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Alice’s Perilous Tales: Fatal Dungeons and Dragons Game? . by Alice B. Clagett

Partially excerpted on 23 April 2020 from blogs filmed on 15 March 2018 and on 20 November 2016; revised on 11 June 2020
Previously titled: The Talisman  … and …  Fatal Dungeons and Dragons Game?

  • INTRODUCTION
  • ALICE’S PERILOUS TALES: SIGHTING AT NAVAJO STATE PARK IN COLORADO
  • ALICE’S PERILOUS TALES: SIGHTING IN GRANTS, NEW MEXICO
  • ALICE’S PERILOUS TALES: THE ROCKING BUS WITH THE GIZMOS ON TOP
  • ALICE’S PERILOUS TALES: TWO OMINOUS ‘MOVIE CREW’ ENCOUNTERS
    • 29-Flavor Barbecue
    • Franciscan Capuchin Friars or Actors?
      • Lead-Up to the Event
      • Sidebar: Just Say No! to Drug Use in Malibu Creek State Park and at King Gillette Ranch
      • Sighting of a Movie Crew and Men Dressed as Friars
  • FATAL DUNGEONS AND DRAGONS GAME? INDIE SNUFF FILM CAPER?
    • Tie-in to Dylan Redwine Murder Mystery
  • LOOKS LIKE MY STALKER HIGHTAILED IT!

Dear Ones,

INTRODUCTION

In the year 2015 I vacationed in Durango, Colorado. For some while I had had an uneasy feeling I was being stalked. In the years 2009 and on, as I grieved over my mother’s death, it had been a vague feeling, an occasional heads up, to be very aware of my surroundings and whether there might be dangers to avoid.

But that year in Durango, it became a clear and present concern. It became evident to me I was being hunted by a serial killer … or so it seemed to me at the time. Why I had been marked, and who the stalker was, remained a mystery. It could be there never is a rational reason for such a thing.

The events that unfolded for me in 2015 through 2017 were ably and uncannily portrayed the following year in the movie “Unsane,” which mirrored the stark terror and sense of remorseless pursuit I felt as the intended victim of a serial killer …

Video: “Unsane | Official Trailer #1 | 2018,” by 20th Century Studios UK, 29 January 2018 …  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SyWnHdHrlrw ..

I guess it must have been that stalking by serial killers was ‘in the air’ during those years 2015 through 2017, and that the 2018 movie helped clear the astral airs and settle the Dark energy thread I had been sensing. Whatever the context, here is my tale of some of my ‘close encounters’ during those years …

ALICE’S PERILOUS TALES: SIGHTING AT NAVAJO STATE PARK IN COLORADO

I was at Navajo State Park southeast of Durango, Colorado, a place I often visited. I sighted a man who seemed to be wearing a beard he had fabricated of public hairs. When he drove into the parking lot of the less developed campground there, I felt a sense of mortal peril, and quickly took evasive action. Here is the spine-tingling tale …

Link: “Alice’s Perilous Tales: The Man With the Pubic Hair Beard,” by Alice B. Clagett, published on 30 January 2019; revised on 11 June 2020 … https://wp.me/p2Rkym-bvu ..

ALICE’S PERILOUS TALES: SIGHTING IN GRANTS, NEW MEXICO

That was not the first time I had run into the man with the pubic hair beard. Prior to that I had spotted him in the parking lot of a Motel 6 in Grants, New Mexico.

He was sitting in one of two big, brightly colored road maintenance vehicles, each used to haul two backhoes maybe orange in color. He was wearing a fake, black, bushy goatee. It seemed to me that I recognized him from several other occasions; he seemed to be someone I had met, only wearing an improbable disguise and sitting in an equally improbable vehicle.

As I recall, that was on 18 June 2015; I was on my way to Espanola, New Mexico, for the summer solstice celebration there. I called right away and informed law enforcement in Grants about my concern, but by the time they got to the motel, the road equipment and the man with the fake black goatee were gone.

Why the people and equipment would have taken off in the late afternoon, I do not know. I usually do the opposite; I arrive at a motel in late afternoon with intent to spend the night. Mysterious stuff was going on.

I recall two other vehicles disappeared from the Motel 6 parking lot simultaneous with the road maintenance vehicles late that afternoon … one was a pickup truck holding a dune buggy. Another was a sedan with Los Angeles license plates that had been parked by a man or men renting the motel room just beneath that which I had priorly booked. The Los Angeles sedan was, as I recall, the only vehicle parked on that side of the building when I checked in. Could be it was a rental car; and most likely this was a just a coincidence …

Image: “Kia Sedan License Plate 7LBC852 Parked Beneath the Motel 6 Room I Booked in Grants, New Mexico,” by Alice B. Clagett, 18 June 2015 … CC BY-SA 4.0 … COMMENT: I checked this license plate online in about 2019; my source stated that the license plate was not registered to anyone.

Image: “Kia Sedan License Plate 7LBC852 Parked Beneath the Motel 6 Room I Booked in Grants, New Mexico,” by Alice B. Clagett, 18 June 2015 … CC BY-SA 4.0 … COMMENT: I checked this license plate online in about 2019; my source stated that the license plate was not registered to anyone.

ALICE’S PERILOUS TALES: THE ROCKING BUS WITH THE GIZMOS ON TOP

After the road maintenance vehicles had left the Motel 6 parking lot, a converted schoolbus pulled into their spot alongside the motel fence. I could see the vehicle from the window of the second-floor motel room to which I had changed. It was painted oddly … was it blue, or grey? … The windows were painted over too. On the roof of the bus were several disc-shaped gizmos about four feet in diameter.

