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Escape the Clutches of a Sadist! . by Alice B. Clagett

escape the clutches of a sadist

Image: “Portrait of Sade [cropped],” by Mary Evans, 19th century, in Wikimedia Commons … https://commons.wikimedia.org/wiki/File:Portrait_de_Sade.jpg … public domain

Image: “Portrait of Sade [cropped],” by Mary Evans, 19th century, in Wikimedia Commons … https://commons.wikimedia.org/wiki/File:Portrait_de_Sade.jpg … public domain

Dear Ones,

This blog describes how to safely escape from sadists on the astral plane and on the physical plane.

As a Lightworker, I have noticed strands of misqualified energy that I would label ‘sadistic’ floating round the noosphere. These may have to do with the many lizards in my yard. In fact, there is a new crop of cute little fence lizards in the front and back yard every year. Right now there is a lizard ‘baby boom’ happening in my yard.

Lizards are big on one-upmanship, ‘power over’, and bullying, and these types of misqualified energy overlap with thought forms tinged with sadistic and masochistic emotion.

There is also television and internet movie programming, which more often than not incubates one-upmanship, desire for power over, bullying, sadism, and masochism in the gut brains of viewers. I feel these misqualified energies affect children who view the programs much more deeply than they affect adult audiences.

And so, during times of heavy television and internet movie viewing in my neighborhood … for instance, from 2 pm to 4:30 pm, when latchkey children are home viewing television and the internet without parental supervision … in the evenings during prime time … and all day/all night on the weekends … there are many strands of misqualified energy carrying these emotions that waft hither and yon.

As a Lightworker, I find this more than a little offputting. I can think of nothing more the antithesis of Lightwork than one-upmanship, desire for power over, bullying, hazing, sadism, and masochism. I find these energies repulsive.

I find I have an instinct to oppose these energies mentally, and to ‘put up the dukes’ when I sense them, when the ideal thing would be to just let them slide on by … maybe out into the back yard, where the lizards will find them attractive.

The other day I thought I would do some research on sadism. I thought maybe there was something I could do about these misqualified energy threads that make me so uncomfortable. I found an interesting article on sadism. The article implies that one way to stop a sadist is to show him that you are not suffering from his actions. That is one useful takeaway.

The other thing is that this article explains there are 4 sorts of sadists. These were enumerated by a man named Theodore Million …

Link: “Can Sadistic Personality Be Cured?” by Divva Jacob, Pharm. D., and Shaziva Allarakha, MD, medically reviewed on 20 January 2021, in Medicine Net … https://www.medicinenet.com/can_sadistic_personality_be_cured/article.htm?fbclid=IwAR2GDRr1jEYl5uszjdXNmGldk8X_V3L1G_oNuPbSs4QSXpS4UEPCxPw9AGg ..

These four types of sadism are spineless sadism [this I do not get], tyrannical sadism [cruel, violent], enforcing sadism [controlling and punishing], and explosive sadism [occasional explosions].

I found this helpful in a way as well. When I hear something on the astral plane that I would classify as sadistic, I might counter telepathically with a message that this energy does not affect me at all. That, as I understand it, collapses the underpinning of the sadistic talk dynamic.

In other words, the sadist says sadistic things so as to cause pain in a telepathic victim, or a victim in his or her physical presence. If a person does not want to be the victim … if a person is not a masochist who enjoys pain … then the person can make the ‘trigger’ a dud by not reacting with a feeling of pain. The telepathic receiver can thus use the sadistic input to develop his or her own neutral mind.

I feel the four classifications of sadists to be helpful for this reason: When we are confronted with sadism, whether merely on the astral plane or in the physical world, it may help to classify what is going on using the intellect, the higher mind.

Conceptualization, I feel, helps take the edge off of gut feelings like the panic responses of fight, flight, freeze, fawn, or flop. When the rational mind enters in, we can plan our escape more effectively.

In the case of the established sadist … as seemed very strikingly to me to be the case with the man I ran into last month at church …

Link: “Caveats About Morphine Addicts,” by Alice B. Clagett, written and published on 4 August 2022 … https://wp.me/p2Rkym-rNi ..

… and also with a man who appeared to be a morphine addict whom I saw standing on the sidewalk next door maybe 6 months ago …

Then I feel very strongly the thing to do is to attain as much physical distance from the person as possible as soon as ever our legs can carry us away from them. This is why: For a person who practices cruelty to others so much that it occurs without thought, without consideration of the risks or calculation of the downside of the outcome, without remorse, without any understanding of the harm being inflicted on a fellow human being, that person may strike like a viper, all in an instant.

