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Catastrophic Childhood Trauma from Conflicting Parental Demands . by Alice B. Clagett

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Image: “Crying Child,” by Francisco Masseria, 16 September 2014, in Wikimedia Commons … https://commons.wikimedia.org/wiki/File:Crying_Child.jpg … public domain

Image: “Crying Child,” by Francisco Masseria, 16 September 2014, in Wikimedia Commons … https://commons.wikimedia.org/wiki/File:Crying_Child.jpg … public domain

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  • CATASTROPHIC CHILDHOOD TRAUMA: FATHER MAY HAVE SEXUALLY ABUSED CHILD WHOSE MOM HELD PURITANICAL VIEWS ABOUT SEX
  • CONFLICTING PARENTAL DEMANDS CAN LEAD TO ‘COBBLED TOGETHER’ BELIEF SYSTEMS IN YOUNG CHILDREN
  • WORLDVIEW COBBLED TOGETHER BY THE YOUNG CHILD IN THE ASTRAL STORY
  • THE ASTRAL STORY ABOUT THE SEX WORKER
  • THE ASTRAL STORY ABOUT THE SEXUAL ASSIGNATIONS: ROUGH SEX
  • AFTER THE SEX ACT: A SUBCONSCIOUS, DARK-BODY ‘DUET’
  • ON THE ACT OF SEX, PSYCHIC BONDING, KARMIC ENTANGLEMENT, AND THE GLOM EFFECT
  • HOW THIS ASTRAL STORY IS HELPFUL IN UNDERSTANDING EARLY CHILDHOOD TRAUMA AND ‘DARK BODY DUETS’
  • HOW THE MAN LATER TURNED TO MOLESTATION OF YOUNG GIRLS AND BOYS
  • ORGASM AS A ‘RESET BUTTON’ FOR THE PHYSICAL AND SUBTLE BODIES

Dear Ones,

This blog is about how conflicting parental demands can cause catastrophic childhood trauma.

CATASTROPHIC CHILDHOOD TRAUMA: FATHER MAY HAVE SEXUALLY ABUSED CHILD WHOSE MOM HELD PURITANICAL VIEWS ABOUT SEX

I thought I would tell you about a story I have been hearing on the astral plane for a long time. It has to do with a person who used to hold a great well of anger against his father because of something that had happened in his early childhood. Possibly this person was sodomized by his dad? I am not sure.

I am guessing his mother must have been a very strict person with regard to sexuality.  For instance, it could be that he was raised in a fundamentalist Christian religion.

And so, on the one hand, he might have had his father sodomizing him, and on the other hand, he might have had his mother telling him that sex was a bad thing unless it was made sacred through marriage.

CONFLICTING PARENTAL DEMANDS CAN LEAD TO ‘COBBLED TOGETHER’ BELIEF SYSTEMS IN YOUNG CHILDREN

When things like that happen to a very young child … when there is a discrepancy between what one parent says and what the other parent does … and the opposite thing is happening, from what he has learned ought to be happening … then the child cannot resolve them. It does not yet have the higher mind ability to analyze that problem and come to a conclusion.

The reason is, I feel, that the child needs the love of its parents. It needs to be able to get on the good side of both parents. If one parent is thinking that sex outside of marriage is a terrible thing, and that it dooms a person to hell; and the other parent is sodomizing the child, then what is the child going to come up with, as a kind of ‘cobbled together’ belief system, to allow it to continue to exist in the world?

Its very existence is threatened by this discrepancy.

WORLDVIEW COBBLED TOGETHER BY THE YOUNG CHILD IN THE ASTRAL STORY

According to the astral story, the child came to love rectal intercourse because it represented the father from whom he needed protection.

And on the other hand, because he heard, from his mom, that sexuality was a terrible thing, except in marriage, he came to hate his mother. He hated her because she told him to believe something that reality could not substantiate. And in adulthood, he hated women.

Nevertheless, because his childhood regarding sexuality was so strict, he wanted to avoid the sex act. But in order to maintain an even emotional balance, once a month he needed to have sex. In the astral story, he chose for his partner a male sex worker.

THE ASTRAL STORY ABOUT THE SEX WORKER

According to the astral story, the sex worker had murdered women from time to time, and had a difficulty regarding addiction … I think, maybe, to cocaine … because use of cocaine, at least in the astral stories, is surrounded by acts of indescribable cruelty … That is the essence of cocaine. But then again, it may have been an addiction to hard liquor … such as vodka, bourbon, or scotch.

THE ASTRAL STORY ABOUT THE SEXUAL ASSIGNATIONS: ROUGH SEX

For some length of time … maybe for years and years, even … once a month, the man would have sex with the sex worker. According to the astral story, this was a form of sex called ‘rough sex’ … This kind of sex involved his being punished … spanked beforehand, perhaps mutilated genitally in a minor way, the use of leather outfits, or something like that …

If this were a true story, and not just an astral story,  I expect the preference for being punished by the sex worker would have been in accord with the teachings handed down to the child by his mom, when he was small.

