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Extreme Shyness and Psychic Superpowers . by Alice B. Clagett

Filmed on 18 April 2016; published on 20 April 2016
Previously titled: Shyness, Repression of Emotions, and Psychic Superpowers 

    • Repression of Soul Desires and Soul Purpose So As to Avoid Social Criticism
    • Desire to Hide from Other People Creates Welter of Negative Emotions
    • Gulf Between the Lower Chakras and the Sixth Chakra, in a Person with Great Psychic Abilities
    • The Unethical Nature of the Indian Tradition of Riddhi and Siddhi, and of the Thuggee Cults
    • Could the Very Shy Person Be Lacking in Egoic Identification Because of Concern Regarding Societal Expectations?
    • Lack of Egoic Identification as a Cause of Mind Control by Very Shy People
    • Interrelationship of the Qualities of Extreme Shyness and the Development of Great Psychic Powers
    • Might Paired Opposing Energies Be Building Blocks of Personality?
    • Healing Therapies For People with Extreme Shyness and with Psychic Superpowers
      • Balancing the Chakras May Provide a Solution
      • Addressing Shyness Through Behavioral Therapy or Group Therapy on the Physical Plane

Dear Ones,

This video is about extreme shyness (sometimes termed ‘social anxiety disorder’), which affects about 15 million Americans.

Topics: extreme shyness, repression of emotions due to social anxiety, psychic superpowers, psychic mischief, and ways to ameliorate extreme shyness and balance out psychic superpowers. Also:

  • The ethics of acquiring wealth through psychic abilities, and
  • The possible building blocks of personality …

There is an edited and reorganized Summary after the video …



Hello, Dear Ones, It’s Alice.

I would like to talk about shyness; that kind of shyness that is listed in psychology as Social Anxiety Disorder; and the notions of societal expectations and repression of emotions.

Repression of Soul Desires and Soul Purpose So As to Avoid Social Criticism

I feel that shyness is a Soul quality that needs to be carefully cultivated out of existence, right now. And for those that are particularly shy … very, very shy … it is very, very important to do this during the Awakening. The reason for this, to me it seems shyness is caused by oversensitivity to societal expectations … sometimes concomitant with greater clair abilities than most people have.

Greater clair abilities plug us into the astral comments of people regarding our behavior. I have noticed that, when I do something that somebody does not like, they immediately lash out at me on the astral plane; almost invariably. In an unconscious way, they will say things like: Oh, her! I don’t want to have anything to do with her again! … or … Oh, her! She is [this] …She is [that] … Right?

And for the person who is very clair, that can be daunting. You wonder if there is anything you can do right! We have to follow our own hearts, right? … in order to be happy in the world. And the same time, we would like other people to be happy with our being around, which is not always possible, right?

It is an interesting balance that we, as human beings, create in our lives: The balance between following our hearts, and basically kowtowing to the wishes of other people; in other words, to societal expectations.

In order to overcome this concern about that … and concern about brutal force being applied, on the astral plane, with regard to that … sometimes incessantly, if we have lots of friends … what is termed ‘peer pressure’, I think one of the things we need to do, is to develop diplomatic negotiating skills.

I am reminded of Benjamin Franklin … what a diplomat! He always got what he wanted, you know? And yet, he was so clever about it, he really studied that topic. He knew what to do, to get other people to be pleased with him … and still to have what he wanted in the world. So, I am thinking it might be good to develop a Benjamin Franklin kind of attitude towards what other people want: diplomacy, and yet following our heart. I suggest that, for the extraordinarily shy person.

Desire to Hide from Other People Creates Welter of Negative Emotions

Also I would like to speak a little to the extreme instance of a very shy person who represses Soul desires, Soul purpose, and the like, in order to avoid social criticism … and is unable to live a normal life, because they do not want to be around people, because they are worried about all that, you know? It creates, in the unconscious mind, a welter or wailing of negativity, of repressed, negative emotions.