You and I, Gentle Reader, might go down to our deaths so fast, at the practiced, ruthless hands of such a man that we never even know what hit us. And so I suggest, read all about it, prepare yourself mentally, know the warning signs, and get out of danger before the snake strikes, before the shark bites, before the brown recluse leaps upon us! Better safe than sorry.

In love, light and joy,
Alice B. Clagett
I Am of the Stars

Caravaggio as Lizardoid Sadist

Image: “Boy Bitten by a Lizard,” by Caravaggio, circa 1594-1596, in English Wikipedia … https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/File:Caravaggio_-_Boy_Bitten_by_a_Lizard.jpg … public domain … COMMENTS: As you may know from my previous analysis of the world-renowned painter Caravaggio, it seems to me that he painted himself in all the many paintings he created. If that is so, then this is an image of Caravaggio. I find this painting apt in the discussion of sadism, as I consider Caravaggio may have been a sadist whose overarching spirit or deva or spirit totem may have been Lizardian. Thus this painting might be a symbolic way of depicting the totem difference between Caravaggio and ‘normals’ … people whose spirits are guided by devas that teach and inform mammalian beings on Earth. The ‘take’ is that Caravaggio was ‘bitten by a lizard’ in his youth, and that accounted for his many misadventures. As luck would have it, Lizardoid and Insectoid hybrids are also often outstandingly gifted in the arts (such as painting, dance, voice, or musical composition) or in terms of greatly enhanced psychic powers and mind control abilities. These qualities, I feel, have to do with the accomplishments of their overlighting beings, often non-Christed star beings … their other-species devas. –Alice B. Clagett

Image: “Boy Bitten by a Lizard,” by Caravaggio, circa 1594-1596, in English Wikipedia … https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/File:Caravaggio_-_Boy_Bitten_by_a_Lizard.jpg … public domain …

COMMENTS: As you may know from my previous analysis of the world-renowned painter Caravaggio, it seems to me that he painted himself in all the many paintings he created. If that is so, then this is an image of Caravaggio. I find this painting apt in the discussion of sadism, as I consider Caravaggio may have been a sadist whose overarching spirit or deva or spirit totem may have been Lizardian. Thus this painting might be a symbolic way of depicting the totem difference between Caravaggio and ‘normals’ … people whose spirits are guided by devas that teach and inform mammalian beings on Earth. The ‘take’ is that Caravaggio was ‘bitten by a lizard’ in his youth, and that accounted for his many misadventures.

As luck would have it, lizardoid and Insectoid hybrids are also often outstandingly gifted in the arts (such as painting, dance, voice, or musical composition) or in terms of greatly enhanced psychic powers and mind control abilities. These qualities, I feel, have to do with the accomplishments of their overlighting beings, often non-Christed star beings … their other-species devas. –Alice B. Clagett

See also … Link: “Caravaggio and Baglione Today: Is Lucifer Transforming to the Light?” by Alice B. Clagett, written and published on 30 July 2018; revised … https://wp.me/p2Rkym-9Oh ..

Written and published on 30 August 2022
Location: Los Angeles, California

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Triple Multiple Personality Disorder: Pinkie aka ‘Chameleon’. by Alice B. Clagett

Image: “Sarah Barrett Moulton: Pinkie,” by Thomas Lawrence, 1794, in Wikimedia Commons … https://commons.wikimedia.org/wiki/File:Pinkie_detailed.jpg … public domain

Image: “Sarah Barrett Moulton: Pinkie,” by Thomas Lawrence, 1794, in Wikimedia Commons … https://commons.wikimedia.org/wiki/File:Pinkie_detailed.jpg … public domain

  • VIDEO BY ALICE
  • SUMMARY OF THE VIDEO
  • SECRETARIES FROM A MODELING AGENCY?

Dear Ones,

Here is a video about how we may best judge and deal with threats of violence by people who have multiple personality disorder or antisocial personality disorder. The idea is to figure out how to deal with people who threaten violence in the streets of Los Angeles.

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The George Floyd ‘Flashpoint’ and Scapegoating of Police in America . by Alice B. Clagett *

Written and published on 4 June 2020

  • COVID AND SUBCONSCIOUS SYMBOLISM: “I CAN’T BREATHE”
  • TRIPLE ECLIPSE PASSAGE

Dear Ones,

COVID AND SUBCONSCIOUS SYMBOLISM: “I CAN’T BREATHE”

I wonder if when George Floyd so poignantly said “I can’t breathe” and then passed on, whether that sent a message to us that face masks make it hard to breathe … that COVID also, they say, makes it hard to breathe … and somehow these two, the face masks and the COVID symptoms … are what are being protested, both at the same time, along with undue force by the policeman.