Later in the evening I had the oddest feeling of inhospitable incoming energy waves. I wondered if the gizmos on the bus might be emitting short-wave energy? Why would that possibly be, I wondered?  Were they broadcasting something, maybe? Looking out the window of my room, I could see the schoolbus bouncing … bouncing?! … up and down. I thought I could hear the muffled voices of women chanting inside the bus. There was a thickish ‘shimmer’ of energy in the air above the bus. How surpassingly strange this was!

The next day I headed off to Espanola, New Mexico, intending to participate in the 3HO Summer Solstice event that takes place every year there. I recall I got to my location uneventfully. The parking lot is a high desert meadow; when I parked there I noticed the same bus with the inverted discs on top of it, parked in the lot.

That was a heads up for me, and a first in the many years I had been to the Summer Solstice event. It turned out to be a reasonable omen, as a Dark Attack unfolded in the next hour that made me forfeit my event fee in favor of timely escape to safety …

Link: “Summer Solstice 2015: A Mahabharata Vision,” by Alice B. Clagett, filmed on 21 June 2015; revised on 25 November 2017 and 23 April 2020 … https://wp.me/p2Rkym-6KQ … see the heading: A MAHABHARATA VISION AT SUMMER SOLSTICE 2015

The incident I described in the blog section “A MAHABHARATA VISION AT SUMMER SOLSTICE 2015” may have had to do with the painted bus with gizmos on the roof. That explanation seems quite a reach to me, though. I prefer the notion of a solar event … maybe a strong solar wind, or an incoming coronal mass ejection … which has more of heaven than hell in the telling of it.

ALICE’S PERILOUS TALES: TWO OMINOUS ‘MOVIE CREW’ ENCOUNTERS

The mysterious events that unfolded in Grants, New Mexico, and Espanola, New Mexico, were not two of a kind, but rather two of a series of physical incidents that took place both before and after summer 2015.

Here, for instance, are two such perilous tales that took place in greater Los Angeles after the Grants and Espanola capers. The first took place in Fish Canyon Narrows near Santa Clarita, and the second in Malibu Creek State Park in the Santa Monica Mountains …

In both instances a group of automobiles full of people showed up just after I arrived at usually relatively deserted trailheads I planned to hike. These batches of automobiles somehow reminded me of movie crews, which are often seen filming here in Southern California.

In most cases, movie crews are accompanied by trailers for makeup or to provide food for the crews, but in these instance there were no trailers; thus I may have been mistaken in thinking the incidents had to do with the entertainment industry.

29-Flavor Barbecue? 

One instance of what might have been a movie actor run-in happened on 23 April 2016. It had to do with what seemed to be two rangers, or maybe forest workers, who parked off Templin Highway near Castaic, California, close to the Fish Canyon Narrows trailhead which leads to the abandoned Cienaga Campground. Here are photos of the men’s vehicles, and also of my white vehicle and a blue car that parked there …

Image: “Vehicles Parked Near the Intersection of Templin Highway and Los Angeles City Water and Power Road, Los Angeles County,” by Alice B. Clagett, 23 April 2016, CC BY-SA 4.0 … DESCRIPTION: These vehicles were parked where hikers park to hike the Fish Canyon Narrows trailhead, north of Castaic Lake, California.

Image: “Vehicles Parked Near the Intersection of Templin Highway and Los Angeles City Water and Power Road, Los Angeles County,” by Alice B. Clagett, 23 April 2016, CC BY-SA 4.0 …

DESCRIPTION: These vehicles were parked where hikers park to hike the Fish Canyon Narrows trailhead, north of Castaic Lake, California.

When I saw these two men I had an odd feeling, so I asked them if it was safe to hike the trail. They said that I would probably be safe, but that I ought to be careful. That was a partial ‘heads up’ for me. Here is a photo of the vehicle driven by one of the men with whom I talked ….

Image: “Sheriff’s Office Vehicle Parked Near the Intersection of Templin Highway and Los Angeles City Water and Power Road, Los Angeles County,” by Alice B. Clagett, 23 April 2016, CC BY-SA 4.0 … DESCRIPTION: As I recall, this was the vehicle driven by one of the men I talked with about whether nearby Fish Canyon Narrows trail was safe to hike.

Image: “Sheriff’s Office Vehicle Parked Near the Intersection of Templin Highway and Los Angeles City Water and Power Road, Los Angeles County,” by Alice B. Clagett, 23 April 2016, CC BY-SA 4.0 …

DESCRIPTION: As I recall, this was the vehicle driven by one of the men I talked with about whether nearby Fish Canyon Narrows trail was safe to hike.

As I turned to hike down to the trailhead, maybe 10 cars packed with people went past me. I had never seen any traffic to speak of on that road, which is usually as deserted as it was in this photo taken that day …

Image: “Intersection of Templin Highway and Los Angeles City Water and Power Road, Los Angeles County,” by Alice B. Clagett, 23 April 2016, CC BY-SA 4.0 … DESCRIPTION: Foreground: Templin Highway. Far left: Locked gate that allows access to Fish Canyon Narrows trailhead, north of Castaic Lake, California, but prevents access by most vehicular traffic. To the left of the locked gate, and not visible in the photos, is the parking area for hikers. Top center: Los Angeles City Water and Power Road. This road goes down along the west side of Tailrace Canal and Elderberry Forebay, then east to the intersection of Goodell Fire Road. The latter runs along the east side of Tailrace Canal, Elderberry Forebay, and the northern portion of Castaic Lake.

The experience of many cars packed with people arriving just after I did somehow set me on guard. So I thought I would wait for awhile, and see ‘how the wind blew’.

As I waited, I had the strangest astral vision … like an omen … of a film crew in a wilderness setting, with actors, male and female, sitting around a lifeless female body, preparing for a cannibal act featuring 29 flavors of barbecue sauce.