Acting Out of Repressed Emotions on Astral Plane

And in the extreme instance this can be acted out when the person falls asleep, or is on the edge of the dreamtime realm. Suddenly taking over are these repressed emotions, in a state of ‘acting out’, on the astral plane, the things that are upsetting and repressed. Those things might be, for instance, the desire for sex, which expresses as astral rape; the desire for control … which may express as obsessing another individual, and taking over their physical form; and the desire for killing, out of repressed anger.

For the person that has many clair abilities … many psychic superpowers, these two … the desire for sex, and the anger that is repressed, might result in their taking over another person … Their personality is set aside; their mind is set aside for awhile, for this person who is very shy stepping into a role in the world that has been repressed because of concern for societal expectations.

And in that other person’s psyche can be created a real life scene of acting out rape or killing or torture … that kind of thing. That would be a very unusual situation; very unusual indeed. And regaining consciousness, the very shy person might never know that  they had done that thing. [sighs]

So we have four points above …

  • Repressed desire for control, expressed as obsessing (temporary ‘possession’) of another person by temporarily overwhelming their personality and acting out repressed emotions through the other person on the physical plane
  • Repressed desire for sex, expressed as astral rape, or as acting out rape on the physical plane through temporarily obsessing another person
  • Repressed anger and desire for killing out of repressed anger, expressed as psychic torture and psychic murder, or as acting out of torture and murder on the physical plane through temporarily obsessing another person
  • This might be done by the very shy person in a dissociative fugue state, so that they retain no memory of obsessing and causing another person to act out. During this time of Awakening, it’s more likely that the obsessed persons will first gain Awareness of having been obsessed, and with supreme exercise of will power, overcome the tendency to be obsessed.

For the sake of a person so obsessed, I note the difficulty in overcoming the tendency to be obsessed occurs because societal expectations with regard to the feral drives cause a veil of unconsciousness to be pulled over these drives. When the shy obsessor exercises ‘mind control’ to obsess another person, he or she is helped in this by what has been till recent years the overwhelming weight of unconscious noospheric energies constituting the unconscious thought cloud of the world.

Gulf Between the Lower Chakras and the Sixth Chakra, in a Person with Great Psychic Abilities

So, a ‘heads up’ regarding people who are born, for instance, with great psychic abilities and shyness: I think that being born with great psychic abilities indicates an imbalance of the chakras. I have talked about different ways of taking care of that. You can also research online how to balance the chakras. Having great psychic abilities, I think means having a greatly overbalanced third-eye point. In terms of Awareness, the Awareness is probably placed there all the time.

The third-eye point … [points to center of forehead] … is very far, physically, from the sexual chakra. Consequently, imbalance in favor of the third-eye point can result in greatly repressed sexual desires. The same goes for desire to control the world (which has to do with the third chakra negative) and desire to kill (which has to do with the first chakra negative).

The person who is third-eye-point overbalanced may have these negative energy strands in the lower triangle … the gut brain … without knowing it, because Awareness is placed, on the physical plane, so far from that area.

The Unethical Nature of the Indian Tradition of Riddhi and Siddhi, and of the Thuggee Cults

Some cultures really value psychic abilities. I have noticed, for instance, a movement in India recently, with a special symbol … kind of a magic symbol … that is used, based on the legend of the elephant god who had two wives, Riddhi and Siddhi. This has to do with acquiring wealth through psychic abilities.

There has been a thread of energy like that in India all along, all down through the ages. But right now it seems to be on the rise. I personally feel, from my own ethical standpoint, that acquiring wealth through spiritual powers is unethical … highly unethical … and that, as the Awakening continues, others will begin to catch onto all this, and that a stop will be put to it fairly soon … quite soon.

In ancient times, there was a cult called the Thuggee Cult. It comes from the word ‘thug’, I think: The Thuggee Cult in India. And these were people just like that: Highway robbers, brigands, murderers, and so forth, who had psychic abilities. They were famous throughout India, and treated with respect, because everyone was terrified of them, you know?

These people, these thuggees, have gone on to the astral plane after dying, and in the old days they used to walk right into people’s bodies right away, so they did not experience this cleansing process on the astral and mental planes between incarnations … which also involves Soul education for many years.

