and most significantly, the people that it sees … are just part of itself; that it is all that there is in the whole known Universe … That everything it sees is just an extension of itself.

Sense of Omnipresence of the Sociopath, versus that of the Empath. This is a feeling of omnipresence, in a way. It is a feeling that an empath gets; but in this case, it is not an empathic feeling, because the proper movement of the heart chakra energy has been injured somewhat, or wounded, by the sensation of overwhelming loss.

So the feeling of omnipresence, in this instance, has to do with extension of that heart energy … that wounded heart energy … into the situation of every person in the purview of that wounded child. The child will reflect that Soul wounding in everyone; in other words, to the sociopathic child, everyone will seem to reflect his or her own Soul wounding.

In the case of a sociopathic person who is clairvoyant … that person will see, on the clair realm, people in the astral realm, in such a way that they seem to be reflecting that early childhood wounding.

Divine Grace and Iterations of Soul Wounding. The Divine purpose of this is, to allow the Soul to clear that energy and return to proper heart energy functioning.

So God, if you will … the Divine Grace in one’s life … is ever bringing to the Awareness the notion … the understanding … the re-enactment of that wounding, for the sole purpose of allowing the Soul to return to a full state of unconditional love. That is the reason for that.

The reasoning is not to injure, over and over again. It is a very compassionate God that allows this to happen. But the result … if we do not pay attention to our Soul learning, our incarnational learning, is further Soul wounding.

So … Now is the time for everyone to look at what is transpiring in the world … right in front of us … right now. That is the thing that needs clearing. That is the thing that needs healing: Anything that hurts. Anything that feels like suffering.

On Young Love and a Lesser Sense of Loss. So, that is to do with clearing from early childhood loss. And then the next thing that I talked about had to do with lesser sensations of loss of love, that most people do go through, in their first love experience: They tend to experience, to a lesser extent, the type of loss that that author was describing.

On Returning the Heart Chakra to Full Functionality. And so, their own experience, as they go through life, will be the experience of relationships that are incomplete.

And the purpose is the same: The Divine Grace, the Divine intention, if you will, is exactly the same: To allow that person to integrate the energy of full heart chakra functioning. So it is not like God punishing us; it is more like God reminding us that there is this work to do … That it is our job to do it … And, if we should ask, allowing us the Grace to accomplish it.

The Current Age of Renewal, Regeneration, and New Creation. Well, so, one thing that I forgot, and that I will mention now …

Technically, Ascension already occurred in 2012, and now we are in an age of Renewal and Regeneration and New Creation, As we become aware of all that … of how much things have changed … we are learning to use those tools.

It seems like the plant life and the animal life, and even the rocks of Earth have figured it out! Certainly the waters of New Creation are there for us to take in and transform our own being with! But we humans have mental filters that are taking their time to catch up! So the Noosphere is taking a while to catch up.

And a lot of it has to do with these experiences of loss of love.

Star Memories Versus the Duality Play. We came from the stars; we came from a situation in which love was everywhere. You did not have to look far, for a being that could meet your heart energy with its own heart energy fully open and complete.

There was no such thing as loss of the sort that we experience in the third dimension. We decided to do this great Duality experience, and … Poom! … Here we were on Earth! And most likely, the very first experience we had was an experience of loss, when we opened our eyes as newborns. Quite a shock! [laughs]

And then, on top of that, the kind of shock of which that author spoke. The shock of new love lost, of first love lost: A terrible experience, really. I mean, after the experience, and after many years of romantic love experiences, we tend to look back and say: Oh, first love! Like that …

But it is not like that at all; it is a very difficult experience to go through, for every young child. We forget how gruesome it is! And so: First love; that loss!

Ascension: An Unparalleled Sense of Loss. And here, now (to get to the final point that I was attempting to make) … Here, now, in this process of Ascension … of becoming aware of what has already happened, the ego is faced with a loss like no other … Unparalleled loss. The loss of everything known. The loss of the third dimension; the loss of the physicality as being true. The sense that everything is nothing but illusion. The very scary sense … a sense of lack of safety … intrinsic in the notion that we can create whatever we want as reality. These things are very difficult.

It is the loss of the mother again. It is the loss of the mother that is everything familiar; that is everything we have ever experienced in the way of comfort … as well as discomfort.