AFTER THE SEX ACT: A SUBCONSCIOUS, DARK-BODY ‘DUET’

After the act of sex, in realm of the subconscious mind, deeply suppressed by a layer of unconscious, repressive energy … the sort of ‘binding-down’ energy of which I have spoken in times past … a scenario of the Dark bodies of both people played out.

The ‘Dark-body duet’ went like this: Right after being paid for his work, the sex worker would use the cash to buy and partake of the item to which he was addicted … whether cocaine, hard liquor, or some other drug … in preparation for a wild night on the town.

The client that had just been sodomized would fall asleep. His hatred of women, specifically his mother, would well up in his dreams, and the subconscious connection … the gut-brain psychic cording … caused by the act of intercourse would influence the suddenly freed-up gut-brain, or lower mind, of the sex worker who had had cocaine. Because of his fondness for his longtime client, his subconscious mind was the more swayed by the client’s feelings.

The sex worker was a man of action, not risk averse, and … as mentioned above … with a history of violence. Thus, when they two got together, that very night, there was a good chance that the sex worker would go out and rape and kill a woman.

The denouement of each rendition of this ‘Dark body duet’ was another in a series of otherwise random serial killings of women.

ON THE ACT OF SEX, PSYCHIC BONDING, KARMIC ENTANGLEMENT, AND THE GLOM EFFECT

The impetus for the act was the misogyny of the client to whom he was bonded through the act of sex. The act of sex always causes this kind of karmic entanglement, and sex workers suffer this karmic bonding with their clients.

Their subconscious minds are battered from pillar to post by the samskaras of all their clients, all the time. This is not just true of sex workers, for second chakra bonding is sustained with … and karmas are knit up with … the karmas of all the people with whom any human being is having sexual relations.

The difficulty for the sex worker, though, is that people will come to him with their darkest yearnings … those that can be met nowhere else. Further, those with very dark yearnings indeed are the most likely to need to pay for the act of sex, being unable to obtain it through mutual enjoyment in the arena of free-will, voluntarily dispensed sexual gratification.

So the outcome in this instance … the acting out by the sex worker … was not unusual for that profession, given the sex worker’s propensity to addiction and willingness to cater to the rough sex crowd.

HOW THIS ASTRAL STORY IS HELPFUL IN UNDERSTANDING EARLY CHILDHOOD TRAUMA AND ‘DARK BODY DUETS’

Most likely this astral story is a glom effect of many minds, all coming to the realization of their Soul wounding, and all struggling to heal early childhood issues that are preventing them from deeply enjoying the act of sex.

Nevertheless, I feel this astral story is very helpful in throwing light on several oft repeated phenomena. It offers …

  • an explanation of this difficulty that occurs in childhood when there is a conflict between the two parents and the two sets of realities … the mindset of the mother, and the physical set of the father.
  • and also, a description of the interaction of two people’s subconscious minds … one asleep, and the other under the influence of drugs. I find these repetitive duets and triad events often take place in the astral realm; they are a minor form of the ‘karmic knot’ or ‘glom effect’ (folie à deux or folie à trois).

HOW THE MAN LATER TURNED TO MOLESTATION OF YOUNG GIRLS AND BOYS

According to the astral story, the person involved finally became aware of the subconscious goings-on and acting out of the sex worker; in the astral story, he was asked not to come back.

In his place, the person turned to having sex with young children … both girls and boys, according to the astral story. For these youngsters his heart chakra opened more fully; I am thinking this must be evidence of fear of social opprobrium when engaging in non-paid sex with an adult?

When he has sex with young girls … now his preference, according to the astral story … he feels this proves he is not a homosexual (this being a label the social consequences of which he dreads).

The difficulty in his turning to children for sexual gratification … in addition to the looming issue of criminal reprisal … is the astral story that he had contracted AIDS from his time with sex workers. Thus he was putting the children in danger of contracting HIV. And this may be the cause of his use of just a finger, or else a foreign object, in the act of sex with the children, rather than use of his genitals.

ORGASM AS A ‘RESET BUTTON’ FOR THE PHYSICAL AND SUBTLE BODIES

This man, according to the astral story, continues to think that sexuality is a very bad thing. I am sure this belief must have to do with early childhood learning.

I myself consider this to be an unhelpful way of viewing a physical process that can bring humankind great joy.

I think of orgasm as a ‘reset button’ for all of the bodies: The subtle bodies as well as the physical body. It allows everything to become balanced, and in harmony, and unity. I consider it one of the most important health feature that has been arranged in the human system.

And I think that this is a good way, ongoing, for us to think of sexuality. We need to think of the good things about it, and not of the things we may have learned in our early childhood that do not serve us.