Instead, they walked straight into other people’s bodies, and displaced their Souls, in the old days, and just continued on with their Thuggee ways. But now, as they pass on, what is happening is there is just no place, and nobody on Earth, that has astral matter suitable for their habitation. And so they are stuck on the astral plane, and slowly, I think, being removed elsewhere … transferred offplanet.

So there is no future in it, for the Riddhi and the Siddhi movement. I can understand it, as an End Times phenomenon, but I cannot understand it as an Awakening phenomenon.

Could the Very Shy Person Be Lacking in Egoic Identification Because of Concern Regarding Societal Expectations?

Might lack of egoic identification be what causes the very shy person to ‘step into’ one or many other people on the psychic plane, sequentially, without Awareness that an egoic boundary held by others to be sacrosanct has been crossed?

What do you know? I have another postscript regarding extreme shyness and societal expectations. I would say that, in the extreme instance of shyness, a person cannot really distinguish between themselves and other people’s expectations of them.

In other words, they have not developed that ‘frontal’ ability, that barrier of the ego against other people’s opinions, And so they may slip into complete identification with someone else very easily. They may step out onto the astral plane, and their whole mind and psyche and emotions may ‘become’, as it were, the mind and psyche and emotions of another person … or of any number of a series of people.

They identify so fully with other people’s opinions of them that it is kind of hard to pin them down; I think the root and source of that problem. Basically, you could say that they are so terrified to be themselves, that they step into other people’s personalities just like that! … and become them.

It is a strange thing, on the astral plane, to hear them say: And now I will be … [this and such a person] … And then suddenly, they are that person’s voice, on the astral plane. And then they segue into their own Soul wounding. And so, in emotional flavor, it becomes like the very shy person, who has great psychic abilities, and who is very, very afraid to be representing themselves. Their repressed emotions, and all that, are showing up, on the astral plane, with the astral voice of the person that they are scooping into, on the Soul plane. It is happening, over and over again, with any number of personalities that they have heard about, or that they know someone who has heard about.

Huh! It is almost like living your life in other people’s plays; becoming other people, and never really being oneself. It is very interesting to me, because it is so very different from the way that I am, you know?

I can understand it, though, having grown up on the East Coast, where social opinion is very important. You know, you get more in tune with the tyranny of societal expectations when you dress in an alternative way. You begin to realize that people judge other people, not on the basis of Soul qualities, but typically on the basis of the make and pattern and color of the clothes they wear. It is that superficial: I like you [or I don’t like you] based on whether you are dressed for success in our group. 

I just wonder about that. I wonder about people. I wonder how they can do that to each other, You know? I just wonder: How are we going to get past that, in order to step into the All. What miracle is God going to accomplish here? [chuckles and waves]

Lack of Egoic Identification as a Cause of Mind Control by Very Shy People

This same lack of egoic identification might cause the very shy person to overcompensate by attempting to mind control other people … so that their minds are blank, and the shy person’s mind is free to express itself without concern for their opinions and expectations.

Interrelationship of the Qualities of Extreme Shyness and the Development of Great Psychic Powers

It is possible, in the shyness syndrome, that extreme shyness and the development of great psychic superpowers are circling around each other, in a kind of a figure eight, where one sustains the other and fuels the other; because, if a person is born very shy, and too timid to communicate with other people, then the development of psychic superpowers would be very important, because it would allow them to get in touch with other people on the psychic plane (on the astral plane).

On the other hand, other people might not be able to get in touch with them. And so might develop a situation that might feel, to other people who are not psychically inclined, that they are being manipulated; that they are being controlled by this other person who is, in fact, super shy.

And say, for those born with psychic superpowers, shyness might be the result; because they might know what other people are thinking, and how other people are judging them. Even as tiny infants, that might put them off from talking to other people.

In that way you might imagine a figure eight, with two little protons circling around, circling around infinitely. Or you might imagine a circle like that, one of the protons being extreme shyness; and the other, psychic superpowers.

It either one of those were to be shortcutted … if, for instance, there is behavioral therapy or group therapy that allows shy people to get more in touch and speak with other people without fears, or if there is chakric balancing that allows the psychic abilities to come into play equally with all the other chakras, then that whole figure eight or circular motion will, I think, be stopped, and the whole thing will settle into a more happily sustainable, heart chakra situation.