Courage and the Void. It is the willingness to stand in the space where there is nothing, with the understanding that there will be … do psychologists call it an ‘integration’? … That, for sure, what will follow is Grace. And what will result is something far more beautiful than anything we have ever known before, in the third dimension.

And which we remember, from those times where we were one with the Divine. We were more One than we can imagine, right now, with the presence that is complete love, complete joy, complete peace. These things are coming back to us now.

It takes bravery to stand in the face of this. And what we, on the clair plane, are experiencing … amongst those set forth as the ‘first wave’ of Ascension .. is a similar disintegration of ego … ‘part’ identification of objects … in facing this catastrophic egoic loss, this ego terror, this territoriality and this hostility of ego … that are hallmarks of what we considered to be ‘I’ in the past. These things all come up. And they set us apart from the rest of the world.

Almost all people are categorizing and labeling almost everything other than themselves as wrong and bad, and in some cases, are making all kinds of judgment calls. And that has to do with the scariness of this moment in time.

For Those Who Are ‘on the Fence’ with Regard to Ascension … I know many of you, out there, are on the fence with regard to Ascension. It is true? Or is it just a figment?

So what I am asking of you right now … if you are clair, and if you are troubled by the noospheric chaos at this moment … is to consider the possibility that these theories that I put forth today could fill the bill … Could step into that gap between the past known, and the current Void, and the future that will be what we create, which will then be known.

See if maybe the difficulty with what Tom Kenyon …

Link: “Tom Kenyon,” https://tomkenyon.com/ … Search the term: cognitive dissonance

… calls the ‘cognitive dissonance’ in the noosphere today … has to do with ego loss; great loss of comforting relationships, and maybe a regression to what has been labeled what it is labeled [smiles] … a momentary regression of the ego to a very young, infantile understanding of the Universe, preparatory to gathering that courage to step into the void, and into New Creation. [waves goodbye]


Here are a few ways to heal the heart after experiences of romantic loss:

  • Reprogram sabotaging body elementals (as described in the video).
  • And for romantic or nurturing loss, or to heal the heart of the cognitive dissonance of the noosphere, I recommend going to Judy Satori’s website https://www.ascensionlibrary.org/ and searching the term: Kuan Yin   … or … Quan Yin

You will find other good heart healing meditations elsewhere on the internet as well.

In love, light and joy,
I Am of the Stars


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Accepting the Anguish of Others . by Alice B. Clagett

Filmed on 15 April 2015; published on 21 April 2015; revised

    • Anguish Like Light from the Noonday Sun, Glinting Off Mica in a Basalt Rock
    • On Appreciating the Diversity of Soul Choices We Humans Make
    • The Moment When We First Sense That We Are Free
    • Reflections on Fighting for Freedom

Dear Ones,

This is about the sense of separateness from Source … individuality, anguish. And about letting go, acceptance, nonjudgment, freedom. With some asides on the maturation of nations …

There is an edited Summary after the video …



Hello, Dear Ones, It’s Alice.

Anguish Like Sunlight, in the Noonday Sky, Glinting Off Mica in a Basalt Rock

Yesterday I ran across two people out in the desert: A man and a woman. And I noticed in them a quality that I have not seen before: There was a certain sharpness there. It was like Light from the noonday Sun, glinting off shards of mica in a basalt rock … A sharpness … It was like a longing of the Soul to remember that it is not separate. It was like a hardness of individuality and personality. It was an intense pain there.

And at first, my heart tightened up, with the anguish of their Soul expression. And then I remembered a talk by Mooji … https://mooji.org/ … about overcoming the world, that I had listened to that morning.

On Appreciating the Diversity of Soul Choices We Humans Make

To paraphrase: Mooji talked about how … in this world of perception and sensation … we experience all kinds of energies. And it is good to just notice them and say: Ah! Here is the flavor of that energy! Here is the taste of energy, different from the last one that I experienced. Like that … And just notice them, and let them go …

Rather than to step into the feeling of someone else and say: Oh my God, I wish I could change this suffering and this agony!  … it is better to say: Here is a Soul … a unique expression of the Divine … that has chosen to experience this energy at this moment. Like that … And appreciate the diversity of energies that we sense, here in the third dimension.