In love, light and joy,
Alice B. Clagett
I Am of the Stars

Written and published on 19 September 2017
Previous title: Early Childhood Trauma from Conflicting Parental Demands

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The Child with the Rock . by Alice B. Clagett

  • VIDEO BY ALICE
  • SUMMARY OF THE VIDEO
    • Astral Story about a Boy Who Threw a Rock
    • Soul Wounding and Psychological Projection
    • On Being Aware of the Tendency to Act Out Early Soul Wounding in One’s Adult Life
    • The Inclination to ‘Act Out’ in One’s Adult Life Is Really the Soul’s Attempt to Resolve Early Soul Wounding
      • Acting Out Rage Against Women
      • On Cross-Dressing and Acting Out the Father’s Genital Mutilation or Child Murder Role in Later Life
    • Second-Tier Karmic Flow-Through of Acting Out Based on Early Childhood Soul Wounding

Dear Ones,

This is an astral story of early childhood Soul wounding and the inclination to act out in adult life by a process called ‘projection’ in Psychology. This is the process to be fought and subdued, as the Incoming Light continues to transform our beautiful planet Earth, and each of her beings. An edited Summary follows the video; text in green font was not in the video …

VIDEO BY ALICE

SUMMARY OF THE VIDEO

Hello, Dear Ones, It’s Alice. I Am of the Stars.

Astral Story about a Boy Who Threw a Rock

I have a Soul wounding fable to tell you about a young boy. I have discussed it a little before. The astral story goes like this: There was a young boy who was first learning about orgasm. He lived in a rural area, and he went out into a meadow. His little sister, who idolized him, followed him, but he did not want her around. He tried to get her to go away, but she would not go away, and so he picked up a rock and hit her on the head with it.

His intention was to get her to cry and to leave, but unfortunately the blow knocked her out, and she fell on a rock and it killed her. He tried to wake her up. He could not believe that she was dead. Then he went and told his father. In a fit of anger, his father took a butcher knife and cut his penis off.

Soul Wounding and Psychological Projection

What happened there was a typical instance of Soul wounding in the third dimension. Extreme Soul wounding. The young boy was in such shock at what his father did that he fell into a state of post-traumatic stress disorder, a state of overwhelmingly immense fear.

But he couldn’t blame the incident on his father, because his father had done this horrible thing to him. And he needed to obey his father and honor his father to prevent his father from actually continuing on and mutilating him more and killing him.

So instead, he projected his extreme upset over that incident … his rage and anger over that incident … onto his younger sister who was already dead.

The Inclination to ‘Act Out’ in One’s Adult Life Is Really the Soul’s Attempt to Resolve Early Soul Wounding

Acting Out Rage Against Women. Then in later life, he had a feeling of fear and rage towards women … what you might call a ‘crossed-wires’ rage, that had to do with projection of those emotions. Actually and originally, he felt fear and upset over a man in authority, and then it became ‘once removed’ … to fear and upset over women.

In later life, he felt it more comfortable to have intimate relationships with men than with women. (It could also be that relations with women might be difficult because of the genital wounding.) And when he saw women alone, in a meadow or wilderness place, he had an urge to kill them. It was as if his Soul was repeating this early childhood accident and trying to make better sense of it, and to come to a resolution of the Soul wounding that had occurred.

This does happen, quite frequently, that people continue to play out portions of early childhood, very deep and severe Soul wounding incidents, in an attempt to bring them to their conscious attention, and to resolve it.

On Cross-Dressing and Acting Out the Father’s Genital Mutilation or Child Murder Role in Later Life. This astral story might also play out as the desire to genitally mutilate young boys, or to murder them, if the man who had this early childhood trauma were to act out the early story as if he were his own father.

It might also play out as genital mutilation of adult men, particularly if the young man has assumed a female role in adult life. This, I guess, has to do with the societal expectation that the young man, now a woman, will take male lovers, and the early PTSD experience of overwhelming fear of the father, because of the act that occurred.

So then, when the opportunity to have intimate relations with a man came up, the Soul wounding scenario would begin to surface from the subconscious mind. The energy behind the repression of the memory, as it threatened to release from the subconscious to the conscious mind, might cause the man … now a woman in the eyes of the world … to flip personas to the omnipotent, genitally mutilating father, so as to re-repress the emergent fear.

Second-Tier Karmic Flow-Through of Acting Out Based on Early Childhood Soul Wounding 

There is a further elaboration that sometimes occurs on this type of story, where a person tends to repeat a violent act that occurred in early childhood, but knows the social and legal consequences of such an act. So he may convince others … friends, for instance … to carry out this act for him in the name of friendship. That is what I call a second-tier karmic occurrence: When, from the first tier of karma, karma flows down into a tier of acquaintances or friends.

So there is that story. And I am sure that this story has a solution coming up very soon … some time this year, I feel … for all those who have been so deeply wounded.

In love, light and joy,
Alice B. Clagett
I Am of the Stars

Filmed on 24 March 2017; published on 3 April 2017; revised on 26 March 2023

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Link: “Astral Case Studies: Boy with the Rock, and Child Lilith,” by Alice B. Clagett, written on 26 August 2018; published on 27 September 2018 … https://wp.me/p2Rkym-adS … See the story of the boy with the rock.