It seems almost as if the suffocation of George Floyd was the acting out in physical reality of our concerns about the pandemic, the concrete symbol of our fears. And now, after the ‘flashpoint’ event that occurred, it is almost as if the police are being pilloried as scapegoats … that our fears for our well-being have morphed into anger at them.

In recent weeks I have been doing an easy yoga set in addition to walking (which I love), and found these help quite a bit to divert my heart from the dramas so much in the news.

TRIPLE ECLIPSE PASSAGE

It seems likely to me that the events unfolding in the social arena have to do with the high energies of the Triple Eclipse Passage now underway …

Link: “Incoming Light! Triple Eclipse Passage,” by Alice B. Clagett, written and published on 4 June 2020 … https://wp.me/p2Rkym-iuS ..

That passage heralds the New. Transforming to the New always requires courage, and overcoming one’s own desire to remain the same. Fear and anger do arise in our hearts, and we must counter these with positive emotions and right action in the world. That way we can become more like Christ, more like the Buddha, and more like Lord Krishna in our hearts and in the living of our lives.

In love, light and joy,
I Am of the Stars

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Pragmatic Prophet: Could Wearing Face Masks Be Partly to Blame for the Rioting and Looting? . by Alice B. Clagett

Written and published on 3 June 2020

Dear Ones,

Just now I was reading the Mayo Clinic explanation about the efficacy of wearing face masks in public, and I have a few notions about it. I read between the lines that the cloth masks do not prevent us from breathing germs when we inhale in public, I guess because the cloth fabric is porous.

Nobody has mentioned the psychological effect of wearing masks. People get cues about the good intentions of other people by observing their facial expressions, I feel. When I go to the store and see masked people all around I get an unfriendly feeling because of the masks.

It feels to me like health officials mandate face masks as a way of saying the virus is ‘under control’. The masks are like the ‘magic whistle’ to allay our health concerns. But instead of helping, the face mask regulation is causing me to feel estranged from my fellow shoppers and neighbors in the community.

It could be that the ‘masked marauder’ look is causing people to feel fearful, and that the rioting and looting are a reaction to that fear … As they say, some may choose ‘fight’ rather than ‘flight’ in a scary situation. Getting down to the line, I feel it could be that the mandate about face masks is partly to blame for the rioting and looting in LA.

How do you feel about it? Are the pros of wearing face masks in public when we are not ill greater than the cons?

Here is the Mayo Clinic face mask page where I ‘read between the lines’ about the effectiveness of various sorts of masks …

Link: “COVID-19: How Much Protection Do Face Masks Offer?” by Mayo Clinic Staff …  https://www.mayoclinic.org/diseases-conditions/coronavirus/in-depth/coronavirus-mask/art-20485449 ..

As I read the Mayo Clinic article, the types of masks that are thought to offer protection from droplet aspiration are surgical and N95 masks. While I am not a medical doctor, my profession at UCLA (from which I am retired) was medical editor for some years, which accounts for my being able to read what is left unsaid in the Mayo publication.

What they seem not to be saying is that the cloth masks are effective. Instead, they say that the surgical and N95 masks are effective. I feel this to be misleading, as it causes intelligent people to think one way, when in fact things are another way.

In addition there is the issue of health care officials finding out that the pandemic had spread here in the United States while people were asymptomatic. What the masks do is stop the spread of infectious particles or droplets in the air. But if infectious people were asymptomatic, that would mean they were not coughing or sneezing. In that case they were not spreading infectious particles or droplets in the air, so how might wearing masks have prevented this early asymptomatic viral spreading?

In fact, what was the manner of infection? Was it in the breathed out air, or perhaps through touch?

Then there is the issue of the face masks with the valves that open when the person wearing them breathes out. Those types of face masks would not prevent an infected person wearing the mask from infecting nearby people.

I am left with the thought that surgical face masks might be very helpful when infected people are coughing or sneezing, as these types of face masks prevent spread of infectious particles or droplets in the air. But according to the Mayo Clinic report, not enough of these are being produced to pass out to the general population; instead they are being reserved for health care workers and essential personnel.

Mayo Clinic offers that the general public may wear cloth masks; and the Mayor of Los Angeles then mandated that we Angelenos must do so. That is considerable expense and discomfort to us, which might yet be a sensible consideration if there were a peer-reviewed article showing that fabric masks are helpful in preventing the spread of the virus. Until we have such research, I feel the Mayor of Los Angeles ought to revoke his mandate that we must always wear cloth masks in public.