The Moment When We First Sense That We Are Free

On my way leaving from this place [the hotel where I stayed] today, I was overhearing two young military people talking. They had just gotten back from a tour of active duty, according to the lady downstairs. And so, there was exhilaration … happiness. He was saying (to paraphrase): What I love, is that moment when people first sense that they are free. 

And I have to say, I love that moment too. I love that moment when I sense that I am free to notice everything, without following along into the flow of that thing; but to be ready for the very next moment of Awareness … without thought … without consideration. Is that not true freedom?

Reflections on Fighting for Freedom

Reflections on what the young man said: And on the other hand, when you think about it: Can we fight for freedom … the freedom of other people? Can we fight for freedom, and make them have that choice?

Or, would it be better to allow each culture to evolve, in an organic way … to express itself as a flowering of personal choice and freedom, when the time is right? Is that not true freedom: That we should decide, for ourselves, how our own nation should be? …

  • Whether we unconsciously surrender our power to those of our leadership,
  • Or whether we, as a people, decide that the power is ours, and that our leaders represent us faithfully, and carry out our wishes …

This is the evolution of the Soul, through the national culture. You know?

Can we fight for Peace? Can we truly fight for Peace? Is that a true thought? Or is that a mental filter?

How can the resonance of Aggression aid the resonance of Peace? Was Gandhi right when he felt that simply being peaceful was the way to increase Peace in the world; simply being that Peace?

And if we, as a people, if we as Americans were to be that freedom, that freedom of choice, that freedom from societal expectations; the freedom to express ourselves in our own lives, and to follow our hearts … Would that not be a shining Light for the whole world?

Everyone has their own ideas! … That is freedom too.

In love, light and joy,
I Am of the Stars


Image: “Chuckwalla 1, Joshua Tree National Park” by Alice B. Clagett, 21 April 2015, CC BY-SA 4.0

Image: “Chuckwalla 1, Joshua Tree National Park” by Alice B. Clagett, 21 April 2015, CC BY-SA 4.0

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Image: “Chuckwalla 2, Joshua Tree National Park” by Alice B. Clagett, 21 April 2015, CC BY-SA 4.0

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Being in Control versus Faith . by Alice B. Clagett

Filmed on 1 April 2015; published on 6 April 2015; republished on 13 May 2017; revised on 26 June 2020
Previously titled: Being in Control vs Faith

    • On Feeling That We Are Being Controlled
    • Dark Attacks
    • On Waking Up with an Inspiring Thought
    • Memories of Slave Planet Blues
    • The Prayer of St. Francis
    • On Feeling Separateness from God, and on Aligning with His Will
    • Djwhal Khul and The Great Invocation
    • Faith and the Valley of Death
    • Psalm 23:1-6
    • Photo by Alice

Dear Ones,

This video is about being in control vs faith, will power, the victim-aggressor paradigm (3D), dark attacks, clearing of the slave planet mental filter, and prayers to align with the Divine will through faith. There is an edited Summary after the video …



Hello, Dear Ones, It’s Alice.

I would like to talk a little about the issue of control and the issue of faith.

On Feeling That We Are Being Controlled

Sometimes it seems, in the third dimension, the world of Duality, that we are being controlled, or that we are controlling other people with our will. But the important thing to understand about the third dimension is that the filters of the great, Incoming Light have been dumbed down to the point where there is no other seeing and understanding, in the third dimension, than the seeing and understanding of the victim-aggressor paradigm … what some people call the victim-victimizer paradigm, the prey-predator relationship.

This is very far from the truth of the matter. But these are the lenses through which our minds visualize the third dimensional reality.

… Mr Raven up there! He is laughing … having a good time! … Oh, here comes that other one!

So the first thing to know, when we feel that we are controlled, is that this is an illusion created by the dumbing down of the Light, through the filter of the third dimension.

So the first thing to know is that, no matter how real it feels, it is not real.

Dark Attacks

Now, a lot of people have been talking about Dark Attacks. There have been times when I have gone through situations that my mind phrased as ‘Dark Attacks’. They had all the hallmarks of what my fellow oracles and prophets described as Dark Attacks. Then as time went on, as my understanding of the situation grew, I began to know that these ‘Dark Attacks’ always preceded a greater understanding of truth.