Link: “Issues of Violence and Betrayal to Do with Crossdressing,” by Alice B. Clagett, filmed on 17 April 2018; published on 29 April 2018 … https://wp.me/p2Rkym-8Aa ..

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Soul Wounding: On Seeing Suffering as Good . by Alice B. Clagett

Filmed on 27 August 2016; published on 28 September 2016

  • VIDEO BY ALICE
  • SUMMARY OF THE VIDEO
    • Catastrophic Childhood Experience: Genital Mutilation of a Young Boy by a Parent [re ‘Castratrux – Basal Vampire’]
      • Cruelty as Being ‘For Your Own Good’
      • The Notion That the End Justifies the Means
        • Eugenics Experiments
      • Acting Out Soul Wounding
      • Other Instances of Catastrophic Childhood Learning: One Parent Kills the Other, or Child Is Kept in Closet or Chained to Bed [re ‘Likes Blondes Too’ and ‘Spoil’s]
      • Daydream about Felon Eugenics Experiment [re ‘Castratrux – Basal Vampire’]
        • On Reprogramming Early Childhood Learning
    • Second Catastrophic Childhood Learning Experience: Substitute Mom Murdered [re ‘Likes Blondes Too’]
      • On Becoming Acquainted with the Inner Child
    • Third Catastrophic Childhood Learning Experience: Thought That Having Sex Might Kill a Woman [re ‘The Maldekian’r]
    • Conclusion
    • Photos by Alice
  • OUTLINE OF THE VIDEO

Dear Ones,

This video and the edited Summary and Outline that follow it are about some astral stories I have heard on the clair plane, to do with Soul wounding experiences which teach a child that suffering is good, or that the end justifies the means. All these accounts are from clair hearing, not from the physical realm …

There is information in this summary that’s not in the video, and vice versa. All these accounts are from clair hearing, not from the physical realm …

VIDEO BY ALICE

SUMMARY OF THE VIDEO

Hello, Dear Ones, It’s Alice. I Am of the Stars.

I wanted to talk a little about a childhood wounding experience that I ran into only on the astral plane, and which seems very severe. There are a number of these, actually, about which I would like to talk.

Catastrophic Childhood Experience: Genital Mutilation of a Young Boy by a Parent [re ‘Castratrux – Basal Vampire’]

You know, all children go through a phase in their childhood where they are learning about their sexuality. And typically they learn about it from their sisters and brothers or from their playmates, without a lot of adult supervision.

In this case there was a young boy who was learning about sexuality from his sister … his younger sister, I assume. When his father found out about it, he mutilated the boy’s genitals. In that action he also expressed verbally that he was doing it ‘for the child’s own good’ … for his own benefit, and for his ethical development as a person. Of course, this is a massive distortion of the Light.

The things that are for our own good in the world, and for the good of our Souls, inevitably involve great joy. So the optimal path for Soul evolution involves the pursuit of happiness, and joy, and love, and Light … appreciation and gratitude and so forth; the cultivation of those emotions, and not the intense suffering and social stigma involved in genital mutilation. This is the very farthest from the way for a father to raise his children … the farthest from the Light.

Cruelty as Being ‘For Your Own Good’. So then, at a very young age this young person learned this very hard lesson to the effect that suffering and physical mutilation and self-hatred … hatred of the body … were good for the Soul, good for the character, and good for a person’s ethics. This was a completely wrong thing.

This lack of genitals also cast him into the role of homosexual for the rest of his life. He had not the ability to carry out the normal sex act, that he was inclined to perform as a man. So he was forced into a role rather like that of a woman.

This was a further distortion of his Light that involved going against his own principles, going against his own desires, and so forth. He had to deal with all these things. In doing so he came to an understanding, at a more mature age … a false understanding based on these false learning experiences of his youth … the great Soul wounding of his youth … and no doubt, of many prior lifetimes … that cruelty to people was ‘for their own good’. For more on this notion of cruelty being ‘for one’s own good’, see …

Link: “Selfless Service as Suffering or Alms-Giving,” by Alice B. Clagett, Filmed on 28 August 2016; published on 30 September 2018 … https://wp.me/p2Rkym-6cJ ..

The Notion That the End Justifies the Means. There is a form of ethics out there that has to do, in a similar way, with a kind of tyranny against the free will of humankind, with the notion that there is a ‘master plan’ that needs to be put into effect so as to perfect the world … perfect human society … and so forth. Such was the case with Hitler, when there was a plan that there were certain types of people that had the right to be alive on Earth … and that everyone else, including the Polish peoples and the Jewish peoples and probably many others … deserved to be put to death so as to implement the plan.

Eugenics Experiments. In addition it was felt that these people were so inferior to the favored race of people that it would be all right … it would be ethical to perform surgical experiments on them no matter what the pain that was inflicted … though it resulted in their torture and in their death … for the sake of society, and for the sake of development of a scientific body of knowledge of medicine and genetics and so forth. And these experiments were performed.