Might Paired Opposing Energies Be Building Blocks of Personality?

In the case of extremely shy people with psychic superpowers, could the paired opposing energies of great power and great fear be building blocks of personality? Might these opposing energies be kinks in the armor of our human EMF which constitute ‘Soul wounding’?

So, what do you have, when you have extreme shyness and psychic superpowers together, in one person? It is like a perpetual ‘e-motion’ machine. It is like a circle of energies, each opposed to the other, repelling the other. One is great power, and the other is great fear. That creates a constantly moving circle of opposed forces, in part of the personality.

This may in fact be what makes up personality: opposing pairs of forces such as this. Could these be the elements of personality? … the negatively aspected energy flow that makes up the Duality play? And could these be the elements that are resolving right now? This sort of thing; and may there be many other such pairs, that make up the electromagnetic entanglement of the personal magnetic field and etheric net, the Soul wounding? Time will tell.

Healing Therapies For People with Extreme Shyness and with Psychic Superpowers

Balancing the Chakras May Provide a Solution. In this type of situation, the thing to do is to pay very close attention to balancing out every single chakra, every day, until it becomes second nature for the body to express itself in a balanced way. That is what I think: Do not miss a chakra; balance every single chakra, all the way up the spine, every day.

We get to choose; we get to choose chakric balance, up and down … total chakric balance; or we get to choose imbalance, which will require relocation offplanet or else a very long timeline which brings us back into sync with the Eternal Now where we all really are.

Whatever we choose is ok, I feel. That is really all I have to say about this.

Addressing Shyness Through Behavioral Therapy or Group Therapy on the Physical Plane. I had a thought about this issue of shyness and superpowers. It seems to me that what I was talking about just then only has to do with superpowers and with balancing and rebalancing chakras. And for the shyness aspect of that syndrome, I am thinking that behavioral therapy might be useful. And also, support groups with other shy people in a physical rather than virtual setting might be good. And there may be many other ways to desensitize people to that feeling of shyness in that extreme instance of shyness syndrome. Psychology already knows about all that, I think.

As to healing therapies, in summary, I propose chakric balancing techniques be used to bring the 6th chakra, the third-eye point and seat of psychic superpowers, of the very shy person into alignment with his or her other chakras. The 6th chakra is physically very far from the lower triangle (the gut brain), and so it is not surprising that the sexual chakra may suffer when the third-eye point is overly strong. I feel this may be why extreme shyness usually manifests at the age of puberty. The amelioration technique would be to place special emphasis on rebalancing of the second chakra (the seat of sexuality). My thought is that the first and third chakras (which are also at a far distance, physically, from the third-eye point) might also require special attention with regard to chakric rebalancing.

I also propose behavioral therapy and group therapy in a physical setting to ameliorate social anxiety in the very shy person.


I wish you all the very best. I hope that all of us will proceed into the age of the Great Awakening with the most balanced chakras and the most neutral minds, and the ability to light up the world with our joy and love and peace. [smiles]

In love, light and joy,
I Am of the Stars

Image: “’Chinese Houses’ California Wildflowers,” by Alice B. Clagett, 18 April 2016, CC BY-SA 4.0

Image: “’Chinese Houses’ California Wildflowers,” by Alice B. Clagett, 18 April 2016, CC BY-SA 4.0

Image: “Southern California Mountain Trail,” by Alice B. Clagett, 18 April 2016, CC BY-SA 4.0

Image: “Southern California Mountain Trail,” by Alice B. Clagett, 18 April 2016, CC BY-SA 4.0


Link: “Shyness … or Social Anxiety Disorder?” by the Social Anxiety Institute … https://socialanxietyinstitute.org/shyness-or-social-anxiety-disorder ..