In fact, this happened last night, and so it is vivid in my mind. I experienced an incredible Dark Attack; and so, I just kept in mind faith in God, and faith that what was manifesting was going to lead me to greater Awareness of truth and Divine will.

On Waking Up with an Inspiring Thought

Sometimes when I wake up, I wake up with a thought … one thought that serves me for the entire day. This morning when I woke up, my thought was: My will to the will of God! And immediately all of that trouble and Darkness lifted from me.

Memories of Slave Planet Blues

The preceding night I had been remembering a gruesome event from a past lifetime, a long time ago, off-planet. And for a long time before that, I was re-enacting in my mind this that happened on that planet. And so, the feeling I had been having for a long time was that I was controlled, and I was going through all of the emotions I experienced on that planet, which was a slave planet elsewhere, enslaved by astral entities who had tremendous powers of mind control.

All of the humans on that planet, at that time so very long ago, lost their faith in God. Or at the very least, their faith in God was deeply challenged, and their morphogenetic fields were altered.

Many of those Souls are here on Earth today, and are experiencing this incredible clearing of those past-lifetime memories for the entire planet there. And so it has been very intense for everyone.

The Prayer of St. Francis

I have in mind St. Francis, who spoke of: Let me be an instrument of thy peace. He had an incredible prayer about that …

“Lord, make me an instrument of Thy peace;
Where there is hatred, let me sow love;
Where there is injury, pardon;
Where there is doubt, the faith;
Where there is despair, hope;
Where there is darkness, light;
And where there is sadness, joy.

“O Divine Master,
Grant that I may not so much seek to be consoled, as to console;
To be understood, as to understand;
To be loved as to love.

“For it is in giving that we receive;
It is in pardoning that we are pardoned;
And it is in dying that we are born to eternal life.

–from Link: “Prayer of St. Francis,” from Prayer Foundation … http://prayerfoundation.org/prayer_of_st_francis_instrument_of_peace.htm … public domain

It seems to me that the life of Saint Francis must have been like a song to God. Every moment of the day, he wanted to align his will with the Divine Will. Here is a video in which his prayer has been made into a song …

Video: “Prayer of St. Francis guitar cover,” by Chris Brunelle, 28 March 2015 … https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8E_3X20jASY ..

On Feeling Separateness from God, and on Aligning with His Will

And is not that the way … even when we feel we are completely at the mercy of something beyond our own control; and is not that the way? Even when we feel completely at the mercy of something beyond our own control, yet: Where is the Will of God in this? Where is God’s Will? God’s Will is to the perfect understanding of His children.

And somehow this experience of separateness from God, this experience of lack of free will, this experience of lack of holiness, this lack of love … all of these feelings that are un-Godlike and un-Divine, are leading us, in some way, back to an understanding of alignment with the Divine Will, the Divine Mind, and the Divine Love … the Divine Heart.

Djwhal Khul and The Great Invocation

Djwhal Khul mentioned it too. Djwhal Khul was an Ascended Master student of Koot Hoomi, who takes great care and stewardship of the Earth. Djwhal Khul had a prayer which I have channeled, called “The Great Invocation” …

Video: “The Great Invocation” . by Djwhal Khul . Channeled by Alice B. Clagett, filmed on 19 November 2014; published on 3 July 2019 … https://youtu.be/IrE4QJg_Ai0 ..

Here are the words to the prayer … Link: “The Great Invocation,” by Djwhal Khul, through Alice Bailey, in Theosophy Wiki … https://theosophy.wiki/en/Great_Invocation ..

I feel the Invocation has very similar sentiments to the prayer: Lord, let me be an instrument of thy peace. So I say … when I feel that I am clearing past lifetimes, and that things are out of control, and that I do not know what is going on … I just do not understand … I say: My will to the Will of God. And then suddenly everything becomes clear.

Faith and the Valley of Death

This is the wonderful thing about faith: That it leads us through the valley of death. (2) It leads us through the deepest Darkness, into ever greater Light. I am reminded of the psalm in which King David speaks of faith while passing though that same vale of sorrow …

Psalm 23:1-6 (KJV, public domain)

1 “(A Psalm of David.) The LORD is my shepherd; I shall not want.