This type of philosophy, that the ends justify any means that are used to attain them, is purported on the astral airs to be espoused by various groups of people in the world today … including some genetic engineering experiments; experiments with paranormal abilities; and in the experiment I am about to explain.

Acting Out Soul Wounding. Because people who have great Soul trauma in childhood have to resolve that trauma in their adult lives, or else are doomed to act it out time after time, or to inflict that trauma on other people and see it acted out in other people (which is called, in the realm of psychology, ‘substitution’), their cases are coming before the world right now, during the Awakening process, first.

Other Instances of Catastrophic Childhood Learning: One Parent Kills the Other, or Child Is Kept in Closet or Chained to Bed [re ‘Likes Blondes Too’ and ‘Spoils’]. This includes people such as the blameless young person that I mentioned before. Then there is the case of some young people who see their fathers slaughter their mothers before their eyes (or even vice versa: maybe the mother poisons the father). There are even young people who are chained to a bed, or kept in a closet for all their lives, until they somehow escape or else pass on. There are cases of vast and extreme Soul wounding in childhood. These are coming up now, because the Light will not support them staying on Earth unless they clear.

What is also coming up right now is acting out or substitute acting out of the Soul trauma of early childhood so that this will come up to the Awareness of the conscious mind, and so that it can be resolved through the Incoming Light. This is true for all these peoples.

Daydream about Felon Eugenics Experiment [re ‘Castratrux – Basal Vampire’]. Now back to the first young man of whom I spoke. Apparently this young person … who since grew up … started having daydreams about acting out, to do with his early childhood wounding. What these daydreams (which were very horrifying to me) were, was a bringing of the early incident up to Awareness … just as we mentioned before. Whether the daydreams were actually carried out in reality seems very unlikely to me; a very moot point. The likelihood is that dreams like this, which come as astral stories into the noosphere, are just the welling up of this old wounding so that it can be resolved.

I will tell you what kind of dreams result from such early wounding: This particular dream had to do with felons, and the notion that they could be repatriated to good work in the community by transforming male felons into women. In the astral stories, in these daydreams, these felons were transformed through gender operations to transgender females.

I mentioned this before, and I have also discussed before the results of that, which is that they turned to serial killing because of the great wounding in their genitals, and because they are unable to express their sexual drive. So then they turn to killing instead, because the cells that are gone from their sexual organs have been killed, and there is still the memory of this killing of the cells. So this brings up the notion of killing. And then it gets turned into this acting out of killing.

In the daydream what happened was an unfortunate series of incidents of acting out this notion, combined with the idea that any means might be employed in the service of a great notion of transforming humanity for the better. And what resulted from that kind of philosophy, in the daydream, is something very very dark and distorted in the Light. It was about a bunch of transgender felons who became serial killers, according to the astral lore.

On Reprogramming Early Childhood Learning. So then when that daydream transpires, then the next thing to do is to figure: I have had this daydream, involving so much suffering, based on my early childhood learning. Obviously this learning was faulty … or the daydream would have turned out better. So what can I do to change my learning experience, to transform it into something more true.

Second Catastrophic Childhood Learning Experience: Substitute Mom Murdered [re ‘Likes Blondes Too’]

Then there was a case that has come up on the astral plane … two cases that involved killing of women in childhood. One was a case where the boy’s mother went off someplace and deserted him at an early age; and the father had a call girl in. Because of the culture … it was some distant culture … he killed her right after having intercourse. But it was socially acceptable there; and so the young boy had the opportunity to see a mother substitute killed before his eyes. And that gave him the notion that a woman he had for his own wife or significant other might be killed. This put before him constantly, in his relationships with women, the concern that he might behave in the same way as his father.

In this case the daydreams would be back to the early childhood experience, and then on to the experience of all the women he had ever known intimately, and on to daydreams about them being killed. There was thus the potential for acting out.

On Becoming Acquainted with the Inner Child. Another thing to do is to look back at childhood, and try and uncover the early childhood events that took place. This can be done by developing an acquaintance with the Inner Child … Search my blog category: Inner child – lost children of the Soul – repressed memories – repressed emotions

Third Catastrophic Childhood Learning Experience: Thought That Having Sex Might Kill a Woman [re ‘The Maldekian’]

This is the final instance I have for you today; it has to do with a young man … again, just before or at the age of puberty … who was experimenting sexually. It so often happens, at this time, that this type of thing happens. He was experimenting sexually, and he thought that the only way that he could do this experiment with the young girl that he knew, was to somehow immobilize her first; that was his concern. So he tried chloroform or paint thinner or something; he used some chemical over her nose to render her temporarily unconscious.

What happened was that then she looked like she had passed on, and he thought that he had killed her. And so then, in his state of terror, in his mind he immediately associated sexuality with killing women … in a manner similar to what had happened in the second case that we talked about just now.

And so now, whenever he thinks about having sex with a woman, or if he is married to a woman, he is always concerned that he might kill her. He always does that. And when he gets angry with a woman, he has always to fight that tendency to act out that early childhood drama.