Then I saw this damaged street sign by the road, which somehow seemed to reinforce the ‘ill wind’ I had sensed …

Image: “Damaged Road Sign by Templin Highway Near the Intersection of Templin Highway and Los Angeles City Water and Power Road, Los Angeles County,” by Alice B. Clagett, 23 April 2016, CC BY-SA 4.0 … DESCRIPTION: This road sign was by Templin Highway north of Castaic Lake, California. That was close to the Fish Canyon Narrows trailhead.

Yikes! Was I ever suddenly ‘on guard’.

After awhile, all the cars, still loaded with people, came back up the hill and went away. I know it was not much to go on … just a few odd details of that day … but these days I have become more observant of what might be termed signs and omens. So I gave up on that hike and went off to another trailhead.

The title of this poem I composed some years later had to do with the vision I had that day while playing the ‘waiting game’ at my parking place off Templin Highway …

Link: “Cannibal Song: The 29-Flavor Barbecue . aka Ogreish Stew,” a poem by Alice B. Clagett, written on 2 May 2019; published on 2 May 2019 … https://wp.me/p2Rkym-cwW ..

The person described in the poem, however, was part of a different astral saga.

Franciscan Capuchin Friars or Actors?

Another instance took place on 12 June 2017 in one of the parking areas of Malibu Creek State Park in the Santa Monica Mountains. The lead-up to the event was like this …

Lead-Up to the Event. In the year 2016, I had been encountering people behaving strangely across the road from Malibu Creek State Park, on the grounds of King Gillette Ranch, Calabasas, California, which is the property of the Mountains Recreation and Conservation Authority.

The Anthony C. Beilenson Interagency Visitor Center, which is managed by the park services that have to do with the Santa Monica Mountains National Recreation Area, is located on the grounds of King Gillette Ranch.

Movie crews often film movies at both King Gillette Ranch and Malibu Creek State Park. It seemed possible to me that their presence at these two adjacent parks might have had something to do with what unfolded.

In 2016 I had encountered a chatty, somewhat overweight, middle-aged visitor to the Anthony C. Beilenson Interagency Visitor Center. He said he was a photographer and that he was well known to the people at King Gillette Ranch.

His feeling … his emotional affect … was ‘in front of him’; it seemed to me he was compelled to action, and that action might have been sexual in nature. Or so it seemed. That is to say, I got the intuitive ‘heads up’ about this person, who seemed to be following me up the hiking trail after I left the Visitor Center. When the man started to take a shortcut across a meadow to intersect me, I doubled back towards the maintenance station on the grounds.

Outside the maintenance station I encountered a man I presumed to be the ranger there; that man sternly told me that taking photos on the grounds was prohibited. It seemed to me he was defending the other man, who had tried to intersect me, and of whom I felt afraid. It seemed as if he was demanding I not take a photo of that man. Further, I had never heard about a rule that a person cannot take photographs on Mountains Recreation and Conservation Authority parkland. Thus his behavior seemed eccentric to me … out of place, in a way.

Then when I got back to my car I saw a tall, spare, middle-aged man with a telephoto lens. He opened his car trunk, which was completely empty and spiffily clean, and put the camera in the trunk. Then he left.

I cannot quite put my finger on it, but I was spooked by the behavior of these three people. A few days later I went to Malibu Creek State Park, and spoke with the young man who staffed the entry kiosk about my concerns. That man said he thought it had to do with cocaine use at that time.

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Sidebar: Just Say No! to Drug Use in Malibu Creek State Park and at King Gillette Ranch

As time went on, I contacted LAPD (the Los Angeles Police Department) about possible cocaine use at King Gillette Ranch and at Malibu Creek State Park. I remember talking to a male ranger behind the desk at C. Beilenson Interagency Visitor Center about my concern that cocaine not be used in Santa Monica Mountains parklands. I recall the ranger did not take it so well; he looked taken aback.

Nevertheless, I feel it is good to express our concern in this regard; I encourage all the Sierra Club members to do so. For instance, I have often see empty marijuana vials in the picnic areas near the Malibu Creek Rock Pools. If drinking alcohol in the parks is not allowed, then along that same line of thought, I feel it reasonable not to allow drug use, whether marijuana or cocaine or other recreational drugs. Some may disagree, but that is my stance on the issue.

We ought to keep our parks safe for our campers and hikers, and for family outings. I read there was a murder at the campground at Malibu Creek State Park on 22 June 2018, and that the campground has been closed since then. Were there no drug use on park lands, perhaps that and similar acts of violence might have been averted, I feel.

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Sighting of a Movie Crew and Men Dressed as Friars. The main event along these lines took place on 12 June 2017 in Malibu Creek State Park in the Santa Monica Mountains.

I drove up to the entry kiosk of Malibu Creek State Park, intending to go for a hike. I was apprehensive (whether justifiably so or not) about movie crews and other folks possibly acting weirdly because they were on cocaine. I asked the ranger manning the kiosk whether any movie crews were filming there that day. The ranger said no, that the park was nearly deserted that day.

I paid my entrance fee and began to drive past the first parking lot. As I did so, a caravan of ten or more cars drove past the entry kiosk. As I had never encountered such a big caravan of cars there, I pulled over to see what might be up.

Most of the cars pulled into the first parking lot. I could see there were both men and women getting out of the cars. I saw several women who were middle-aged, but with very nice figures; I thought they might have been actors in their early years, and might now be working as film crew. I wondered if this might be a movie crew from across the road at King Gillette Ranch?

The front car from the caravan continued along the road towards the campground. I noticed with a chilling feeling the Caucasian man riding shotgun, whose long, lanky, sunburned forearm was resting on the sill of the open, passenger-side window of the car.

It reminded me of the forearm of a man on the passenger side of a silver Volvo, license plate #5LUF325, that loitered in front of my house while I was at a Joshua Tree concert on 9 September 2016. As I recall, the driver of the car that loitered near my house more than six feet tall and well-built; I could not see, though, what the man driving the car in Malibu Creek State Park looked like. Here are the photos of the loitering vehicle (Topanga LAPD were called about it back then) …

Image: “Silver Toyota Sedan – License Plate #5LUF325,” first photo taken on 9 September 2016 … CC??