2 “He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters.

3 “He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name’s sake.

4 “Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.

5 “Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over.

6 “Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the LORD for ever.”

God bless you all!

In love, light and joy,
I Am of the Stars

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Image: “Mottled Rose,” by Alice B. Clagett, 1 April 2015, CC BY-SA 4.0

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Trapped by Societal and Group Expectations . by Alice B. Clagett

Filmed on 1 April 2015; published on 6 April 2015; revised


Dear Ones,

This video is about societal and group expectations, Source, co-creation of reality, the pranic column energy, the Unconscious Though Cloud of the World, separateness, the Now, and the mind, will and heart of God. An edited Summary follows the video …



Hello, Dear Ones, It’s Alice.

Somebody asked, so I thought I would explain … at least according to my understanding of it … Morning sunlight! Wow! …

Image: “Morning Sunlight,” by Alice B. Clagett, 1 April 2015, CC BY-SA 4.0

Image: “Morning Sunlight,” by Alice B. Clagett, 1 April 2015, CC BY-SA 4.0

Why is it that we feel trapped by societal expectations? Why is it, for instance, that the expectations or mores of a large group can feel so terrifying to us? Why is it, if this is a free-will planet, that we have such a hard time exerting our free wills?

And I do have an astrogeophysical thought about that … call it a theory … I think that, during the Great Age, the 126,000 (150,000) years just passed, when Earth sank in consciousness because of our misalignment with the Photon Belt, there was a barrier in our own stratosphere that made it hard for our own pranic column energy (aka the pranic tube, the central vertical power current, the kundalini, the antahkarana, the silver cord or the silver thread) to extend to Source. That is what I think. And so, the free-will, emotional thought forms of the people here would circle round, under the ionosphere, and through the ionosphere, instead of going straight to Source for co-creation of reality.

And so that’s how, as the ages went on, the collective unconscious, the Unconscious Thought Cloud of the World, got to be accumulated up there, in the lower part of the ionosphere. And so, these unconscious thoughts, this blanket or covering of unconscious thoughts, are apparently what has been, until now, preventing us from reaching from our own small wills to God’s will. And now that the age has turned, and that Ascension is unfolding, we have that opportunity.

Now it is true that the dimensions and timelines are still infolding, and folding over each other, and merging. There is a lot of commotion in the dimensions and the timelines right now. And so, at this particular moment … or what appears to be this particular moment in the Ascension process … sometimes our pranic column energy can get through to Source, and sometimes we may appear to be trapped in the unconscious expectations of other people.

These unconscious expectations, the Unconscious Thought Cloud of the World, rose in groups that are set up by humans, with their varying expectations. And those groups that we are associated with, are that groups that, in times of pranic light occultation because of the infolding of the dimensions and the merging of the timelines … at those times it seems especially apparent to us that we are separate from Source, and we are unable to get through, and that we’re controlled by these societal or group expectations.

A few hours later, typically, you will find that whatever it was that was merging and blending into the great Now that we are about to experience, has merged, and has blended. And that we can once more get through, from our hearts to the heart of God. From our minds to the mind of God. And from our small human wills to the great will of God … through the help of the Ascended Masters, the Angelic Realm, through Jesus Christ, through all the energies of love and light in the galaxies, these things are possible now.

In love, light and joy,
I Am of the Stars

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Life on Earth . by Alice B. Clagett *

Written and published on 28 March 2015; revised

    • Hounds of the Barrier
    • Angles
    • Circles and Vortical Motion

Dear Ones,

This is an explanation about life on Earth…. the ionosphere and magnetosphere, the noosphere, the unconscious thought cloud of the world, communication within and above the Earth plane, and a historical perspective on Souls now on Earth.


The Ionosphere and the Magnetosphere protect humankind by modulating the Incoming Light from Solar Events. In this way, harmful radiation can’t affect us.

Cell phone signals and radio signals ping off the Ionosphere and satellites in it. So the ionosphere reflects communication signals, and its astral aspect, the Noosphere, also has to do with communication.