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Thoughts on the Controllers, True Power, Lightwork, and a Truer Reality . by Alice B. Clagett

Published on 12 September 2013; revised

  • The Machinations of the Controllers
  • True Power Resides in the Heart
  • Controllers Undermine Our Compassion with Religious Castration Malware
  • Lightworkers Infected with Castration Malware Are Afflicted with Hatred and Other Negative Emotions
  • On Fighting Social Injustice While Still in a State of Ego
    • A Story about Duck Hunting
    • Why Don’t We Notice Our Shadow?
    • Does the Act of Fighting Social Injustice Light Up the Heart?
  • Shall We Sacrifice Our Hearts to Conserve Goodness and Light?
  • Dynamics of the Illusion of Duality
    • The Vesica Piscis
    • Duality: I and Other
  • Alice’s Perilous Tales: Memories of Homeworld Destruction … Planet Maldek?
  • On Turning Fear of Social Isolation into an Advaita Experience
  • On Being at Peace with Things as They Are

Dear Ones,


Through entirely unintentional clairaudient eavesdropping, I’ve found in the last few years, to my dismay, that the Controllers are quite intelligent, and quite versed in human motivation. They have devious ways of using our innate human tendencies so as to take our true power away from us. I’ve described a few of the things I’ve discovered about their mode of operation below, with a view to sidestepping their machinations. These ideas may seem pretty radical to you. At least, they did to me.


My first thought is this: True power resides in the heart, and not in the navel point. The power of the heart is not Power Over Others, but the power to recognize our true nature. Our true nature is Love. When we align with our true nature, the power of all that is resides in us. So, if I want to sidestep these powerful Controllers, the only solution is to feel my heart. To feel love, gratitude, appreciation, and the like … no matter what is coming down in the illusion, no matter what drama appears to be unfolding. And even when my survival instinct is shouting: “Duck and cover! Get out the guns! Women and children, head for the hills!” And so on…


Many spiritual people live their lives in kindness and compassion, in service to others. The Controllers know about this tendency, and have developed a ploy that is exerted through organized religion, and that has to do with negative concepts about the sex drive … what in the 4D world are visualized as images of genital mutilation broadcast through the unconscious thought cloud of the world during our nightly dreamtime.

This nightly broadcasting of thoughts abhorrent to the vital body has had its effect on the world’s religions. At this moment in time, I would be hard pressed to find a religion … Judaism being one exception I can think of … that doesn’t promote negativity about the sexual act.  Some religions even go so far as to say that complete celibacy is the only true spiritual path.

What does this mental distortion of our basic sexual urge and need do? It shuts down our second chakra, our powerhouse of creativity as it is expressed in the world. It shuts off the flow of loving energy from Mother Earth to our heart. And so it deprives us of our Heart toroid energy, through which we might otherwise identify with Prime Creator and co-create the New Reality.


Consequently, in the world today, we have many spiritual people who believe they should live their lives in kindness and compassion, in service to others, and yet their hearts are full of hatred, petty spite, cruelty, jealousy, and greed. Why? Because the distortion of their sexual drive has cut off the natural flow of Earth energy, and the fourth chakra, the Heart, has quite naturally inverted. No longer the positive Powerhouse of energy … it has turned negative.

It’s simply impossible to live our lives in service to others unless we serve our own hearts first and foremost. If we have mental ideas that shut down our Divine heart energy, it’s up to us to clear those ideas. When those negative ideas are cleared, the Controllers will … trust me on this! … have no way to grasp and manipulate us. None at all.

Last night at meditation some other things became clear to me. I hope I’ll be able to convey them clearly, as they go very deep in the fabric of 3D reality.


Many lightworkers have a long history … incarnation after incarnation … of battling darkness. Deeply ingrained in their being is this value of saving the world from darkness. And more specifically, of rescuing people from darkness.  What, you might be thinking, could be wrong with this? At least, that’s what I thought.

A Story about Duck Hunting

Think of it like this. You’re at Pastorius Reservoir on a sunny Saturday morning. Weekends and Wednesdays are hunting days at the reservoir, and you’re a hunter, so there you are at one of the rickety duck blinds among the cattails on the north shore of the reservoir, with your hunting rifle and your hunting dog, and your hunter’s camouflage cap. You’re all set to shoot a few ducks and take them home to the wife for dinner.