Image: “Silver Toyota Sedan – License Plate #5LUF325,” first photo taken on 9 September 2016 … CC??

Image: “Silver Toyota Sedan – License Plate #5LUF325,” second photo taken on 9 September 2016 … CC??

Image: “Silver Toyota Sedan – License Plate #5LUF325,” second photo taken on 9 September 2016 … CC??

Mulling over the caravan and the man’s arm, I went and parked in the second parking lot. There I encountered three men dressed as friars. This was so unusual, in my experience of hiking Malibu Creek, that I took a snapshot of them, then abandoned my idea of hiking and left the park with cautious haste …

Image: Men dressed as Capuchin Franciscan monks at Malibu Creek State Park, by Alice B. Clagett, 12 June 2017, CC BY-SA 4.0 … DESCRIPTION: Left: restroom wall and park bench. From left: seven men, three of whom are dressed as Capuchin Franciscan monks. All the men are standing with their backs to the camera except for the rightmost, who has a beard; his face is blurred. Background: Trees and mountains … COMMENT: As I recall, about five cars full of people (both men and women) drove in and parked in the upper parking lot for hikers right after I arrived at the Park. Just after that, I photographed these men near the restroom in the lower parking lot for hikers. I searched online and found Capuchin Franciscan clothing for sale, so these may not have been bona fide monks, but only men dressed as monks.

Image: Men dressed as Capuchin Franciscan monks at Malibu Creek State Park, by Alice B. Clagett, 12 June 2017, CC BY-SA 4.0 …

DESCRIPTION: Left: restroom wall and park bench. From left: seven men, three of whom are dressed as Capuchin Franciscan monks. All the men are standing with their backs to the camera except for the rightmost, who has a beard; his face is blurred. Background: Trees and mountains …

COMMENT: As I recall, about five cars full of people (both men and women) drove in and parked in the upper parking lot for hikers right after I arrived at the Park. Just after that, I photographed these men near the restroom in the lower parking lot for hikers. I searched online and found Capuchin Franciscan clothing for sale, so these may not have been bona fide monks, but only men dressed as monks.

Back home I hoped to solve the mystery of the friars at Malibu Creek State Park. Here is what I found out through an online search …

It appeared they were wearing Franciscan Capuchin Friar outfits. There is no such monastery nearby, so I wrote to the Franciscan Capuchin Friars near San Francisco, to find out whether they might identify my photo of the men I saw, but I never heard back from them about it.

I also checked into Franciscan Capuchin Friar outfits, and found they are for sale online; that would fit with the notion of actors, or a movie crew.

HYPOTHESIS OF THE FATAL DUNGEONS AND DRAGONS GAME

The odd events of 2015 to 2017 led me to the notion that I was being stalked by a cocaine addict. Who could this man be, I wondered? To what end, I asked myself?

These repetitive close encounters of a perilous nature led me to posit I might have been marked as the victim in a fatal Dungeons and Dragons Meetup Game originating in Los Angeles, possibly amongst male actors or men aspiring to be actors. I recall wondering if such a meetup might have been started by unemployed actors as an inexpensive way to produce Indie snuff films.

Tie-in to Dylan Redwine Murder Mystery

I began to wonder: Might the odd events I experienced have been related to the mysterious death of Dylan Redwine near Durango, Colorado? For more on this hypothesis, see …

Link: “Compendium: Dylan Redwine Murder Mystery – Child Torture for Snuff Film Industry?” by Alice B. Clagett, published on 22 February 2020; revised on 23 April 2020 … https://wp.me/p2Rkym-gz4 ..

LOOKS LIKE MY STALKER HIGHTAILED IT!

I may never know whether my hypotheses of the Fatal Dungeons and Dragons Game and of Indie Snuff Film Capers were true, but I can say, with gratitude, that the feeling I was being stalked and that I was not safe in my own home came to a sudden end in December 2016, after my return to Los Angeles.

The occasion of this sudden change-up was the installation of a surveillance system in my home; from this I gathered that my stalker was a wanted man, who could not afford to have his face on camera.

In the ensuing two years, stalking issues in Los Angeles and while hiking became less and less of a concern. I feel this may have had to do with my no longer taking a cell phone with me when I went out. It is possible I was being tracked through some high-tech geolocation malware to do with my cell phone.

In love, light and joy,
I Am of the Stars

The first paragraph of an earlier version of this blog has been moved to … Link: “Alice’s Perilous Tales: The Man With the Pubic Hair Beard,” by Alice B. Clagett, published on 30 January 2019; revised on 11 June 2020 … https://wp.me/p2Rkym-bvu ..

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Dark Love Triangle 2 . by Alice B. Clagett

Filmed on 19 January 2020; published on 23 January 2020

Image: “Dark Love Triangle: Alpha Female or ‘Cheerleader’ and Two Men Who Love Her,” adapted and compiled by Alice B. Clagett, 20 April 2021, CC BY-SA 4.0 … CREDITS: Image: “Two Men,” by Edgar Degas, ca. 1865-1869, in Wikimedia Commons … https://commons.wikimedia.org/wiki/File:Two_Men_MET_DT6944.jpg … CC0 1.0 Universal; and from Image: “Woman Standing by a Tree,” by Pierre-Auguste Renoir, 1866, in Wikimedia Commons … https://commons.wikimedia.org/wiki/File:Woman_Standing_by_a_Tree_G-001652-20120801.jpg … public domain … DESCRIPTION: A woman in a long white dress and wearing a black hat stands between two men formally attired in a dark drawing room … COMMENT: This is the kind of Dark Love Triangle where a woman wants the romantic attention of two (or more) men. She will destroy male-female romantic relationships so as to accumulate a second man in her ‘portmanteau’. Another name for this behavior is ‘The Cheerleader’ … a woman who lords it over other women, and towards whom they feel envy because the men they love fall head over heels for her. This behavior is typical of alpha females.