Image: “Schematic of Wave Propagation by Ground and Sky Wave,” by Sebastian Janke, in Wikimedia Commons … https://commons.wikimedia.org/wiki/File:Ionospheric_reflection.svg … CC BY-SA 2.5 Generic

Image: “Schematic of Wave Propagation by Ground and Sky Wave,” by Sebastian Janke, in Wikimedia Commons … https://commons.wikimedia.org/wiki/File:Ionospheric_reflection.svg … CC BY-SA 2.5 Generic

As to the crack in the Magnetosphere, that is allowing localized application of Incoming Light for mitigation of localized density of the Unconscious Thought Cloud of the World. The intention of the Angelic and Devic Realms, in this case, is to alleviate our perceived suffering as soon as possible. More on that later.


The Noosphere, the sphere of human thought, is the astral aspect of the ionosphere. There are two aspects to the Noosphere: Positive and Negative. Both these aspects exist in all ‘heights’ of the Noosphere: Low, middle, and high.

The Noosphere Negative contains hell-world thoughts (lower Noosphere negative), thoughts of mild suffering (Purgatory thoughts … middle Noosphere negative) and psychic terrorists … astral thuggee cult and Consequentialist Idealist spiritual adept thoughts (highest Noosphere negative).

Similarly but oppositely aspected, the Noosphere Positive contains heaven-world thoughts of various intensities, ranging from complacent or content (lowest heaven worlds), to happy (middle heaven worlds) to ecstatically joyful (highest heaven worlds).

And through these areas are, sitting or flitting, those Earth-bound Souls being schooled for their next incarnations.


The Veil of Forgetfulness is at the borderline of the third and fourth dimensions … between the physical plane and the astral plane. It comprises the densest, most unconscious Noospheric energies.

The Devas said The Veil was put in place to stop humanity from suffering too much through knowing about the endless wheel of karma and incarnations.

When I wake up, and sit up to meditate I sense the barrier of The Veil of Forgetfulness at first … the Hounds of the Barrier, as it were. Then by concentration, the pranic column energy (aka the central vertical power current or kundalini) pierces this veil and proceeds into less dense realms. Thank goodness.

It could be what the Devas mean is that, till now, when Souls go to the Light, that in passing through the lower, densely unconscious realms of the Noosphere, they lose the knowledge of their incarnations, and so lose the knowledge of the suffering they have endured, and must further endure till the end of a Great Cycle. This ‘little death’ allows the Greatness that we are to endure in this harsh environment. And so, as the Devas say, the Veil of Forgetfulness has been a blessing and an important feature of Earth School.


The Unconscious Thought Cloud of the World appears to be not part of the Veil. Rather, it seems to flow in localized, roiling waves, especially within cities, where the mental thought cloud of humanity is tight packed. However, all it takes is a thought … say of a friend, family member, or a person made known through the media, to allow the Unconscious Thought Cloud of the World to expand to a different location.


I mentioned how cell phone waves ping off the Ionosphere, and how the Noosphere is the astral aspect of the Ionosphere. What we watch on the Internet, what we hear in the media, the emotions we feel … all these ping off the Noosphere, just as cell phone signals ping off the Ionosphere.

Thoughts of sexuality carry great creative power because of their high emotional content. Because of the increasingly quicksilver communications of emotional thought as the Shift unfolds, these resoundingly ping off the astral aspect of the Noosphere, back to Earth. When these emotion packed thoughts impinge upon a localized portion of the Unconscious Thought Cloud of the World, humans may be impelled to ‘act out’ similar story lines.

So when we hear clair chatter about sexuality, it is best to ‘batten down the hatches’. Meditate, sit in the sun, breathe deeply … do something relaxing and fun. Let the clair chatter flow on by… no worries.

Just like the negative thought forms, which carry darker emotional energy, thoughts of love and peace, which carry lighter emotional energy, can ping off the Noosphere and back to Earth. So let us concentrate on those instead. For myself, I have joined the HeartMath Initiative …

Link: “HeartMath Initiative” … https://www.heartmath.org ..

… and am thrice blessed to meditate with that wonderful group of people to increase vibes of Love and Joy on Earth.


Know that each of us has a higher dimensional Celestial Ascension Team standing at the ready. Our Teams are not embodied; they are our Celestial helpers. Among them are Angels and Ascended Masters, for instance. Beings of love and Light, as mentioned in the Bible and other sacred books. They are our brothers and sisters of Light. They understand our predicament, and much more. They are proud of us, and eager to be of assistance. For your own sake, and that of all humankind, I ask you to attempt contact as soon as possible.