You’re looking at the ducks sitting peacefully in the water, you’re thinking of the good of your family, whether the dog will misbehave and scare off the dinner, and a million other things. You calculate the angle of the sun and doublecheck whether your rifle is loaded. The only thing you fail to notice is how the bright sunlight is casting your own shadow like a little puddle of darkness behind you, and attached to your feet.

Image: Duck hunter aiming a gun: http://wdfw.wa.gov/hunting/waterfowl/graphics/sm_duck_hunters_blind.jpg ..

Why Don’t We Notice Our Shadow?

Why don’t we notice the darkness that is attached to us? Ego, which supports all these zillion thoughts of the mental mind, prevents it. It shapes our thoughts in the interests of the groups we adhere to, whether it be a family … as in the case of the hunter … or a religious group, or any kind of group at all.

Does the Act of Fighting Social Injustice Light Up the Heart?

Now imagine that you’re a Lightworker, and each duck is a social injustice, and you’re a member of a group that believes in fighting social injustice. So bringing home the ducks will fulfill your need for group approval.

Image: Duck hunter wading through marsh, duck in hand; hunting dog is following behind: http://www.dailyrepublic.com/files/2011/05/aDuckClub-copy.jpg ..

But will it light up the Powerhouse of your heart? No. It will fill your heart with savage exultation, and imprint your mind with a tendency to future cruel acts. And what is the true source of the social injustices? Not the ducks floating on the water, but the shadow at your feet.

It is our very desire to fit in with the groups we cherish that the controllers are using to subvert our Heart energy and cloud our thinking. To turn us from Love to savagery, war, cruelty, and hatred.


Now let’s change the scene. Let’s imagine you’re still at the duck blind at Pastorius Reservoir, same ducks, same shadow, but sans the rifle and the dog. You’re a conservationist, and you’re observing the behavior of these endangered ducks, with an aim to increasing their numbers and helping them thrive in a hostile world. This is another aspect of the Lightworker lineage: Conserving the Ducks. It’s gruelling work, but you’re in good company.

Image: Hunters up to their necks in water, with ducks swimming nearby: http://hosted-hunts.com/files/2014/04/preview-2.jpg ..

If there’s anything the Controllers would like to subvert, it’s the energy of Lightworkers, because they’ve been here for such a long time, and they’re so very close to realizing their true natures as Love. So the Controllers are pleased to see many of us Lightworkers at the duck blind, possibly cold and shivering, up to their necks in water. Not following their hearts and living their passion, but rather, bound down to a concept of duty … Whiling away their lives trying to make the world a better place.

What’s wrong with this?, I used to say. Surely this is why I’m on Earth.


The Vesica Piscis

Bill Ballard (1) was talking recently about the vesica piscis. He said that when Prime Creator decided to create the multiverse, he started with a vesica piscis. From one point, the Creator became two.

Duality: I and Other

In the picture below, imagine that one circle (‘point’) is ‘I’ … Prime Creator. Or you might say, in a 3D fragmented sense, I … my Lightworker Ego. I, Saver of Ducks. Or Hunter of Ducks, as the case may be….

The other sphere is all Creation, in the deepest sense. And in the 3D sense, it’s the ducks at Pastorius Reservoir, in whatever way my mind may be perceiving them … something to shoot down, or something to save. Or in the case of the Creator: a new way to experience Joy.

Image: “Vesica Piscis,” by Daniel B. Holean, http://www.awakenvisions.com/gallery1/VesicaPiscis.jpg ..

The interesting thing about this picture is the heart-like space in the middle, where the circles intersect. It’s as if the heart of the Creator, or in our case the great Powerhouse of our own human hearts, has been displaced from its center outward. It is this displacement of awareness toward the front of the human aura that creates the sense of duality. Awareness in 3D consists of an egoic interplay between the thought of ‘I’ and the thought of ‘Other.’