Image: “Dark Love Triangle: Alpha Female or ‘Cheerleader’ and Two Men Who Love Her,” adapted and compiled by Alice B. Clagett, 20 April 2021, CC BY-SA 4.0 …

CREDITS: Image: “Two Men,” by Edgar Degas, ca. 1865-1869, in Wikimedia Commons … https://commons.wikimedia.org/wiki/File:Two_Men_MET_DT6944.jpg … CC0 1.0 Universal; and from Image: “Woman Standing by a Tree,” by Pierre-Auguste Renoir, 1866, in Wikimedia Commons … https://commons.wikimedia.org/wiki/File:Woman_Standing_by_a_Tree_G-001652-20120801.jpg … public domain …

DESCRIPTION: A woman in a long white dress and wearing a black hat stands between two men formally attired in a dark drawing room …

COMMENT: This is the kind of Dark Love Triangle where a woman wants the romantic attention of two (or more) men. She will destroy male-female romantic relationships so as to accumulate a second man in her ‘portmanteau’. Another name for this behavior is ‘The Cheerleader’ … a woman who lords it over other women, and towards whom they feel envy because the men they love fall head over heels for her. This behavior is typical of alpha females.

  • VIDEO BY ALICE
  • SUMMARY OF THE VIDEO
    • Dream About a Man Who Searched for the Mother He Had Lost in Everyone He Met [re ‘Likes Blondes Too’]
    • The Same Man in a Dark Love Triangle Setting [re ‘Likes Blondes Too’]
    • Is the Dark Love Triangle an Attempt to Resolve Issues with Mother and Father?
    • Results of Using the Affirmation: May no one hear anything at all from me!
    • Placing Awareness on the Eighth Chakra Can Reveal Our Karmic Metaprograms
    • Back to the Story: Other Thoughts on Why a Dark Love Triangle Might Occur
    • Definition of ‘Dark Love Triangle’
    • On the Intimate Man-Woman Relationship and Lifetime Mating Instinct as a Feral Drive
    • Concluding Thoughts

Dear Ones,

Here is a video about a dream I had on the theme of the Dark Love Triangle. There is an edited Summary after the video …

VIDEO BY ALICE

SUMMARY OF THE VIDEO

Hello, Dear Ones, It’s Alice. I Am of the Stars.

I have a story to tell you based on astral stories and very deep, dreamtime realm dreams that came up last night. I have already recorded it. I found out that I was figuring it out as I recorded it. So, in several instances during the recording, I went back to events that had happened priorly, and then attempted to explain. I would like to apologize for the disjointed nature of this video, and hope that something more easily understood comes of it in times to come. It is a story about the Dark Love Triangle.

Last night I had a series of dreams that were pretty traumatic for me, that did not have to do with me. They were sort of looking into other people’s dream realms. That visualization of other people’s dreams happened through concentration on my own eighth chakra, and clearing of my own eighth chakra, while lying on my back in corpse pose.

Dream About a Man Who Searched for the Mother He Had Lost in Everyone He Met [re ‘Likes Blondes Too’]

One story went like this: There was a man who had very little memory of his mother when he was young. She must have left the family when he was very young. So in the very early stages of his youth he was missing the maternal protective feeling of a mother being there. Although his father was there, his mother apparently was not.

That lack of the mother has led him all his life to search for the mother in all the people he sees. And it has colored his interactions with men and women in such a way that he has created a series of dream images that he superimposes on all the relationships he has in life, so as to try to find the maternal energy, and unite it with the father energy, at the same time that he is looking for romantic love.

The Same Man in a Dark Love Triangle Setting [re ‘Likes Blondes Too’]

I have hesitated to talk about this because it is ‘catching’, and I feel I have, in fact, seen other people ‘catching’ this same malware sequence … a very complicated one regarding Dark Love Triangles, about which I have written in past times …

Link: “Dark Love Triangle 1,” by Alice B. Clagett, written on 20 November 2017, 27 December 2017, and 3 February 2018 … https://wp.me/p2Rkym-8in ..

I will just talk about last night’s dream: It had to do with a married man and a woman … in fact, the same two that were in the dream about the severed wedding ring finger …

Link: “The Wedding Ring,” by Alice B. Clagett, filmed on 19 January 2020; published on 22 January 2020 … https://wp.me/p2Rkym-g9k ..

The man who lacked a mother in his early youth also was in the dream. His hope was to allow the woman to have sexual relief, so that their marriage could go on, even though ‘the father’ (the woman’s husband) was very, very angry. That makes me think that whatever happened in his youth with regard to the mother had to do with his own father’s violent anger against her.

I will call that other man … the man who lacked a mother in his early youth … ‘the third man’. And then there are the husband and wife. In his dream world, the third man got together with this couple, and he was cogitating about what to do so as to allow her to feel safe to be able to release her sexual energy that night, and at the same time to prevent the husband from venting his violent, angry subconscious imagery in real life upon her.

And the thing of it is that his dreaming, eighth chakra self came up with was … maybe you will make more sense out of this than I do; to me, it is still not clear … he needed to divert the angry energy of the husband, and then make love to the wife, from his heart chakra.

Is the Dark Love Triangle an Attempt to Resolve Issues with Mother and Father?

So if those two represent his father and mother in the unresolved childhood trauma, then that might mean that, in his relationships with women he is looking towards mother-lover Oedipal complex. In this case, through his loving interaction on the astral plane with the wife, he may be looking to relieve her sexual energy, which had been damaged that day by a kind of a ‘rape’ situation where the husband became very, very angry, and then demanded to have anal intercourse with his wife. And so the woman in question felt that she had been angrily assaulted, in a manner of speaking, even though the man was her husband.