Conclusion

What a childhood drama. My gosh! And so many people these days are coming up with these sorts of very deep, dark Soul woundings, and bearing for the world the responsibility of clearing all those dark energy threads from planet Earth.

Let’s all say a prayer for all the people involved in these sorts of energies. And let us do our best to cheer them on, in their great challenge and endeavor for new life on New Earth.

OUTLINE OF THE VIDEO

  • First Catastrophic Childhood Experience: Genital mutilation of a young boy by a parent when the parent discovers sibling sexual play in early childhood. Description of the resultant distortions of light.
  • The notion that cruelty to people is for their own good … this came about because the child was treated cruelly by the father, and the child depended on the father for survival. If the father were to be viewed as ‘bad’ then the child might not survive; thus the assumption was made that the father was good, that the physical cruelty enacted by the father must also be good, and that it would be appropriate to act out this physical cruelty with other people. Were this acting out to take place, as, for instance, in daydreams in adult life about mutilating other people ‘for their own good’. More on this below …
  • The notion that the end justifies the means; that any means suit an end that is for the good of humanity … the notion, for instance of Hitler, that a master plan ought to be implemented that involved medical experiments on concentration camp detainees, and elimination of certain subsets of humankind in the interests of eugenics. In the case of this first child, the lesson learned was that sex with a girl was so very wrong that it must be prevented through removal of the physical means of performing the sex act; this then forced the maturing boy into a sexual role that was feminine in nature, although his natal inclination was otherwise. From this one might imagine the notion that it might be all right to perform eugenics experiments involving the removal of genitals, as long as the end was for the good of humanity.
  • In more recent times, there are astral stories about genetic experiments and paranormal warfare or corporate competition experiments based on the philosophy of any means to an end.
  • Additional instances of deep early childhood Soul wounding (from the media): A child in a family where one parent kills the other; a child kept in a closet or chained to a bed.
  • Astral story dreamed by the first child above: An eugenics experiment with felons, projecting onto them the genital mutilation experienced by the child, and retrofitting them, as it were, with transgender operations, so that their drive to aggression and acting out of criminal behavior might be transformed to the feminine qualities of compassion and motherly love. In fact, this astral story turned out the opposite of what was intended: the transgender felons, having no longer a means of ‘letting off steam’ through orgasm, instead turned to serial killing. The nightmare quality of this astral story reflects the depth of the dreamer’s original Soul wounding, and the attempt to project this Soul wounding onto other people. Projection, as I understand it, is a way of looking at deep trauma ‘at arm’s length’ … The act of projection, I feel, makes the exploration of the trauma less threatening. Also, this astral story embodied the philosophy of ‘any means to an end’ … in this way, it was reminiscent of the Nazi medical experiments.
  • When a person finds themselves going over this sort of astral story, involving so much suffering, then the thing to do is to look back at childhood, and try and uncover the early childhood events that took place. This can be done by developing an acquaintance with the Inner Child (search this term on my blog). Added:
  • Second Catastrophic Childhood Experience: Mother went away when the child, a boy, was very young. The father had a call girl in, and killed her after having sex with her. This put before the young boy the concern that his having sex with a woman might lead to killing her. The result was the man had daydreams with a nightmare-like quality … the daydreaming mind constructed and elaborated on astral stories about such scenarios. As in the above instance, I feel that the thing to do would be to become aware of the nightmare quality of these astral stories, and to ask oneself: Clearly there was false learning in my early childhood. What was the falseness, and what would be the greater truth?
  • Third Catastrophic Childhood Experience: Early childhood sexual play where boy uses chloroform or the like to date rape the girl, then becomes concerned that he may have killed her (although she was only unconscious). This is similar to the experience of the second child described above, although not so terrifying. Nevertheless, it has caused the man always to feel, when he has sex with a woman, that he might be in danger of killing her. When he gets angry with a woman, he has always to fight that tendency to act out the early childhood drama.
  • Conclusion: These cases of deep early childhood Soul wounding are coming up to the Light right now, so that the wounding may be cleared, and these Souls may be healed. People who have experienced such early childhood traumas in this lifetime are those who have agreed to do the clearing work not just for themselves in this lifetime, but also for all humankind, through all their incarnations in the recently concluded 10,000-year Age of Darkness. Let us keep these great Souls in our prayers and in our hearts, that their good work for humankind may be accomplished with all possible speed and efficiency.