When I wake up in the morning, sit up, and meditate on the pranic column energy, I first encounter the dream-trance state of the lowest noosphere … the realm of mind control, unconsciously held societal self-limitations, and densely distorted, repressed memories. Then by concentration, I break through to the higher realms, where my Team is.

In the same way, the Activations of Light that begin ‘Spirit to Team. Team to Teams. Teams to Spirits…’ go up a person’s pranic column, through the Noosphere, to our Celestial Ascension Team standing ever at the ready, beyond that currently churning, tumultuous sea of energy.  From there the Activation of Light goes off to the Teams of other humans, and if they are ready, down their pranic columns. In this way the signal degradation of the currently very dense lower levels of the Noosphere are minimized.

Activations of Light to do with this will be forthcoming, hopefully today.


Because we are so new into the Shift, the dense, roiling state of the Noosphere sometimes prevents Spirit-to-Team communication. This may have something to do with the Solar Wind Speed factors. For instance, currently Solar wind speed: 417.9 km/sec and density: 6.7 protons/cm3. Speed x density = 2800 Protonfall (my term; as an analogy, think of the meaning of the word rainfall)

I am beginning to notice that speed X density in the 2600 – 2800 range may be churning and roiling the lower portion of the Noosphere. This causes density and commotion in the human energy field.  I have noticed that higher ranges, 3000 – 10,000 … do not have this effect.

The churning-roiling range can give rise to the emotions of judgment and blame, which then cause the boomerang effect …

Link: “Boomerang effect: The Perpetual Emotion Machine,” by Alice B. Clagett, published on 16 February 2015; revised on 24 May 2017 … https://wp.me/p2Rkym-2Hw ..

… in the person who is judging or blaming.  So, ‘heads up’ when the density is 2600 – 2800. Keep the mind high and the thoughts pure. So may we help the Unconscious Thought Cloud of the World remain in a state of Peace and Love.


For Thoth on the Hounds of the Barrier, angles, circles and vortical motion, see … Link: “The Emerald Tablets of Thoth: The Cross and the Circle,” by Alice B. Clagett, 26 March 2015 …  https://wp.me/p2Rkym-58v … 

Hounds of the Barrier. The Hounds of the Barrier mentioned by Thoth has to do with the lowest level of the Noosphere.

Angles. The angles mentioned by Thoth have, among other things, to do with how signals ping off the Noosphere, angularly, similarly to the angles in the picture up above of cell phone signals bouncing off the Ionosphere.

Circles and Vortical Motion. The pranic column energy makes use of the ‘circle’ energy, or vortical motion that Thoth has referred to (see link above). This kind of energy can pierce through the Veil of Forgetfulness (circumvent the ‘Hound of the Barrier’) and arrive at the purer dimensions … fifth dimension and higher.

Here is a simple vortex in a bottle of water …

Image: “Vortex in a Bottle of Water,” by Robert D. Anderson, August 2013 …  https://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/commons/thumb/7/71/Vortex_in_draining_bottle_of_water.jpg/220px-Vortex_in_draining_bottle_of_water.jpg ..

Or you can visualize, in this beautiful artwork by Jaijelinne, a whorling vortex of energy. At the bottom of the picture, imagine a person. The vortex, the ‘kundalini energy’, is whorling around through the person, along the spinal column, This is the energy of the core of the torus of the human electromagnetic field.


Link: “Holy” by Jaijelinne, from http://jaijelinne.deviantart.com/art/holy-324491751 … CC BY 3.0 … COMMENT: No changes have been made.

Link: “Holy” by Jaijelinne … http://jaijelinne.deviantart.com/art/holy-324491751 … CC BY 3.0 … COMMENT: No changes have been made.

As the energy whorls up through the sky, it pierces the astral stratosphere (the highest heaven worlds), accesses the astral solar wind stream, from there to the Light codes stored in our planet’s Sun. You might imagine the circular whorl in the magenta energy stream of the artwork as our Sun’s light storage system.

From there our kundalini energy streams onward to the great bursts of Light codes from Alcyone, the Central Sun of the Pleiadian System. This system of light information transmission is the gift of Divine grace to humankind.