Results of Using the Affirmation: May no one hear anything at all from me!

So there is that; a lot happened, it seems, on the astral plane yesterday and last night. I think this had to do with a new affirmation I have invented: May no one hear anything at all from me! … something like that.

That then creates a quietness in my own energy field. And so, instead of projecting their negative emotions on me and others, people start hearing what the personal issues are, especially amongst married couples, and then they start resolving them. There may be a lot of unresolved anger on both sides, that is projected towards other people (such as Lightworkers) so that the marriage can continue, without straining it through venting of negative emotions.

Placing Awareness on the Eighth Chakra Can Reveal Our Karmic Metaprograms

Where was I? … [laughs] … Back to the story: The third man knew about all that. The eighth chakra does this. It is very wise; it knows the metaprograms of karma and so forth. It knows the major plays that are keeping people on Earth, trying to figure out certain types of Soul wisdom. And it knows this about other people’s metaprograms too, it seems, in some cases.

Back to the Story: Other Thoughts on Why a Dark Love Triangle Might Occur

Or maybe those two were interacting because of the childhood trauma of the third person being similar to the trauma that this married couple had gone through yesterday. (You can see this is a reach for me!) So the third person had the idea that he could feel loving sexual thoughts towards the wife, and at the same time ask the husband to relate to him in a sexual way, as if he were sodomizing the third person at the same time as the third person was creating a sexual relief situation for the wife.

Definition of ‘Dark Love Triangle’

This I call a ‘Dark Love Triangle’: When three people have to be involved in what otherwise might be an intimate mating situation between a man and woman.

On the Intimate Man-Woman Relationship and Lifetime Mating Instinct as a Feral Drive

Even sparrows and other types of birds have the ability to mate together for life. And people have that ability too. Of course, sometimes there are terrible upsets in this, the third dimension. Sometimes someone passes on. Sometimes a person is lost to another person because of physical distance. All kinds of things can happen, that break the lifetime mating bond.

But still the ability to express that bond exists. And the chance exists for the person to express that bond through union with another person. And this, in my feeling, is the most clear-cut and straightforward way of relating to another person with regard to sex.

It has its basis in biology. It has its basis in the feral drives; and that adheres one person to another in a mating drive that carries with it both the subconscious and the conscious mind, and unites the person as one, whole, loving being feeling that love towards one other person; that is what I feel. That is why the Dark Love Triangle is an upset to me.

Concluding Thoughts

I am trusting that those of you with greater psychological and psychiatric experience than I have, to try to figure out what is ‘up’ with this, and to try to help those many people that I have observed, that do experience, throughout their lives, the Dark Love Triangle.

All right, you all; that is enough ‘jawing’ for one day. I will talk to you later.

In love, light and joy,
I Am of the Stars

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Soul Wounding: On Seeing Suffering as Good . by Alice B. Clagett

Filmed on 27 August 2016; published on 28 September 2016

  • VIDEO BY ALICE
  • SUMMARY OF THE VIDEO
    • Catastrophic Childhood Experience: Genital Mutilation of a Young Boy by a Parent [re ‘Castratrux – Basal Vampire’]
      • Cruelty as Being ‘For Your Own Good’
      • The Notion That the End Justifies the Means
        • Eugenics Experiments
      • Acting Out Soul Wounding
      • Other Instances of Catastrophic Childhood Learning: One Parent Kills the Other, or Child Is Kept in Closet or Chained to Bed [re ‘Likes Blondes Too’ and ‘Spoil’s]
      • Daydream about Felon Eugenics Experiment [re ‘Castratrux – Basal Vampire’]
        • On Reprogramming Early Childhood Learning
    • Second Catastrophic Childhood Learning Experience: Substitute Mom Murdered [re ‘Likes Blondes Too’]
      • On Becoming Acquainted with the Inner Child
    • Third Catastrophic Childhood Learning Experience: Thought That Having Sex Might Kill a Woman [re ‘The Maldekian’r]
    • Conclusion
    • Photos by Alice
  • OUTLINE OF THE VIDEO

Dear Ones,

This video and the edited Summary and Outline that follow it are about some astral stories I have heard on the clair plane, to do with Soul wounding experiences which teach a child that suffering is good, or that the end justifies the means. All these accounts are from clair hearing, not from the physical realm …

There is information in this summary that’s not in the video, and vice versa. All these accounts are from clair hearing, not from the physical realm …

VIDEO BY ALICE

SUMMARY OF THE VIDEO

Hello, Dear Ones, It’s Alice. I Am of the Stars.

I wanted to talk a little about a childhood wounding experience that I ran into only on the astral plane, and which seems very severe. There are a number of these, actually, about which I would like to talk.

Catastrophic Childhood Experience: Genital Mutilation of a Young Boy by a Parent [re ‘Castratrux – Basal Vampire’]

You know, all children go through a phase in their childhood where they are learning about their sexuality. And typically they learn about it from their sisters and brothers or from their playmates, without a lot of adult supervision.

In this case there was a young boy who was learning about sexuality from his sister … his younger sister, I assume. When his father found out about it, he mutilated the boy’s genitals. In that action he also expressed verbally that he was doing it ‘for the child’s own good’ … for his own benefit, and for his ethical development as a person. Of course, this is a massive distortion of the Light.

The things that are for our own good in the world, and for the good of our Souls, inevitably involve great joy. So the optimal path for Soul evolution involves the pursuit of happiness, and joy, and love, and Light … appreciation and gratitude and so forth; the cultivation of those emotions, and not the intense suffering and social stigma involved in genital mutilation. This is the very farthest from the way for a father to raise his children … the farthest from the Light.