We can think of an energy flow from our own heart … which would be represented by the dot in the center of the ‘I’ circle below … to the heart of an object extraneous to ourselves … which would be the dot in the center of the ‘Other’ circle. In the world of duality, the energy flow … from ‘I’ to ‘other’ and back again … happens a zillion times a second for every object on which our mental mind places awareness:

Image: “Two red circles overlapping at center of each circle.” The center of one circle is labeled ‘I’ and the center of the other circle is labeled ‘Other’. There is a two-headed arrow in the area of overlap between the two centers; the arrow is labeled ‘my awareness’. Red circles and center dots are adapted from “Circle and Its Center,” by Zorgit, 2008, public domain; adaptation by Alice B. Clagett,  12 September 2013, CC BY-SA 4.0. –from “Thoughts on the Controllers, True Power, Lightwork, and a Truer Reality,” by Alice B. Clagett, in “I Am of the Stars,” https://www.iamofthestars.com

Image: “Two red circles overlapping at center of each circle.” The center of one circle is labeled ‘I’ and the center of the other circle is labeled ‘Other’. There is a two-headed arrow in the area of overlap between the two centers; the arrow is labeled ‘my awareness’. Red circles and center dots are adapted from “Circle and Its Center,” by Zorgit, 2008, public domain; adaptation by Alice B. Clagett,  12 September 2013, CC BY-SA 4.0

What’s wrong with this picture? The difficulty is that our awareness is flowing off-center and outward to a fictional mental construct, something ‘other than’ the Divine I AM.

. . . . .


Last night, during meditation, as in many meditations past, I could feel my physical body being jerked forward, again and again, into a momentary state of unconsciousness, drawn forward into the Awareness of another being. Each time I jerked upright, into conscious awareness, my Awareness recentered in my heart. I kept thinking, “Just cut this cord with the Other! Just be You, in your own centered awareness!”

Each time I thought that, I was overcome by a feeling of anxiety. I saw a vision of the planet I was observing from a space vehicle, aeons ago, exploding in the night sky. Everyone and everything I ever knew or loved, annihilated in one single moment of unimaginable destruction. With the exception of the being who then stood beside me, observing from space, a fellow freedom fighter, born Maldekian whereas I was of Venutian lineage … a being whose Lightworker destiny has been interwoven with mine down through the interminable aeons since that time.

To whom has my heart unconsciously reached out, again and again? To the only other survivor of that catastrophe. One whom I met again, here on Earth, a little over a decade ago. The only known constant in all my incarnations as a Lightworker.


In my subconscious mind, through the long incarnations, this other being had come to represent my overarching concept of Other. During the meditation, when I tried to stop the jerking back and forth of my awareness, I was overwhelmed by a vast sense of loss … the loss of my home world and all the beings in it. This remembered feeling of utter desperation, of darkest despair, of utter failure in my mission would drive me into an unconscious state.

The accompanying thought was: If I cease the flow of awareness, back and forth from me to this other being, then for sure that being will die. And all I have ever loved will have wilted and died at my hand, through my failure to protect them all. My family! My friends! My world! All gone, gone forever….

There’s no getting around it. This was some pretty heavy subconscious stuff-and-nonsense. But finally, in light of God that filled the meditation room, I summoned the courage to stop the outward–inward flow. And to my utter astonishment, it turned out that the other being … and all this New World as well … far from passing away … now existed within my own heart … and not in some desperate outside drama of times past or the transformation that this new world … Earth … my new home, is now going through.


It came to me in a flash. There is no need to shoot anyone down. No need to save anyone. Everything is all right, just as it is! Wild but true.

Image: “The Treasure Within” by Mary Southard. This is a beautiful art piece depicting a woman with long, flowing hair, tenderly encircling Earth: http://www.marysouthardart.org/wp-content/uploads/2015/11/We-Hold-a-Treasure-The-Treasures-Witihin-3-1024×797.jpg ..

So it seems there is much to love and cherish, but all within the context of the great I AM. Who is loving and cherishing? God does that work. What is my role in all this?  

My role is to be quiet, and offer myself with calmness and confidence, for service to the God. To trust that God will guide me. Stay centered in my heart. Know that the ducks of this 3D world, and the shadow beneath my 3D feet, are not the Real Deal. Far from it. What’s really happening? Me, my heart, and the Divine Will.

. . . . .

In love, light and joy,
I Am of the Stars


(1) This is a totally cool video …

Video: “Integrating Lord Metatron with Meline LaFont,” by Bill Ballard, 1 September 2013, http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UCCnpxhscSg ..


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