In love, light and joy,
I Am of the Stars

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Image: “Garden Plants 1,” by Alice B. Clagett, 27 August 2016, CC BY-SA 4.0

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More Thoughts on Antisocial Personalities . by Alice B. Clagett

  • THEORY ABOUT THE REASON BEHIND ANTISOCIAL PERSONALITY (ASP)
  • THE HERMIT … MORBIDLY SHY OR ASP IN HIDING?
  • DISPLACEMENT OF THE ASTRAL BODY BECAUSE OF EARLY CHILDHOOD TRAUMA
    • Matricide
  • TELEPATHY, A NATURAL CONSEQUENCE OF THE SOUL WOUNDING OF THE ASP … ENTITY ATTACHMENT … AND INFECTIVE SOUL WOUNDING OF TELEPATHIC RECIPIENTS
  • LACK OF RECTAL AND GENITAL SENSATION … ACTS OF ATROCITY BY OBSESSING ENTITIES
  • I DIDN’T DO IT! PROJECTION OR OBSESSION?
  • THE SINCERITY TABOO WORKS TO THE ADVANTAGE OF THE ANTISOCIAL PERSONALITY
  • THE HERMIT CRAB ASTRAL ‘BIG BAD’ THEORY
  • MORE INFORMATION
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Image: “Hermit Crab,” U.S. Fish and Wildlife Service, transferred by Fae on 25 February 2013, from Wikimedia Commons … https://commons.wikimedia.org/wiki/File:A_hermit_crab_emerges_from_its_shell.jpg … public domain … DESCRIPTION: Red hermit crab partly emerges from its off-white shell on a sandy beach.

Image: “Hermit Crab,” U.S. Fish and Wildlife Service, transferred by Fae on 25 February 2013, from Wikimedia Commons … https://commons.wikimedia.org/wiki/File:A_hermit_crab_emerges_from_its_shell.jpg  … public domain … DESCRIPTION: Red hermit crab partly emerges from its off-white shell on a sandy beach.

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Dear Ones,

For those not in the know, this blog is not about me; I researched the topic to do with what intuition told me might be a ‘Controller’ who was the head of a ‘killing cult’. I had left the group, and felt at the time (some time ago) that I was in danger of being murdered by members of the group at his behest, and because of his anger towards me at leaving the group as soon as I got a whiff of what was going on there.

THEORY ABOUT THE REASON BEHIND ANTISOCIAL PERSONALITY (ASP)

I have a theory that antisocial personalities (ASPs) have had some completely overwhelming early childhood incident that stops them from developing normally as a child. The budding personality has been shattered, and from that time forth, the ASP copycats other people’s personalities … people who seemed to fit into the norm for society.

Because the personality is copycatted, I feel that ASPs can switch personalities like most folks change clothes. That is my theory! The refrain that the clairly gifted might hear in their minds might thus be: I have no personality!

The copycatting would most likely play out in the ASP’s life as moving from place to place, while dropping one personality and assuming another, along with a new name, new wife, and so on.

Or else it might play out in the ASP’s life as having two personas … one socially acceptable and the other the ‘evil twin’ … which are as different as day and night. In fact, one persona might be the social mask for the daytime, workaday life. And the other might be a ‘creature of the night’ ‘nemesis of the mask’ sort of person.

THE HERMIT … MORBIDLY SHY OR ASP IN HIDING?

This person would tend to be a hermit, hiding out from other people because of the danger of being detected for a lifelong series of antisocial acts. The psychologist looking at this behavior would likely mislabel it as morbid shyness, or Social Anxiety Disorder; this is because ASPs, although more frequently encountered than we as a society believe them to be, are expert at escaping detection, and so this more serious diagnosis will be overlooked.

DISPLACEMENT OF THE ASTRAL BODY BECAUSE OF EARLY CHILDHOOD TRAUMA

Matricide

An early childhood traumatic incident sufficient to initiate ASP symptoms might be matricide … the murder of one’s mother … before, or just at, the age of puberty. In such a case, the first and second chakra, which have to do with survival and sexuality, would be so injured as to make them uninhabitable by the young child’s astral body. The astral body would shift upward, with its feet at the navel point, and its crown chakra a few feet above the child’s head.

Here is an image of a woman with her astral body displaced upwards in such a way …

Image: Silhouette of a woman wearing a dress and high heels, side view, with a yellow shadow whose top is two feet above her head, adapted by Alice B. Clagett, 29 January 2015, CC BY-SA 4.0, from “Awakening with Planet Earth,” https://awakeningwithplanetearth.com … CREDIT: Silhouette is from Pixabay, https://pixabay.com/vectors/woman-posing-silhouette-standing-150477/ … CC0 Public Domain, free for commercial use, no attribution required.

Image: Silhouette of a woman wearing a dress and high heels, side view, with a yellow shadow whose top is two feet above her head, adapted by Alice B. Clagett, 29 January 2015, CC BY-SA 4.0, from “Awakening with Planet Earth,” https://awakeningwithplanetearth.com .. 

CREDIT: Silhouette is from Pixabay, https://pixabay.com/vectors/woman-posing-silhouette-standing-150477/ … CC0 Public Domain, free for commercial use, no attribution required.