Cruelty as Being ‘For Your Own Good’. So then, at a very young age this young person learned this very hard lesson to the effect that suffering and physical mutilation and self-hatred … hatred of the body … were good for the Soul, good for the character, and good for a person’s ethics. This was a completely wrong thing.

This lack of genitals also cast him into the role of homosexual for the rest of his life. He had not the ability to carry out the normal sex act, that he was inclined to perform as a man. So he was forced into a role rather like that of a woman.

This was a further distortion of his Light that involved going against his own principles, going against his own desires, and so forth. He had to deal with all these things. In doing so he came to an understanding, at a more mature age … a false understanding based on these false learning experiences of his youth … the great Soul wounding of his youth … and no doubt, of many prior lifetimes … that cruelty to people was ‘for their own good’. For more on this notion of cruelty being ‘for one’s own good’, see …

Link: “Selfless Service as Suffering or Alms-Giving,” by Alice B. Clagett, Filmed on 28 August 2016; published on 30 September 2018 … https://wp.me/p2Rkym-6cJ ..

The Notion That the End Justifies the Means. There is a form of ethics out there that has to do, in a similar way, with a kind of tyranny against the free will of humankind, with the notion that there is a ‘master plan’ that needs to be put into effect so as to perfect the world … perfect human society … and so forth. Such was the case with Hitler, when there was a plan that there were certain types of people that had the right to be alive on Earth … and that everyone else, including the Polish peoples and the Jewish peoples and probably many others … deserved to be put to death so as to implement the plan.

Eugenics Experiments. In addition it was felt that these people were so inferior to the favored race of people that it would be all right … it would be ethical to perform surgical experiments on them no matter what the pain that was inflicted … though it resulted in their torture and in their death … for the sake of society, and for the sake of development of a scientific body of knowledge of medicine and genetics and so forth. And these experiments were performed.

This type of philosophy, that the ends justify any means that are used to attain them, is purported on the astral airs to be espoused by various groups of people in the world today … including some genetic engineering experiments; experiments with paranormal abilities; and in the experiment I am about to explain.

Acting Out Soul Wounding. Because people who have great Soul trauma in childhood have to resolve that trauma in their adult lives, or else are doomed to act it out time after time, or to inflict that trauma on other people and see it acted out in other people (which is called, in the realm of psychology, ‘substitution’), their cases are coming before the world right now, during the Awakening process, first.

Other Instances of Catastrophic Childhood Learning: One Parent Kills the Other, or Child Is Kept in Closet or Chained to Bed [re ‘Likes Blondes Too’ and ‘Spoils’]. This includes people such as the blameless young person that I mentioned before. Then there is the case of some young people who see their fathers slaughter their mothers before their eyes (or even vice versa: maybe the mother poisons the father). There are even young people who are chained to a bed, or kept in a closet for all their lives, until they somehow escape or else pass on. There are cases of vast and extreme Soul wounding in childhood. These are coming up now, because the Light will not support them staying on Earth unless they clear.

What is also coming up right now is acting out or substitute acting out of the Soul trauma of early childhood so that this will come up to the Awareness of the conscious mind, and so that it can be resolved through the Incoming Light. This is true for all these peoples.

Daydream about Felon Eugenics Experiment [re ‘Castratrux – Basal Vampire’]. Now back to the first young man of whom I spoke. Apparently this young person … who since grew up … started having daydreams about acting out, to do with his early childhood wounding. What these daydreams (which were very horrifying to me) were, was a bringing of the early incident up to Awareness … just as we mentioned before. Whether the daydreams were actually carried out in reality seems very unlikely to me; a very moot point. The likelihood is that dreams like this, which come as astral stories into the noosphere, are just the welling up of this old wounding so that it can be resolved.

I will tell you what kind of dreams result from such early wounding: This particular dream had to do with felons, and the notion that they could be repatriated to good work in the community by transforming male felons into women. In the astral stories, in these daydreams, these felons were transformed through gender operations to transgender females.

I mentioned this before, and I have also discussed before the results of that, which is that they turned to serial killing because of the great wounding in their genitals, and because they are unable to express their sexual drive. So then they turn to killing instead, because the cells that are gone from their sexual organs have been killed, and there is still the memory of this killing of the cells. So this brings up the notion of killing. And then it gets turned into this acting out of killing.

In the daydream what happened was an unfortunate series of incidents of acting out this notion, combined with the idea that any means might be employed in the service of a great notion of transforming humanity for the better. And what resulted from that kind of philosophy, in the daydream, is something very very dark and distorted in the Light. It was about a bunch of transgender felons who became serial killers, according to the astral lore.

On Reprogramming Early Childhood Learning. So then when that daydream transpires, then the next thing to do is to figure: I have had this daydream, involving so much suffering, based on my early childhood learning. Obviously this learning was faulty … or the daydream would have turned out better. So what can I do to change my learning experience, to transform it into something more true.

Second Catastrophic Childhood Learning Experience: Substitute Mom Murdered [re ‘Likes Blondes Too’]

Then there was a case that has come up on the astral plane … two cases that involved killing of women in childhood. One was a case where the boy’s mother went off someplace and deserted him at an early age; and the father had a call girl in. Because of the culture … it was some distant culture … he killed her right after having intercourse. But it was socially acceptable there; and so the young boy had the opportunity to see a mother substitute killed before his eyes. And that gave him the notion that a woman he had for his own wife or significant other might be killed. This put before him constantly, in his relationships with women, the concern that he might behave in the same way as his father.

In this case the daydreams would be back to the early childhood experience, and then on to the experience of all the women he had ever known intimately, and on to daydreams about them being killed. There was thus the potential for acting out.