The gift of grace might be thought of as symbolized by the dove in Jaijelinne’s artwork.


Souls who ghost about are ghosting through the Unconscious Thought Cloud of the World. Sending them to the Light sends them to Noosphere, where they rise by steps or grades to the extent of their Light Quotient. This process is described in the story of Ma’at and the ostrich feather she used to judge the weight of the Souls of the dead …

The myth goes like this: The Soul of every Egyptian was judged after death. The person would stand in the Hall of Ma’at and their heart, or conscience would be weighed against an ostrich feather (the feather of Ma’at). The scales represented justice and balance.

If they had not lived a balanced life, then their heart would be heavier than the feather. Then they would suffer one of two fates. They might be cast into a lake of fire. Or they might be devoured by the terrible deity Ammit.

But if the heart was as light as the feather of Ma’at, then they would earn eternal life.

Sometimes Osiris would be there to act as judge at the ritual, and many other gods might help officiate, but Ma’at was always there. She was the spirit behind the scale that weighed the Soul of the deceased. –adapted from LInk: “Ma’at,” in “Ancient Egypt Online,” http://www.ancientegyptonline.co.uk/maat.html ..

Basically, Souls are consigned to the hellworlds, the negatively aspected Light, if their Soul wounding carries that negatively aspected Light. It is a physical law, not a judgment.


Here we are on the outer edge … the very outer edge … of our Galaxy. The 120,000-year great cycle of the Sun confines Souls who have chosen Earth School to existence on Earth during the great cycle away from the Sun. This again is a physical law, to do with our distance from Source.

In flocks and flurries, from Great Cycle to Great Cycle, we Souls choose to endure this cycle of separateness. Choice can be made to go off planet when Shifts such as the September-December 2012 Shift occur. At that point the Incoming Light is more rare, and the Noosphere can be pierce by the pranic column energy. In that way the person can, by concentration, acquire the Incoming LIght ‘sooner’ (nanosecondly sooner) than others. These can get through to the Heaven Worlds and higher … to the True Reality of Universal Love, Light, Peace and Joy. Heed them. They can ease this process.

Note that, in truth, there is no such thing as time, and that 120,000 years goes by in the wink of an eye to our non-confined Star Brothers and Sisters. To us who have voluntarily placed our awareness within the temporo-spatial fabric, however, the Now slows down to a crawl of agony, and our unconsciousness has repressed these memories of agony, so that we until now have not known the Hell in which we lived … what might be termed a bubble of entropy in a Universe of Harmony and Order.

At this great Turning Point, the process of entropy has halted, and we on Earth are turning to the positive emotions of Love and Joy. Just as contemplation of Love can turn the water in our saliva to crystal form (1), so can it enhance the wellbeing of our whole bodies, our communities, our nations, and our great Mother Earth … her waters, lands, and atmosphere.

Hold steady. Know that help is at hand. All is well. Likewise for those who have passed, who are on the Astral Planes, help is at hand. They will be assisted in their Soul Choices immediately.


For those who are concerned with possible changes in Earth institutions, such as governments, economic institutions, and so on, know that all is well. There will no doubt be small changes, by increments, for the betterment of humankind. Is this not always so? But catastrophic changes is not … I repeat, not … on the agenda. You are our respected leaders. We look to you for spiritual upliftment during this miraculous and amazing process.

As the Shift unfolds, there will be more and more wonders to behold. Brothers and sisters, we have forgotten much. Let us remember! Let us remember the greatness of our Souls, the Majesty of our Being. There are loving friends to greet us. There is the Love of All That Is to meet us.

In love, light and joy,
I Am of the Stars

See also … Link: “Compendium: Interspecies Communication,” by Alice B. Clagett, published on 2 February 2019; updated … https://wp.me/p2Rkym-bym ..


(1) For a comparison of pictures of saliva in an ‘incoherent’ state to saliva in a ‘coherent’ state … a state of love … see this excellent article … Link: “Establishing the New Paradigm 2013 and Ongoing Global Earth Changes,” by Annette Deyhle, Ph.D. and GCI Research Team …  https://www.heartmath.org/gci-commentaries/establishing-the-new-paradigm-2013-and-ongoing-global-earth-changes/ ..


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