In love, light and joy,
I Am of the Stars

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On Averting Violence During the Coronavirus Crisis . by Alice B. Clagett

Written and published on 7 April 2020

  • CALMING EFFECT OF THIRD-EYE POINT MEDITATION
  • LOCATION OF THE THIRD-EYE POINT
  • THE PITUITARY GLAND IS PART OF THE LIMBIC SYSTEM
    • Inadvertent Stimulation of the Fight or Flight Response
    • The Mistake of Cursing of the Pituitary Gland as the ‘Evil Eye’
  • ON INVOKING GOD’S BLESSING BEFORE DOING A THIRD-EYE POINT MEDITATION
  • CORONAVIRUS PANDEMIC STRESS AND THIRD-EYE POINT ‘WANDER’
    • Moving Awareness to the Neocortex to Correct Third-Eye Point ‘Wander’
  • VIOLENT STRESS RESPONSES OF OTHERS TO THE CORONAVIRUS PANDEMIC
    • Waves of Fear Sweeping Round the Planet Because of the Coronavirus Pandemic
    • Acting Out of Limbic System Resonance Responses by Our Family and Neighbors During This Time of Stress
    • Unavailability of LAPD Response to Domestic Violence, Most Likely Due to Health Crisis
  • THE IMPORTANCE OF PRAYER AND MEDITATION AT THIS TIME

Dear Ones,

CALMING EFFECT OF THIRD-EYE POINT MEDITATION

The third-eye point, the sixth chakra, is where many meditators place their Awareness during  meditation. Placing Awareness on the third-eye point can create waves of peace, love, and joy that emanate through our person, and send rays of healing Light out into our community. But what is the most effective way to do a third-eye point meditation?

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Cult Deprogramming: On Recovering from Long-Term Mind Control . by Alice B. Clagett

Excerpted and published on 4 February 2020

  • CULT DEPROGRAMMING: ON RECOVERING FROM LONG-TERM MIND CONTROL
    • On Being Held Mentally Hostage
    • Stockholm Syndrome
    • Freeze/Fawn Response

Dear Ones,

Today I thought to provide this excerpt from a longer article (1) for you, as the topic might otherwise be overlooked in the context of the long blog in which it originally appeared. Here is the excerpt ..

CULT DEPROGRAMMING: ON RECOVERING FROM LONG-TERM MIND CONTROL

Now I would like to turn to people who have been flowed-through to, by an antisocial personality; in other words, people who have been mind controlled by an antisocial personality or Dark Soul.

On Being Held Mentally Hostage

When a person is in a mental hostage situation … where they cannot escape from someone else’s Soul wounding … especially in a situation that involves remote mind control … and sometimes if the person is physically close to the antisocial personality, as is the case when an antisocial personality is in prison, and has cellmates around him … then that gives the impression … that in fact could be true, unless you have the proper tools at hand … that you are being held hostage by someone else’s mind, right?

Stockholm Syndrome

This is like the Patty Hearst situation … which is called Stockholm syndrome … which is when you do what you can, to get by, because you cannot escape …

Link: “Patty Hearst,” in Wikipedia … https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Patty_Hearst ..

Freeze/Fawn Response

It is also called the Freeze/Fawn Response, where the baby deer is confronted with a great predator, and then freezes on the spot, or else tries to play with the predator, because it has no other options. It cannot fight. It really cannot run away far. It is confronted with a predator that is far more fierce and strong than it is, and incredibly fearsome. And so what it tries to do is, it tries to go along and get along. It tries to do whatever the predator says.

Link: “Surviving My Past: In Support of All Who Have Survived the Trauma of Abuse,” by Matt Pappas, 8 March 2017 … https://www.survivingmypast.net/the-trauma-response-of-freeze-fawn-as-an-abuse-survivor/ ..

And I think that is frequently characteristic of people who are being mind controlled by these people called antisocial personalities or Dark Souls. I can see why sometimes they are given more pejorative names, like ‘the Controllers’ or ‘the Hybrids’ or ‘the Reptilians’ or ‘the Illuminati’, you know … because people feel like they cannot escape them.

And so they do this freeze/fawn syndrome … this Freeze/Fawn Response. Fight or Flight … neither one of those works. Instead they cave in.

In coming out of that, as soon as you have been able to neutralize the antisocial personality with one of the techniques that I have explained here … or more that are probably ‘in the astral air’ and soon to be available to humankind … the thing to do is to read up on Stockholm syndrome … its causes and its treatments … and to use that information to recover, as soon as possible, from the trauma of remote mind control.

That is my thought on that. You all take care. Love you lots.