On Becoming Acquainted with the Inner Child. Another thing to do is to look back at childhood, and try and uncover the early childhood events that took place. This can be done by developing an acquaintance with the Inner Child … Search my blog category: Inner child – lost children of the Soul – repressed memories – repressed emotions

Third Catastrophic Childhood Learning Experience: Thought That Having Sex Might Kill a Woman [re ‘The Maldekian’]

This is the final instance I have for you today; it has to do with a young man … again, just before or at the age of puberty … who was experimenting sexually. It so often happens, at this time, that this type of thing happens. He was experimenting sexually, and he thought that the only way that he could do this experiment with the young girl that he knew, was to somehow immobilize her first; that was his concern. So he tried chloroform or paint thinner or something; he used some chemical over her nose to render her temporarily unconscious.

What happened was that then she looked like she had passed on, and he thought that he had killed her. And so then, in his state of terror, in his mind he immediately associated sexuality with killing women … in a manner similar to what had happened in the second case that we talked about just now.

And so now, whenever he thinks about having sex with a woman, or if he is married to a woman, he is always concerned that he might kill her. He always does that. And when he gets angry with a woman, he has always to fight that tendency to act out that early childhood drama.

Conclusion

What a childhood drama. My gosh! And so many people these days are coming up with these sorts of very deep, dark Soul woundings, and bearing for the world the responsibility of clearing all those dark energy threads from planet Earth.

Let’s all say a prayer for all the people involved in these sorts of energies. And let us do our best to cheer them on, in their great challenge and endeavor for new life on New Earth.

OUTLINE OF THE VIDEO

  • First Catastrophic Childhood Experience: Genital mutilation of a young boy by a parent when the parent discovers sibling sexual play in early childhood. Description of the resultant distortions of light.
  • The notion that cruelty to people is for their own good … this came about because the child was treated cruelly by the father, and the child depended on the father for survival. If the father were to be viewed as ‘bad’ then the child might not survive; thus the assumption was made that the father was good, that the physical cruelty enacted by the father must also be good, and that it would be appropriate to act out this physical cruelty with other people. Were this acting out to take place, as, for instance, in daydreams in adult life about mutilating other people ‘for their own good’. More on this below …
  • The notion that the end justifies the means; that any means suit an end that is for the good of humanity … the notion, for instance of Hitler, that a master plan ought to be implemented that involved medical experiments on concentration camp detainees, and elimination of certain subsets of humankind in the interests of eugenics. In the case of this first child, the lesson learned was that sex with a girl was so very wrong that it must be prevented through removal of the physical means of performing the sex act; this then forced the maturing boy into a sexual role that was feminine in nature, although his natal inclination was otherwise. From this one might imagine the notion that it might be all right to perform eugenics experiments involving the removal of genitals, as long as the end was for the good of humanity.
  • In more recent times, there are astral stories about genetic experiments and paranormal warfare or corporate competition experiments based on the philosophy of any means to an end.
  • Additional instances of deep early childhood Soul wounding (from the media): A child in a family where one parent kills the other; a child kept in a closet or chained to a bed.
  • Astral story dreamed by the first child above: An eugenics experiment with felons, projecting onto them the genital mutilation experienced by the child, and retrofitting them, as it were, with transgender operations, so that their drive to aggression and acting out of criminal behavior might be transformed to the feminine qualities of compassion and motherly love. In fact, this astral story turned out the opposite of what was intended: the transgender felons, having no longer a means of ‘letting off steam’ through orgasm, instead turned to serial killing. The nightmare quality of this astral story reflects the depth of the dreamer’s original Soul wounding, and the attempt to project this Soul wounding onto other people. Projection, as I understand it, is a way of looking at deep trauma ‘at arm’s length’ … The act of projection, I feel, makes the exploration of the trauma less threatening. Also, this astral story embodied the philosophy of ‘any means to an end’ … in this way, it was reminiscent of the Nazi medical experiments.
  • When a person finds themselves going over this sort of astral story, involving so much suffering, then the thing to do is to look back at childhood, and try and uncover the early childhood events that took place. This can be done by developing an acquaintance with the Inner Child (search this term on my blog). Added:
  • Second Catastrophic Childhood Experience: Mother went away when the child, a boy, was very young. The father had a call girl in, and killed her after having sex with her. This put before the young boy the concern that his having sex with a woman might lead to killing her. The result was the man had daydreams with a nightmare-like quality … the daydreaming mind constructed and elaborated on astral stories about such scenarios. As in the above instance, I feel that the thing to do would be to become aware of the nightmare quality of these astral stories, and to ask oneself: Clearly there was false learning in my early childhood. What was the falseness, and what would be the greater truth?
  • Third Catastrophic Childhood Experience: Early childhood sexual play where boy uses chloroform or the like to date rape the girl, then becomes concerned that he may have killed her (although she was only unconscious). This is similar to the experience of the second child described above, although not so terrifying. Nevertheless, it has caused the man always to feel, when he has sex with a woman, that he might be in danger of killing her. When he gets angry with a woman, he has always to fight that tendency to act out the early childhood drama.
  • Conclusion: These cases of deep early childhood Soul wounding are coming up to the Light right now, so that the wounding may be cleared, and these Souls may be healed. People who have experienced such early childhood traumas in this lifetime are those who have agreed to do the clearing work not just for themselves in this lifetime, but also for all humankind, through all their incarnations in the recently concluded 10,000-year Age of Darkness. Let us keep these great Souls in our prayers and in our hearts, that their good work for humankind may be accomplished with all possible speed and efficiency.

In love, light and joy,
I Am of the Stars

Photos by Alice

Image: “Garden Plants 1,” by Alice B. Clagett, 27 August 2016, CC BY-SA 4.0

Image: “Garden Plants 1,” by Alice B. Clagett, 27 August 2016, CC BY-SA 4.0

Image: “Garden Plants 2,” by Alice B. Clagett, 27 August 2016, CC BY-SA 4.0

Image: “Garden Plants 2,” by Alice B. Clagett, 27 August 2016, CC BY-SA 4.0

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