TELEPATHY, A NATURAL CONSEQUENCE OF THE SOUL WOUNDING OF THE ASP …
ENTITY ATTACHMENT … AND INFECTIVE SOUL WOUNDING OF TELEPATHIC RECIPIENTS

As the child’s astral head would be ‘out there’, he would naturally acquire telepathy. Because of the early childhood trauma, ‘big bad’ astral entities would be attracted to his Soul field, and would influence his telepathic communications, which would become a conduit for transmitting Soul wounding to those he spoke to on the astral plane.

LACK OF RECTAL AND GENITAL SENSATION … ACTS OF ATROCITY BY OBSESSING ENTITIES

As the child’s astral body (which generates feelings and emotions) would be dislocated to above the first and second chakras, the ASP would normally have no sensation in his rectal and genital area. (This lack of sensation is sometimes termed ‘anaphia’.)

These areas would be available to the ‘big bads’ hovering around on the astral plane. As the child matured, acts of murder, cannibalism, sadomasochism, and rape might be expectable because of negative entity obsession of the lower chakras.

I DIDN’T DO IT! PROJECTION OR OBSESSION?

When confronted with having done such acts, the ASP might say: I didn’t do it! Someone else did it! … Psychology would see this as projection of blame, and in the more normal person this would be so.

However, in the case of the ASP, the assertion ‘I didn’t do it!’ would be true. It would be the obsessing entity that performed the acts. The hope of cure, should this theory of obsession of ASPs who suffered early childhood loss be so, would be in healing of the Soul wounding of the lower chakras, so that the astral form might settle back into the physical body.

THE SINCERITY TABOO WORKS TO THE ADVANTAGE OF THE ANTISOCIAL PERSONALITY

The difficulty with mass media about convicted antisocial personalities is that other ASPs can learn from this and copy their modi operandi, or MOs. On the other hand, if they do ‘copycat’, then folks can look out for tell-tale signs and ID them, I feel. Take, for example, Daniel Perez (aka Lou Castro). I saw the documentary on Dateline some while back …

Here is the Dateline movie about convicted murderer Daniel Perez …

Video: “Angels & Demons, Part 12,” by NBC News … http://www.nbcnews.com/dateline/video/angels—demons–part-12-442215491665 ..

In the above video, note Daniel Perez’s hairdo, the way he makes eye contact, the lack of muscle tension in the face, the way he nods his head, the cadence and tone of his speech. Consider that he may be lying while he is making these statements, as what he is saying in the video is the opposite of what witnesses testified.

In other words, it could be that antisocial personalities are very, very good at ‘putting on’ the garb of sincerity. We of the societal norm ‘go for’ sincerity, which is a much-looked-up-to quality in a human being. When people portray ‘sincere’ we tend to fall for it.

What if we went around believing that people who look and act sincere are the opposite? That would be socially disastrous. This is a very big social taboo: The notion that we can be tricked into believing that very bad people are sincere. Because we repress this thought, the ASP can handily use our gullibility to his advantage, over and over again. Here is an example …

Having a suspicion of what is really going on, we might say to him: Tell me it’s not so! To which he will reply: It’s true, my dear, completely true!

If this is said face to face, one might note the slight change in his facial features: For a millisecond, the social mask, the mask of an assumed personality, will come down, and you will see a flicker of the true man … the man with no remorse, no conscience; the man completely lacking in social conditioning.

Then, quick as a wink, he will reverse himself, and reply: It isn’t so, my dear! I was only hurt by what you said. How could you think such a thing! No, of course it isn’t so!

And you, with great relief, will turn away from the taboo, back into the warm bath of societal expectations.

THE HERMIT CRAB ASTRAL ‘BIG BAD’ THEORY

Regarding ASPs, there is also a theory, along the lines of arcane lore, that the putative overwhelmingly traumatic early childhood incident is of such dismay to the young child’s Soul that the Soul takes a powder, leaving the body like a ‘shell’ in which any passing entity of the ‘big bad’ category can find a home.

Theosophy speaks of such ‘hermit crab’ entities, but only in the context of ‘astral shells’ … For more on this, see the index in “The Astral Body: And Other Astral Phenomena” compiled by Arthur E. Powell …

Citation: “The Astral Body and Other Astral Phenomena,” compiled by Arthur E. Powell, published 1927, Quest Book edition 1973, copyright The Theosophical Publishing House, London, Ltd. 1965

Should it be true that the Soul deserts the human form, there would be no hope of cure for the condition, as all that would be left of the human being would be a physical shell; all else that appeared to animate this form would be from the demon realm.

In love, light and joy,
Alice B. Clagett
I Am of the Stars

Written and published on 29 May 2016, revised on 14 March 2023

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See also … Link: “Community Health: Cults that Kill and Outlaw Gangs,” by Alice B. Clagett, published on 7 December 2015; revised … https://wp.me/p2Rkym-4pb ..

More on Daniel Perez: Link: “Crime and Courts: Key Witness in Daniel Perez Murder Trial Testifies About Plot to Kill Patricia Hughes.” by Amy Renee Leiker, in “The Wichita Eagle,” 6 February 2015, 11:04 p.m. … http://www.kansas.com/news/local/crime/article9481769.html ..

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