In love, light and joy,
I Am of the Stars

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FOOTNOTE

(1) Link: “Syncretic Theory on the Antisocial Personality and the ‘Elementary’ (Black Soul or Dark Soul),” by Alice B. Clagett, filmed on 9 November 2016; published on 12 November 2016; transcribed and revised on 4 March 2019 … https://wp.me/p2Rkym-6nV ..

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Urban Legends: Secret Government Nanobot Project Requires Excision of Body Parts! . by Alice B. Clagett

Written and published on 22 August 2019

  • NANOBOTS AND MIND CONTROL EXPERIMENTS AT UCLA?!
    • It Gets Worse! – Rumors of Body Part Excision
    • Could High Security at UCLA’s California NanoSystems Institute Be the Crux of This Urban Legend?
  • REASONABLE RECOURSE: REQUESTING COPIES OF YOUR PATIENT CONSENT FORMS TO ‘SLAY THE DRAGON’
  • MASS MEDIA FUEL FOR THE FIRE: BERSERKER BEHAVIOR, MURDERS, AND GENERALIZED ANXIETY IN THE UNITED STATES
  • DOES MASS HYSTERIA CAUSE CONSPIRACY THEORY NOTIONS?
  • DOES DAYTIME TV EXERT MIND CONTROL?

Dear Ones,

NANOBOTS AND MIND CONTROL EXPERIMENTS AT UCLA?!

Here is an urban legend that has been circulating round the astral airs since 2013: The story goes that there is at UCLA School of Medicine a secret government project in which experimental subjects’ eyes (or variously, gastrointestinal tracts) have been inoculated with nanobots as part of an attempt to mind control United States citizens.

It Gets Worse! – Rumors of Body Part Excision

Scarier still, as the story goes, the protocol requires all the experimental subjects’ inoculated eyes (variously, the left eye, or the right eye) or ileocecal valves (the nanobots having lodged just above the ileocecal valve) to be excised so that the nanobots can be recovered and returned to the United States secret service.

Could High Security at UCLA’s California NanoSystems Institute Be the Crux of This Urban Legend?

It is possible the astral rumor came about because there is a California NanoSystems Institute … https://cnsi.ucla.edu/ … located close to the heart of the UCLA Medical Center’s Westwood Campus. Unlike most of the buildings on campus, the NanoSystems Institute used to have strict security and entry protocols. One might not just walk into it, and on to the next building; the casual campus stroller could not get past the reception area.

This is simply an urban legend, with no basis in fact. A glance at the rights provided us by the United States Constitution, and at the provisions of the Nuremberg Code, will surely set the matter straight in a moment’s time.

REASONABLE RECOURSE: REQUESTING COPIES OF YOUR PATIENT CONSENT FORMS TO ‘SLAY THE DRAGON’

For those patients at UCLA who may still have doubts about this persistent myth, one sure way to disprove it would be to request copies of your patient consent forms from UCLA School of Medicine … https://www.uclahealth.org/medical-records … As I understand it, procedures cannot be done without a consent form being on file.

For medical doctors who would like to debunk this myth, if you are referred to supposed ‘secret experiment’ patient consent forms, then I would just check on the possibility of pranked or fake forms.

MASS MEDIA FUEL FOR THE FIRE: BERSERKER BEHAVIOR, MURDERS, AND GENERALIZED ANXIETY IN THE UNITED STATES

This same topic may be coming up on the ‘astral airs’ of medical centers elsewhere. The thing of it is this: Nationwide, there have been instances of berserker behavior recently, and murders, and these may be related to an increase in generalized anxiety amongst people here in the United States. Individually, increased anxiety in our national population may result in activation of fight or flight, or freeze or fawn response.

DOES MASS HYSTERIA CAUSE CONSPIRACY THEORY NOTIONS?

Instances of mass hysteria can also result, in which a number of people believe in a ‘conspiracy theory’ notion such as the secret government nanobot project to mind control United States citizens. The thing to do, I feel, if one cannot shake the notion of such an outlandish theory, is to obtain prescription medicine for generalized anxiety, and take it for awhile, and then see where the land lies. Another possibility is to talk with friends and acquaintances whose level-headedness can be trusted, so that they can present the sorts of questions that will poo poo these ‘out there’ notions.

DOES DAYTIME TV EXERT MIND CONTROL?

To date, I feel, our surest method of mind control, here in the United States, is daytime TV. I am reminded of a time long ago when I was selling cable TV door-to-door. I recall pitching a lady who had 4 TVs in her living room, all of them on at the same time, and each tuned to a different soap opera. I did inquire about this; she said she did not want to miss one detail of any of the stories. Luckily, since then, technology has arisen that allows us to record and replay shows after they air.

In love, light and joy,
I Am of the Stars

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